I don't know why sometimes I still bother.
after feeling ditched so many times.
I often ask myself over and over and over again,
"Why do I even bother asking when I already know what the answer is gonna be?!"
thoughts...
umm... coz they're still your frens.
but then again, I don't think I need friends to disappoint me all the time.
"WHY?!"
sometimes I feel so angry at myself but oh well...
they can be ditchers, they're a big disappointment, they don't seem to be my real frens, they back out of your plans, sometimes the last minute, leaving you haning and stranded...
they borrow my stuff (clothing, accessories) and I lend it to them willingly, sometime having them around makes it feel that you're forcing them to be there, they come to me when they need something... I thought that's what frens do.
but I guess in a way, I feel like I'm being used sometimes.
FUCK THISI think I need to change my attitude towards people.
especially people like that. I guess.
I need to be frens with people that appreciate me more. that's what I think.
I know some of my frens are. which I'm glad for.
I don't think I need frens that disappoint me.