yep. bang!

My weekend.
there was Dan as well. but not in pictures.
humm...
and others but not in pictures.
oh well...


I can't rmb his name but he said I'm his little asian fren.

Cheese.

Trent.

cheesiest smiles ever...

Reuben.

Elliott.

Fedda.

Alex.

Spiderman (LOL, Kyle) & Lachlan

Lucas aka Mukie

Mukie. <3

Lucas when he was blogging the last post. =]

He wishes he's asian.

I'm his best asian friend. ever.

am I right, Mukie?

u're the best mushroom. ever. =]

Odie hearts Mukie the mushroom.

LOL.

<3

hi. mi name is lucas aka mukie! (im writing for odie todai. just cos)
im sleepi and tired which is much of the same thing but slightli diiferent.

odie is fair rad. we had fun times @ the used lat night. LOL rachel and bridget are crazi to sai the least. it seems we sung more Good Charlotte songs then the used. bahaha
also i had bubble tea (cos im asian of course) and ive decided i love it. along with nandos chicken.
mmm oh lucas had never been to melbourne central proper. its a loveli place

odie needs to bui ipod speakers one time wen the shops are actualli open * giggles
im realli tired as we went to BANG. and danced drank coke danced some more and beer spilt on us several times over. more to the point. we were the last customers at Krispy Kreme and the man gave us greasors cos he asked us to leave. but thrru odei's awesome 'skills' we managed to stai. YAI.

i should probabli make this come to and end as im GOing to be lates for band prac. which is at 2 and im still in melbs. oooops!! and i mai run out of petrol. uh oh.

ok i betas Get going. mhm. goodbye from lucas.

*waves x

Life is...

Life is too precious.

I've lost things that I don't wanna lose but then again, is inevitable.
it does affect me for a bit when I lose materialistic things.
Yes, I lost my ipod juz recently. it got stolen.
and I lost money too. it might have got stolen too.
It doesn't affect me that much losing stuff like that tho...
It'd matters so much more, it becomes and issue with myself if I start losing my friends.
I hate that feeling.

Just yesterday, I got myself a new ipod.
see how this materialistic stuff can be replaced easily.
you can't do that with friends.
each and everyone of them are different.
They're one of a kind and irreplacable.
I'm not talking bout the Beyonce song, ("to the left, to the left...")
but ya, you get what I mean. I hope.

I wanna keep my friends close to me.
get to now new friends better too so I can appreaciate each and everyone of them.

I do love my friends. <3

RIP wayne thunder

R.I.P
Mr Wayne Thunder.
a great drummer.
an awesome rock star.
a friend.
you'll be missed.

<3

haha

sorry... lack of update!
I know... I know... GRR!

me blogging from Lucas' place. =]
it's good to be back in BALLARAT!
after ages... at least they all know now that I don't hate them
coz uni juz sux by piling too much work on me.
and even that, been too lazy to update blog.

but yeah, ODIE will be back in singapore soonish.
excited? excited?
YOU SHOULD BE!
umm... gimme 2 weeks.
I'll meet u lovelies.
hurry book my schedule up. coz I won't be there for long.

LOVE <3

P.S: Lucas drunk first!

so...
I went to click click like finally.
it was awesome!
and Bang! too.
coincidentally met Dan and Alex.
very nice surprise indeed. =]

one more thing, Elliott dances CRAZY.
thanx u. LOL. =P

anyways...
I'll be back to Singapore on the 2nd of June.
ANYONE WANTS ANYTHING FROM AUSSIELAND?!
holler at me. I'll try to get it for u.
of coz u have to pay me back for expensive stuff.
myspace comment me...
friendster comment me...
or send me a msg thru any of those... OR... facebook.
OR,
LEAVE ME A TAG!.

<3

"ditchers are not worth!"

I don't know why sometimes I still bother.
after feeling ditched so many times.
I often ask myself over and over and over again,
"Why do I even bother asking when I already know what the answer is gonna be?!"
thoughts...
umm... coz they're still your frens.
but then again, I don't think I need friends to disappoint me all the time.
"WHY?!"
sometimes I feel so angry at myself but oh well...
they can be ditchers, they're a big disappointment, they don't seem to be my real frens, they back out of your plans, sometimes the last minute, leaving you haning and stranded...
they borrow my stuff (clothing, accessories) and I lend it to them willingly, sometime having them around makes it feel that you're forcing them to be there, they come to me when they need something... I thought that's what frens do.
but I guess in a way, I feel like I'm being used sometimes.

FUCK THIS

I think I need to change my attitude towards people.
especially people like that. I guess.
I need to be frens with people that appreciate me more. that's what I think.
I know some of my frens are. which I'm glad for.
I don't think I need frens that disappoint me.

30 Seconds to Mars

30 Seconds to Mars... was AWESOME!
I got sitting tix. but still they were good.
they signed my shirt.
YAYS! =]

my sister called me "BITCHXCORE"
coz I saw Jared Leto.
LOL
that's funny. coz I didn't expect that.

spidey pops out.

LOL!
spiderman juz popped up in the middle of my screen.

did anyone else get that?
it was so RAD!
it's like those special rad high tech msg that I'm suppose to get.
except it's from SPIDEY!
woots woots. =]

in case u're not smart enough to figure it out, it was an ad for the movie.
haha. did u think u were a dork?!


so come on and hold my hand, I'll take you everywhere
anywhere, I'll take you anywhere, so let's go
NFG IS AWESOME!

Plastic. & day out with MUKE

PLASTIC.
was not as awesome as the last time on Good Friday's eve but it was still good.
=)

the sudden decision made by Lachlan to turn up was a good one.
got me excited and all.
and also bcoz I was gonna meet Lucas.
kinda still can't believe that he agreed to go. =)
and meeting Tom there was quite a rad surprise.
and bumping into Leo too.
that was quite joyful indeed. at least Lucas got to meet him.
and and and, meeting up with Dan and Alex.
that was fair awesome.
oh, also seeing Sam(a.k.a Mr.Jetty Surf).
that was a delight.
meeting Moccha, Maria and Andrew was nice.
excitement, excitement.
and that random chick, Cheese, I saw at the NFG concert.
she was standing right in front of me in the mosh.
saw her at NEXT and decided to talk to her.
fairly random.
but... all in the name of good fun!

I didn't get to meet Elliott. =(


Anzac Day.
How lame that I don't get the day off uni.
it's a public holiday!!!
I decided to skip the damn class neway.
went shopping with Lucas.
shared a whole lot of randomness.
good fun, good times & much laughs too.
awesome time, indeed.
turning ASIAN. [LOL]
real food. as in no junk like maccas or hungry jacks.
italian restaurant. with mushroom chicken and half & half "making-u-turn-spiderman" pizza with the stringy cheese.
photo sticker. man, I haven't been in that "photo box" in ages.
too bad no bubble tea.

back home now doing fucking journalism assignment.
due tmr in class.
morning. yucks!
wish me luck for it. cross my fingers hope I pass.

sat night.

saturday night was heaps fun.

"I told you Club Odeon plays good music."


"I can say, easy, saturday night was one of the best nights out ever."


me and my 2 lovely girls.


ME (!), Anisa, Shilna.











it's funny how our names all end with an "A".
[LOL.]

and I tell myself they are just jealous.

why do people hate me for being nice?
as my REAL friends tell me, "they're just jealous."

Guy said, "aw theyre just jealous of your beauty"
how sweet of him. <3

but I'm still kinda puzzled.
my feelings are genuine. I'm happy means I am.
yeah, I do get the occasional sad / down feelings but then I get over it fast.
coz I'd rather smile than sulk.
what is so wrong with feeling that way?

being sick is tiring.
damn flu!
go away, go away, go away... I don't want you here!

sorry for the lack of update.
but what kind of post do u expect to read from someone who's going thru a rough time these days?! u'll just prolly read bout why she's being so down and such. but yeh.
I'll deal with it.
hopefully this tough patch will go away soon.

pretty much shit day.

even tears didn't help.
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friday night was random.
very random.
TMNT was pretty good actually. I enjoyed it.
cheers for MICHELANGELO! and his skateboard.
ninja turtles, weird pizza and the sewers of new york. YAYNESS!

we walked around crown looking for michael phelps.
how more random is that?!
and how anymore random can that get?!
I blame ANISA.
LOL.

and I can't believe I didn't go out on a saturday night.
for real.

and HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!

sorry for the lack of update.
well, to whoever who still reads this blog neways.
LOL.
do leave some love.
that's what the tagboard is for.
so I know who actually is here or have been here.
u know I love all of u. =)

neways, uni is gay.
so much assignment.
it wouldn't be fun if it weren't for the new kids.
I know I prolly have said that a gazillion times already but yeh. still I'm making a point here.
so well, for now... I have to get back to management essay. which is due on wednesday btw.
1000 words. SHIT!

quizzy

DO IT!

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=070317021702-383579&

thankyouverymuch.

self-contradiction, indeed.

self contradiction is hurtful.
very painful. indeed.

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neways, I totally should have talked to that guy I saw.
black shirt, blonde and tall.
I BLAME SHILNA!
(LOL.)
msg to shilna : u know that if it weren't for u, we could've caught them outside the club and I could have said something random.
sheesh, the whole night I was feeling random and I didn't even get to do a single random thing!
RAWR!

uni is gay

work is pilling up!
HELP!
uni can be so gay!
ugh!
YUCK! :S

FALL OUT BOY!

FALL OUT BOY was pretty much AWESOME!
and that's all I have to say.

thankyouverymuch

hm... +44, unwritten law, clubbing (finally)

March has just begun.
and it's been so much fun. I hope it'll just get better. =)

+44 / unwritten law
disappointed much.
I wanted to bail on the show. but didn't coz partly my reason for going was to see TRAVIS BARKER play. but he didn't play.
sheesh...
unwritten law was good tho.
my unwritten law underwear is very much rad!

I went out. as in clubbing. like finally!
haha. for the whole holiday, I didn't go out at all.
as I've said in the last post I kept turning jiji down to go out.
talk bout feeling bad / guilty so I went.
new club, new frens and blah blah blah.
all in the name of good fun.

February.

oh February...
it's been such a rollercoaster ride for me.
and I mean that.
so much, I mean MUCH have happened.
to this and that and then this again and then back to that.
well, I mean like it goes around and around and then it kinda move on but then there are some things that still stay in its place.

orientation was by far one of the most interesting thing that happened.
plus, the new students now living in cherry tree.
I just made heaps and heaps of new frens!
loveli ppl I'd say. =D
they're effin' RAD. I mean really really cool as!
I'm so glad I didn't move out this semester. this is as fun as it can get or it'll get more fun.
they're so CHILL. love it! REALLY!<3Odie is known as S.E too! how rad is that?!
Straight - edge man! (LOL! much)

<3 Jiji, sorry to turn your down bout going out. and that happened so many times.
we'll go out soon babe. promise. =)
<3 Jah
<3 James
<3 Lukas
<3 Neeraj
<3 Ben
and so on... STAY fucken RAD!
u guys ROCK!

lying in your arms,
didn't know just what I had.
I toss and turn,
'cause I'm without you.
I'm missing you so bad,
now I cry alone in the dark.

I lie awake,
I drive myself crazy... thinking of you
made a mistake,
when I let you go, baby.
I drive myself crazy,
wanting you the way that I do.

I confessed my need to be free,
and now I'm left with al this pain.
I've only got myself to blame.

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coz I still miss you, scott

this holiday can get so overrated.
I think purely bcoz I miss someone too darn much and I can't do anything about it.
or can I actually?
I don't know. =(
sometimes I really start to doubt myself and the things I do.
I seek consolation in the most unexpected form. and I'd say that not all of them are good.
yeah, I know... what a thing to say bout self.?!
but I can't deny the fact that I always seek joy in something amusing.
I'm easily amused which can be a good thing. but bad at the same time.
you'll always see a happy face but you'll never really know what I'm feeling.
*sighs*

and sadly, he doesn't know...

VALENTINE-LESS

Valentineless.

then again I told myself that it should'nt matter much if I got good results for my exams. (which I did btw) but it doesn't feel like it doesn't matter.
it does matter. well, somehow.
but I'll deal with it.
like I always deal with everything else.

st valentine's day...
- shouldn't just be a day when a girl should feel extra special (bcoz girls should also be able to feel special on any other days)
- shouldn't be all about flowers, chocolates and all the miscellaneous stuff. (the feelings should be intangible instead of substituting them with tangible stuff)

just so you know... I miss you so.

scott & surfing

it's good to know that you're back and you're safe.
I've missed you.
it's disappointing how things end and it has to end this way.
I hope that this ending is just the beginning of a beautiful friendship.
I like you, a lot in fact.
maybe one day when I'm ready.
I'll return to you or maybe you could come back to me.
thank you.
<3

moving on...
SURFING was GREAT!
no, it was AWESOME in fact.
and YES, u didn't hear wrongly.
ODIE went surfing.
it was definitely the best new thing I did.
I've always wanted to surf, ever since I can remember when. and I finally did it.
it was such good fun. I'd definitely go for it again.
yeah, got kinda sunburnt and watever.
that's the whole point of making you look kinda like a surfer.
It's an awesome experience.
and YES! I can now say that I've ride the waves.
I am a surfer. (kinda) LOL.

oh where have u gone, scott?

it's missing...
my reason to smile.
please come back soon.

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exams go away!

YAYS!
exams are finally over for me. =)
holidays baby! WOOTS!
so as to say, it's party time!
and I'm so out there to enjoy myself.

wish me luck and hopefully I do get good results so I can go on to diploma next semester. gonna be awesome.
1st yr. oh yeah! =D


then I have a reason to smile...
<3

BIG DAY OUT!

BIG DAY OUT was most awesome.
pictures up soon.
got good pics of MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!
YAYS!
I'd say there's fate. =)

she goes to sleep with a smile on her face.
so far, things have been going well.
and I'm glad.

erm... he's loveli. =)

best friday night in agesss...

and then she goes to sleep with a smile on her face...
<3

happy happy week. =D

this week's been a bit of a toll.
I was grinning stupidly when I started my week on tuesday.
geez, there must be something wrong with me. coz it's so unlike me. like AT ALL!
=S eek!
I mean is the start of the week for me and I didn't get any fucken sleep at all. I mean non. like zero! so get the point?!
I tried to get some sleep. yeh, for like 15 minutes.
so yeh, I got up, folded me laundry. packed my room. at like erm... bout 6 in the freakin'morning.! I know I know, call me crazy.
then I got ready. ate breakfast. u know wad a rare sight to see ODELIA SUSANTO eating freakin breakfast! hahahaha. and I even offered orange juice and such to my housemates.

yeh... I was hoping for a great week. and indeed it's been good so far.
there's some disappointment. but I'll deal with it. like I always do.
kinda disappointed that churchy couldn't come and stay over.
it'd be heaps of fun. but oh well, I hope there's a next time to it.

it's Australia Day on friday and it's suppose to be holidays for everyone.
well, not me. I still have freakin class. to add on to that, my assignment is due tmr. =S eek!
heard there's gonna be fireworks in the city. maybe I should go see that with my frens.
Oh yes, fireworks bring me joy. really.
so there goes.
the ups and downs of a good week. but so far it's been pretty good. =)
thank god.

I can't wait for big day out.
it's gonna be awesome. (I hope)
and then I can't wait to get tix for +44 and Fall Out Boy.
well, that's my experience of a happy week.
I hope from this, the year will juz get better. =)
that'd be great! actually NO, it'd be more, much more than AWESOME!
love.

Jesslyn Susanto <3

I MISS...

yeh. can't believe I miss this biatch sister.
she still got some stuff to send me!
RAWR!

I miss my friends too.
geez...

neways, I had a great weekend.
can't wait till the hols start!
wish me luck for exams.
thanx u.

stress stress stress!
exams are at the end of the month.
wish me luck.
looking forward to BIG DAY OUT!

as u can see, my last post was on saturday morning. like at 6 plus.
I went out at night.
YAYS! it was my second time to "BANG!"
it was awesome much.
well, at least it was great coz i got to meet noza, jasper and moccha.
=D

geez, I miss them so much.
and well, at least that clearly made me feel good to be back.
and guess wad?!
I'm back in ballarat now. well, it's only like kinda for the night.
but at least I'm back in this town.
it feels good.

neway, I'm getting stressed out.
EXAMS are at fuckin' end of the month!
HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!
so yeh. there goes.

random facts bout new year resoloution.

first off, I think I should make my new year resolutions known.
so I can at least refer to it if I'm not sticking to it them. and also so that you can remind me to stick to them.

1. not to be bothered or get paranoid about boi drama.
2. lose weight. [should]
3. save more money [ does it mean less ballarat trips? =( ]
4. concentrate more on studies. [after all I'll be going on to diploma. A MUST!]

well, these are the 4 main ones. there are of coz others that I wanna achieve.
but hey, at least this is a really good start.
I reckon the one bout the "boi drama" is pretty original. =P

for now, I'm back to my note-writing.
talk about concentrating more on studies huh?
well, I miss Singapore.
that's all. bye.
xo

late night thoughts

I stayed up the whole night again.
the sun has rise and I can see the light seeping through my bedroom window. even tho the blinds are down. the rays are stinging as I try to sleep.
man, how I miss singapore.
even tho I was back for only 18 days.
it was definitely a different experience. coming back from another country and then meeting up with all ur frens instead of always being with them.
sometimes I do wonder what life would be like if I had stayed in singapore and continued studying there. would friendships still become distant coz everyone is in different schools and coz everyone have they're new frens to hang out with.
late night thoughts had brought up memories that are quite pleasant and at the same time contradicting.
I listened to a song that kinda brought me back down memory lane of 2 years ago. well, a year plus. but yeh... still.

I've been thinking too that I should take up something I really like to do. I dunno why I just have the sudden urge to take piano lessons again, or even guitar, or maybe vocal lessons too.
well, is like there's this other side of me that really want to do these stuff.
maybe it's bout time I do something.
who knows where that road will take me. but there's always a first step to it right?
to another different adventure of life. to experience differnt things.
and I don't think I'll know till I've tried.
it's bout time I consider...

ok, so I didn't blog for most of the time I was in singapore.
but oh wells.
Singapore was good. at least I got to meet most of my frens.
u guys are loveli. love u guys to bits! <33

but... it is good to be back in melbourne.
yeh. I'm back in melbourne now.
means back to school and assignments and exams are coming up at the end of the month.
wish me luck please.
then I can't wait for holidays again.
and I can't wait to hang out with btown kids.
u loveli peeps, I miss u so much!
xo

<3

I'm finally back in Singapore.
due to the break down of the internet connection at home. I apologize for not being able to update this blog as often as I initially intended.
sux much! I know. =S
neways, xmas wasn't the same this year.
nonetheless, it was alright tho.
I wanna have a really really good new year's eve.
2006 was quite a shit as year, I'm hoping 2007 would be better.

meanwhile,
MERRY X'MAS LOVELIES!

R. I. P
Liu Bohan.
you'll be missed.
<3

I'm tad bit excited and I feel like I can't fall asleep right now.
but I have to becoz I have class tmr.
even tho is in the afternoon, I have to wake up earlier.

I can't believe how much money I spend on food here.
It's ridiculously beyond any amount u can think of.
no wonder I feel so broke and I definitely feel FATTER!
SHUCKS! =S

6 more days now. =D

bad w/e, shopping, i miss jac

I've been too lazy to blog.

BAD BAD WEEKEND.
one of the worst ever.
I told myself that I'm not gonna spend my w/e in melbourne again unless there are RAD btown ppl to hang out with. or seriously to hang out with btown ppl.
the one w/e that I decided to stay in melb instead of going to ballarat was a tad bit of a disaster.
oh I pray, I wish for a better w/e this time.
thankyouverymuch.

shopping on monday with LANA, STEPH and NOZA was awesome tho.
you have no idea how glad I was to see them.
it was a monday tho.
at least that's good coz I know that the weekend is over and it's like a new start to a new week.
hopefully looking forward to something for the w/e ahead.

I want you to know that, I miss you, I miss you so...
<3

the internet at uni res is gay!
fuck! the whole place isn't getting any connection network watever shit at all.
=S hate much!

behind crimson eyes was awesome.
at least I get to meet me awesome "sisters" and cathy! YAYS!
hanging out at jac's place was great. haha. school girls sneaking out in the middle of the night. with cathy as their partner in crime.
that was just so RAD!

YUCK MUCH!
went for a party on saturday night and got spit / gooed on.
pure gross! =S sick as.
haha. 2 minutes at a party and the grossest thing ever.
EWWWWWW!
it was an accident tho.
but still, it's disgusting. *bleh*

sorry I haven't been updating.
I know it seems so dead and stuff. but oh wells...
sometimes things just get on my good side and totally destroy the oh-so-happy mood that I'm in. sad much to say. =/

well well, I'll be back in spore. in 15 days?!
YOU EXCITED?! I know I am. =D

and this is stuff that's basically been happening or going on and such with me.
I'll update more real soon. with pictures hopefully.
but to end it all, I'd just like to say that...
I'm happy. for some awesome reason. =)

I haven't been updating. haha. been exactly a week.
I'm such a bum.

Odelia Susanto did her assignments in advance so that she can play on the w/e.
isn't that unbelievable?
assignments in advance?! WOW!
prepare to burn was wild fun. seeing ppl jump off stage and then hurting themselves and such.
HARDCORE FUN!
too bad I'm broke or I could've gotten some merch.

in exactly 1 month, I'll be back in SINGAPORE!
are u excited or wad?!
coz I sure am. =D
1 month! 1 month! 1 month to go!
YIPPEEEE!!!

time flies so fast. it feels like it was just a few weeks ago that I just arrived here in Melbourne.
it's been a hell of a ride I must say. getting to know and making heaps of new friends and all that has been going on. it seems crazy. but it's definitely fun. altho there are some shitty moments. but it can be overcomed. geez... 1 month is only 30 days away. golly jee! I'm super psyched.
but but but... I'll miss the BTOWN BOIS.
<3

ballarat show.

Ballarat show was fun. really.
the friends made it fun.
friends just make everything so awesome.
and they really do make my life worth living, I can say.

these chicks are the RADDEST!


my lovely bunch of COWPEOPLE. (including zachie.)
he should totally be in the main picture. but he's not. =(
so I added him. there.

broken hearts, torn up letters and the story of a lonely girl

Broken Hearts, Torn Up Letters and the Story of a Lonely Girl

broken hearts and torn up letters, girl you just can't dance forever
if you wanna make it better...

hands are in her pocket as she's scared to look
the picture's frozen and she closed the book
jealousy has only got one friend and MY heart was never meant to mend

walking faster now she holds it close
the timing matters just to take the dose
empty pockets tell the stories

and there's no destiny when everyone's your enemy
take your jealous heart and cast it into stone
you'll regret it all, living behind your wall
and you'll never fall in love if you don't fall at all...

the nights are getting darker and the wind is cold
the summer sun has now become so old
your closest friends were never meant to fade
with all these dreams that didn't make the grade
close the doors but never look inside
time will tell if all the love has died
empty pockets tell the stories


broken hearts and torn up letters, girl you just can't dance forever. if you wanna make it better...
times like these don't last forever

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w/e(s) of OCTOBER.

I know this sounds crazy but I've been going to gigs everyweek in October.
AWESOME MUCH!
07/10 - PANIC! AT THE DISCO
13/10 - TASTE OF CHAOS
22/10 - ANGELS & AIRWAVES
28/10 - I KILLED THE PROM QUEEN




I KILLED THE PROM QUEEN.

I didn't take pics for ANGELS & AIRWAVES.
couldn't bring camera in and my phone battery died on me.
crappy. =S


TASTE OF CHAOS. TAKING BACK SUNDAY


TASTE OF CHAOS. SAOSIN


TASTE OF CHAOS. THURSDAY


TASTE OF CHAOS. ANTI-FLAG


TASTE OF CHAOS. UNDEROATH


TASTE OF CHAOS. SENSES FAIL




PANIC! AT THE DISCO.
(sorry blur pics. no camera allowed. these are taken by me phone.)