part of me wants to hate myself for wanting to hate you.
:(

to becca.

bestie, I hope you get better soon.
lots of care, love, hugs and kisses. :)
xoxo

and I'll be back soon enough to hang out with you.

Last week, I was in Queensland.
"hello, sunshine!"
but only to know that it was the rainiest time ever.
Laura and I managed to get some sun in Brisbane altho there was a storm too.
kinda reminded me of home.
thunder and lightning, and rain, the smell of soil and blackouts.
I stayed over for anight at Laura's aunt's place. had home-cooked meal. YUMMMM!
and pretty much a very lazy sunday.

it kept raining in gold coast tho.
got rained on all tuesday while I was at dreamworld.
bummer! but I still had fun.
left on the Saturday, came back to Melbourne on Wednesday night.
man, what a trip. :)
photos will be up on facebook.

now I'm back in Melbourne.
"hello! cold weather."
it's good to be back but seriously, we need more sun in Melbourne.
the cold can get so intolerable. I need warmth.

so now I'm bumming around, pretty much. and partying. haha.
till it's time for me to leave for home.
more updates soon.

flight update.

Odie's flight update

7th December to Singapore from Melbourne.
13 December to Jakarta from Singapore.

still not sure when I'm getting back to Singapore after that.
but I'll keep yous updated.

xoxo

YAYS!
finally finished with exams.
if I pass all my units, it means, goodbye 2nd year!
and starting 3rd year next year!
*fingers crossed* I'll pass, I'll pass, I'll pass!!!

sometimes, I'm impressed at myself.
for some reason just known to self. maybe a few others but yea.

feelings have gone too much in a roller-coaster.
they'll never be constant.
not till I know for sure anyway.
contradictory: I want it, but I don't. or vice versa, I don't, but I want it.
I can't decide. too much risk of getting hurt again.
so tired and sick of that feeling.
I don't wanna be stuck in a "hurt" limbo.
too much pain, really.
and I thought physical pain is enough. emotional pain, is worse!
no, thankyou.

"I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
The best of us can find happiness in misery."

So an update...
HALLOWEEN PARTY.
and I went dressed up as Snow White.
Jess went as Red Riding Hood.
it was a good night. :)

besides that point, there's more on a certain someone...
I miss you, but I don't know anymore.
I don't know if you're worth my time.
I don't know...
I like you, still.
but it's getting lesser day by day. (I think)
I hope we can be better friends.