sick and broken hearted

I'm tired of being sick. I've been coughing like mad and I feel so tired.
my stomach hurts because I cough too much.
I sound horrible.
I have a lil wound in one nostril. UGH! it hurts when I blow my nose. it was bleeding and I kinda freaked out.
I'm so tired of this flu.
thank goodness the fever is gone.
I feel weak and helpless. I don't like it.

I don't even know how to describe what I'm feeling anymore now.
all I know it's not a good feeling at all.
heartbreak definitely doesn't help.
I cried for just a little while. I just had to get it out.
but there's no one around to make me feel better.
I can only wish...
I was waiting for a txt that I know I wouldn't get a reply from.
it hurts... oh so bad.

if you have to leave, tell me. I'll let u go with a heavy heart.
don't just walk away from me. please...
<\3

RAWRRRRR!
I wish I'd get better soon.
being sick sux. and worse of all, I'm coughing. *cough*
UGH!
I was feeling feverish on wednesday. what a way to spend a day off school. in bed. =S
EEK!
*cough cough*
I hate coughing in my sleep.
it keeps me awake. and it doesn't let me dream.
it makes me feel shit as the next day.
boo-hoo. =(

somebody must have use my internet account while I was gone.
SUCK AS!
now I have to fucken pay bout $182 extra?!!
how unfair is that?! like as if anyone would admit to have used it.
FUCK!
I'm pissed.

I wish for a better weekend.

ava and (zachie?)

how bad does it feel when you think you like someone but you feel that the someone has his heart somewhere else?
like people say falling in love can be the best feeling that you can ever feel and at the same time it is also the worst feeling ever.
it can crush you. it can make you.

bcoz I really miss you but maybe you're wishing that you're somewhere else with someone else.
I do have regrets but I think the least I could get is a second chance at something or whatever that is worth having a second shot at.
I can only wish... and wishes do come true don't they?
oh my, what have I done?
what mess have I got myself into?
it's hard not to think of you when every sign just kinda point back to you.
my oh, my...

btw, ANGELS AND AIRWAVES was awesome.
great lightings and all.
I was amazed.

I'LL BE YOUR DISTRACTION...

random bcoz(s)

bcoz I dunno how to describe what I'm feeling right now.
bcoz I think I like someone...
bcoz I'm missing loads of people.
bcoz I wish I know what / how he is thinking.
bcoz I miss a certain someone.
bcoz I miss singapore and all that comes with it.
bcoz my hols are almost over.
bcoz I'll be starting a new semester with not such good timetable.
bcoz my weekend won't start on a wednesday afternoon anymore.
bcoz underoath & taking back sunday rocks.
bcoz I was listening to Panic! at the Disco before.
bcoz I overuse my internet and now I have to fucken pay extra.
bcoz I wish I can drive & have a car.
bcoz I wonder what I'll be doing this weekend. (something RAD / fun hopefully)
bcoz I thought I would go to ballarat. (but maybe not)
bcoz I already book an air ticket back to singapore in december.
bcoz I'm gonna be skipping class. (for about a week or two or maybe)
bcoz I'm kinda straight-edge.
bcoz I don't smoke or drink alcohol. (well, not much alcohol intake)
bcoz I just turn 18 doesn't mean I have to drink all the time.
bcoz I'm a nice girl and I deserve better. (according to tianhee)
bcoz I'm a camwhore.
bcoz I wanna be able to teleport.
bcoz I like polka-dots, stripes, stars, hearts and anything RAD!
bcoz I kinda miss performing.
bcoz the only way to have me is small & cute. (says a somebody. LOL)
bcoz I'm hoping that a certain someone means what he said when he said something.

bcoz this is the most random post that you'll ever read.
bcoz I'll let you question me bout it if you want. (e-mail me? / talk to me? msn?)

bcoz I MISS YOU!

I apologize. (SORRY MUCH!)
for not being able to post pictures just as yet.
I've overuse my internet and I now have to pay almost $50 extra for it.
SUX MUCH! =S

neways, as for updates, I spent the whole day today doing nth.
stayed home. cooped up in my room.
really nth.
well, if you count waiting and thinking something. then it prolly is.

I was waiting for someone's text. or even better a phone call from that person. or when the person will get online.
I definitely was thinking of that someone.

TASTE OF CHAOS WAS AWESOME!
I'm too lazy to post pictures now tho.
another time. I promise. pinky promise.
LOL.

TASTE OF CHAOS TMR!

will be AWESOME!

going to ballarat was a spontaneous decision.
but it was fun. as usual / always.
=)

I pretty much have nth to say now.
I'm just happy.
and I guess that's all you have know for now.

me bday! =D

THANX TO ALL THAT WISH ME "HAPPY BIRTHDAY".

(sorry, too many to be listed)

and thanx for stuff that I was given. =)

ME = HAPPY 18 YEAR OLD KID!

<3 xoxoxoxoxoxo

in a few hours, I'll be 18. =)
I usually don't say anything bout me bday. but I'm turning 18. I can't help it. LOL.
I am kinda excited. and somewhat not too.
oh well, I don't know.

please don't let it be a bad day.

PANIC! AT THE DISCO WAS AWESOME!
photos up next time.

me haven't been updating. sorry. haha.
these few days have been fun & crazy and more fun.
I went to ballarat for a night to get tix for TASTE OF CHAOS. and I got to watch the guys play futsal and such. I brought krispy kreme for them. haha.
u should be jealous. LOL.

wira the nuthead is in melb for 5 days.
me and him and yenny been out and about in the city and stuff juz hanging out.
oh, frens...

last night I stupidly locked the both of us (myself and wira) out of my room coz I left the keys inside. I didn't sleep the whole night. watched dvds. and I look like a wreck now. so I'm off to take a shower. gotta leave soon for PANIC! AT THE DISCO and it's gonna be AWESOME. tatas for now.

melbourne show. and krispy kreme

DAY 1. (saturday)


DAY 2. (sunday)
of melbourne show.
it's really fun. and meeting awesome people. =)

webcam galore with pam. LOL. miss you cuz. <3

ME! ME! ME!

KRISPY KREME! THE BEST DOUGHNUTS EVER!

at least the best one I've ever tasted. in my whole life.

melbourne show.

I love carnivals. =)
the atmosphere is just pure full of fun and it makes me feel like a kid.
didn't I tell u that some strangers made my day.
haha.
first some dude got me to play games.
I was having fun and stuff. and he ended up asking for my number?!
LOL.
then the guy who did hair extension for me said that I was hot. (thankyou?) and gave me another strand of a different colour for free.
how wonderful? =D
and yes, I got strands of red(s) in my hair now. one orangish red and one maroonish red.
they kinda look awesome. =)
bought rad stuff. and a whole big bag full of wonka candies.
RADNESS!
made new fren(s). met some.
I didn't go on any rides tho. no one to go with me.
I wanna go back to that place. but... I doubt anyone will wanna go again.
well, there's always next year. I hope.
I shall be looking forward. =)

I'm having 3 weeks break.
I should get a job. (prolly?)
oh well... I'm off to bed.
with my new care bear. =)