best saturday everrrrrrrr!

I HAD THE BEST SATURDAY EVERRRRRRR!!!

for like 2 months I've been here.

MUCH THANX TO LUCAS, ZACHIE, CASEY & NOZA!!!

LOVE YOU GUYS TO BITSSSSSS!
*mwah mwah! <33333
xoxo




ZACHIE, LUCAS, NOZA


LUCAS. and me. (DUH!)


CASEY, ZACHIE and NOZA. in my room.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

I realized that I haven't been updating.
OOPS! BIG OOPS!
oh wells... welcome the new month. is SEPTEMBER!
and that means... nop, not really HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! well, that. and also that means... IT'S GETTING CLOSER TO DECEMBER! and that, me, ODELIA SUSANTO would be returning to SINGAPORE!

YAYS!!!

I actually feel lost and confused as what to blog about.
honestly, I've been to blogger.com a few times yesterday but I just didn't sign in and really get blogging. I just closed the window. WEIRD!!! I know. LOL.
I've been more hardworking this week. going to campus just to get started on my assignment. is like WHOAW! u don't get to see ODEL doing that in singapore. LOL. maybe it is trus that I've become more hardworking here. BLEAH! watever the heck that means.

oh... back on the topic of TEACHERS' DAY! I feel kinda bummed that I can't go back to whitley and meet up with ex-classmates / schoolmates. =( I'm sure it'll be really fun. I mean is like an annual thing. and suddenly is all different coz I'm not gonna be there this year. oh wells... but I'll live.

random shit.

it was a beautiful morning. and it still is a beautiful day.
I know is monday and oh wells, I do hate to admit that I have a full day at school today. I was actually thinking of skipping class this morning. DUH! computing lesson is as boring as it can get. almost suitable to be referred to as "sleeping lesson". maybe the sunny morning did have an effect on me feeling much fresher on this particular day of the week. I guess by now u can guess that I'm usually pretty much still asleep all the way till i reach school. and well, a few moments after I eat my breakfast and enter class. BLAH!

ok so i'm just going on and on bout shit here. well, I can't help it if the information design teacher is showing us some boring-no sound-presentation of some sort. not in my interest neways. she's not even showing on the theme that I'm doing on. BLAH!!! *YAWNS* neway, bout time I get back to the uninteresting stuff on the overheads before I fail my assignment. =S

taaas for now. prolly update later (or not). LOL.

bad saturday.

this SATURDAY has been filled with ups and downs.
the day didn't turn out how I expected it would be.
well, I guess shit happens.
=(

all the people that I miss... the list goes on...

I MISS FAR TOO MANY PEOPLE TO BE LISTED...

SO THE LIST GOES ON... AND ON...

<\3

jean.

"<\3"

I could use some attention.

I need you to tell me that I'm not forgotten.

I MISS YOU!

where have you been?

tears...

Sometimes, I just need a good cry once in a while.

recalling.

provoking thought : ah bengs turning emo.
EWW! YUCK! GROSS! AWFUL! DISGUSTING?!

off that topic, or I can go on and on and on.
coz there's just so many gross things to say bout that.
EWW! k, enough enough.

so apparently, I missed Festpiel XVII.
sighs.
I miss those days when I can dress up and go to an event. especially school event like Festpiel. because everyone seems to be dressing up too, which actually makes it more exciting. and after Festpiel means supper at nearby food centres like lau pa sat and clark quay / boat quay or now makan sutra at esplanade? I dunno. and that will be the excuse of going home later than usual. "it's a school event." memories, memories.

I saw a rainbow the other day.
and I thought of you. I don't know why.
somehow I wish you were here to see it too. or maybe just be there to give the stupidest comments like "it's cold and you wanna get in rather than see the rainbow." like how you said that it's cold outside and not wanting to see the stars. oh, I miss those days. It was far too short a time. but oh wells... I miss your company. I really do. there are far too many things that remind me of you. I can't help but to think. I mean my brain can't be stagnant right? sighs... but is goodbye for now.

we'll meet again when the season's change. I MISS YOU! <3 d____

<3
Goodbye _____,

You've flown away to a distant land.

You won't return till the season's changed.

You know I'll miss you.

I deeply hope that you'll miss me too.

Remember the times we shared, remember the hugs and kisses.

Most of all, remember me for me.

Now there's no one to hold me close in the night.

How I miss the way you kept me warm throught the night.

So here I lay on this cold bed, secretly wishing that you're here with me.

I miss your company on my sleepless nights.

It 's only been days and oh, I miss you so.

pics galore.

CAMWHORE.



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gerry & me. pasya & me.



aldy & wilma. damar & me.



wilma & damar. in the train.

wilma & andri.


wack! kissy! me & andri




raymond, wilma & me


hafis & pasya. win (botak) & aldy (the DJ).

tya & andri.


aldy & tya. andri & randy.

I MISS YOU, JEAN!

I MISS YOU!
where have you been?

thank goodness I'm still alive and kickin'.
ha! fever's gone. YAYS!
and and and... I have an overwhelming feeling of missing people.
=(
sighs.

FEVER.

it sucks so much being sick.
especially if you're down with fever.
I stayed in bed mostly the whole day yesterday.
it sucks even more knowing that you have a full day class on monday.
yea yea, I missed my monday morning class.
BAHH!!!
I can't believe that I'm hardwokring enough to turn up for class this afternoon.
WHOA ME!

This diziness is driving me crazy!
it was worse yesterday.
I can't even walk without seeing the room spinning.
imagine having to walk up and down the stairs at home.
whooooo...

IT SUCKS BEING SICK!

there are things that always seem to make us confused.
contradictory stuff.

a scandal that is not so scandalous after all.
a love that is not loving.
care that is not caring.
a fren who is not such a fren after all.
and the list goes on... ... ...

things that makes us ponder on things that are not necessarily thinkable.
sometimes I feel that things happen for a reason.
on the other hand, I feel that is kinda pointless as well.
see what I mean?!
contradiction.
sighs.

WHY, OH WHY?

I received a postcard from my beloved cousin JUSTINE from NEW YORK CITY.
whooooo!

so I might catch PANIC! AT THE DISCO after all.
hehehe.
Jess, please come asap to melbourne after ur exams.
and is it confirmed that you're coming?
please tell me it is.
are u even allowed to come?
has nana given u the permission?

whoa, too many questions to be asked.
I MISS YOU, DEAR SISTER.
<3

I MISS YOU, MISS YOU.

I MISS MY FRENS DEARLY.
you guys, please wait for my return to singapore.
we'll party. =)

FOR DEAREST PHYLLIS.

FOR DEAREST PHYLLIS!
sorry this is a late post.






happy birthday dearest. =)
<33

love is all around.

ok well, this thought has been on my mind for the past couple of days.
and it really is quite a thought.

ok here goes...
haven't you realize that love is REALLY all around?
I've been on the train, tram, bus and stuff here in aussie.
and I've observed some interesting stuff.
what I saw that kept me thinking is... an old couple.
I guess you can guess the rest.

well, if you doubt this, try to observe ppl.
even the lil things they do.
be it among frens, old couples, young couples.
just everyone.
even to a stranger maybe.
it'll keep you thinking bout stuff.

SHARE SOME LOVE. <3

oh, scandal.

It'll be my dirty lil secret.
SCANDALOUS, OH SCANDALOUS.

a series of unfortunate events?

HOW MANY UNFORTUNATE EVENTS CAN HAPPEN IN ONE DAY?!
I mean it totally sux.
I've been craving Max Brenner's waffles for like weeks. and today when I finally wanna eat and I thought I had the chance, they have to run out of waffles. BUMMER!!!. and then, I decided to pamper myself by buying a pair of shoes and only to realize that the shop has already closed. BAH! DOUBLE BUMMER!!! next, I wanted to satisfy myself by buying this really nice tasting bubble tea with nice tasting pearls. only that they have to run out of pearls. TRIPLE BUMMER!!! I mean isn't that enough for a day already?

then I asked my fren to go watch PANIC! AT THE DISCO with me. and he agreed. you have no idea how happy I am when he said OK. but... then I realized that october is a holiday month. we have like 3 weeks of holidays. then he said he was going back to indo. so BUMMER! and he might not watch with me. so I asked jess if she'd wanna come and catch PANIC! but it turns out that her n levels might just end on the 6th or october. how is she gonna rush here by the 7th of october and catch the show with me?! is that like wad QUADRUPLE BUMMER?!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK?!!!

so much for being happy earlier on in the day. it just turns out to be like that. wad did I do to deserve these bad karma?! BAH! phase of life. I'm gonna live thru it tho. but is like wad... A SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS?!

PIRATES! <3

FINALLY!!!
I watched PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN!
gawd, y ou have no idea how long I waited.
first waiting for the movie to even start showing in the theaters.
and then when that happens, I have to wait for my fren to watch it with me.
BAHHHHHHHH!!!
what a long wait for a movie. I mean it's just ONE MOVIE!
URGH!!!

oh well, I can proudly say that I've watched the movie.
amazing set!
and OOH LALA! JOHNNY DEPP!!!
and all the accents. british and pirate language.
WOOTS! WOOTS!
YAYS FOR PIRATES!
YO-HO! YO-HO! A PIRATE'S LIFE FOR ME!

ok. JESS told me to update my blog.
hahaha.
I MISS YOU DEAR SISTER.
u're sick. please get well soon. =)
and I'm glad u liked the presents.
<3

to JEAN, I'll try to send more goodness to you soon.
I can't wait till u write to me. =D
and how I wish I can send myself back. LOL.
"is there anything nice in melbourne besides you?"
ha! that was funny.

I think sending myself back to singapore will save loads of cost.
cost on the air ticket.
BAHHHH!

and to the rest of the ppl, I MISS YOU! and I'M ALWAYS MISSING YOU GUYS!
<3

these few days have been fun.
out and about. going to the city and stuff.
and then had BBQ last night.
such an impromptu event organised by dunno-who. but still, oh so fun. =)
I'll put pics up soon. then u guys can see who I've been hanging out with.
the indo kids here are such a fun bunch. haha.

a big big big BUMMER tho.
I'm missing BAYBEATS. =(
sighs.
JESS, I wanna see pics please.
and to everyone there, a big big big big big "HELLO!!!" from me.

I miss all of you plenty. <3

WHOA, I didn't even realize that my blog is updated.
blah!
sorry peeps.

so here goes...
I've made more new frens. which is a good thing and definitely interesting.
but sometimes events and things happen that I wish I have my frens from singapore to enjoy the things I do here.
I feel that now, living on my own gives me more sense of freedom. I mean loads of freedom.
like you have to buy everything for urself and then you have frens from the other house here that share the stuff with you and you, in return, you share ur stuff with them. is like we crash at each other's place and then take turn to buy groceries and titbits and also doing the cooking and washing the dishes and even buying food from outside.
is like I can have a sleepover on a daily basis.
I don't get these experience in singapore.
let along staying over at someone's place. I'm not even allowed to go and stay over at a chalet. HOW PATHETIC?!

k, enough of that.
so JESS and JEAN's birthday are coming.
and I've mailed them their present. (YAYS! finally) HAHA!
I HOPE YOU'LL LIKE IT. =)

to my gurlfrens back in singapore (becca, lumpy and chelle) :
I'll try to send something to you guys as asap.
I might even send myself. LOL. (if that's possible)

oh well... that's part of my life here in melbourne and I'll be back with more updates on it.
I so can't believe that I'm having a mind block.
BAH!

5 days off school. well, including saturday and sunday.
didn't go to class on wednesday coz I wasn't feeling well.
is really a no-class day on thursday.
and I didn't turn up for friday's class coz it's as boring as hell.
academic study skills?!
goodness, I learn all those shit in spore everyday.
enough.
but nonetheless, I still have to pass it.
dumb-ness.
no exams but assignments. BLAH!

It's amazing how a simple text can make a person feel so close even tho they're far away by distance. or even by messenger. the wonders of technology. as I've learnt in school.

well, don't you agree?

some interesting stuff

the beauty in winter.
dried leaves and no snow.
you don't get to see these in singapore.


welcome to the suburbs.


picturesque.


rock candies. well, lollies actually.
but that big chunck there is actually edible.
I don't know how long it'll take to finish that tho.
10 kg of sweet stuff.

random shit.

Name twenty people you can think of right now.
Don't read the question(s) until you've named the 20 people.

1) becca
2) chelle lee
3) tziwei
4) jesslyn susanto
5) tianhee
6) jean
7) edward
8) kevin
9) zach
10) kx
11) gonaidi
12) chee tong
13) kaizi
14) alfred
15) warren
16) jasmine
17) justin musloe
18) dharma
19) desmond
20) gerard

How did you meet #14 ( alfred )?
in school. we were in the same class for 2 years.

What would you do if you didn't meet #1 ( becca )?
I dunno. seriously. she's my best fren.

What if #9 and #20 date( zach & gerard )?
NO FUCKEN WAY! they're not gay!

Would #6 and #17 make a good couple( jean & justin )?
NOP! TOTALLY! they're not gay!

Describe #3 ( tziwei )
wacky. crazy. my another best fren.

Is #8 attractive? ( kevin )
he has his ways.

Describe #7 ( edward )
fun. crazy. a good fren.

Do you know any of #12 family members?( cheetong )
his sister and I've met his parents when I go over every chinese new year.

What would you do if #18 confess to you that he likes you?( dharma )
hahahaha. I DON'T THINK SO!

What language does #15 speak?( warren )
english, chinese.

Who is #9 going out with?( zach )
I don't know.

How old is #16 ?( jasmine)
17 this year.

When is the last time you spoke to #13 ?( kaizi )
I can't rmb. I would love to talk him tho.

Who is #2's ( chelle lee ) favourite band/singer?
whoa! loads. i guess.

Would you ever date #4 ?( jesslyn susanto )
NO FUCKEN WAY! SHE'S MY SISTER!

Would you ever date #1 ( becca )?
NO! SHE'S MY BEST FREN!

Is #15 single?( warren )
I don't know.

What's #10's last name?( kx )
I don't know. LIM?! I call him kx. not his full name.

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11 ?( gonaidi )
NO! he's my godbro.

School of #3 ?( tziwei)
serangoon junior college.

Where does #6 live?( jean)
east side of singapore. katong. i think?

What's your fave thing about #5 ?( tianhee )
he's my buddy!

Have you seen #1 naked before? ( becca )
NO! and I wouldn't want to. I'm no perv.

What is #19 like as a person? ( desmond )
desmond is desmond. fun and nice. RAWRRRR! LOL.

I want someone who can fly me about.
just like SUPERMAN!
It'll be so wonderful.
=D

and I still wish for teleportation power.

SHIN! SHIN! haha.

Shin gave me a new nick. LOL.
OLY. haha.
coz he keeps forgetting my name.
hahaha.
funny ah you Shin?!

I think today was the best school day out of the first week of school.
and the first week is not even over yet actually.
I still have class on friday afternoon.
but today was fun.
well, at least the lecturer made it more interesting.
it's gonna be an off day tmr.
no classes and nth at all.
so let's just see wad I can do. =)

second day of school. is alright.
but the thought of the assignments and stuff that I gotta do real soon freaks me out.
well, I guess I've been missing out the school life a whole lot.
haha

I made so many new frens.
a whole bunch of fun ppl.
esp the indons. (ppl at cherry tree)
LOVE YOU GUYS. =)
tau aja deh who u guys are.
<3

stars

Do you know you can see more stars in Melbourne?
I even saw shooting stars.

I wished on the shooting stars. Just for you.
Why, oh why?

So much for a phone call. I hope that wasn't you.

orientation was alright.
is gonna last till friday.
photo-taking for student id is on friday and bloody hell, is not exactly glam to take a photo with a zit on ur face.
please be gone!!!

seriously, my school campus is like an office building.
hahaha.
I'm skipping orientation tmr.
I'm not up for boring talks bout stuff.
hahahaha.

I've made loads of new frens.
YAYS!
and things aren't so bad here.

I still miss being in singapore.
most of all, I MISS YOU!

IT'S SO COLDDDD!!!!
I NEED SOME HEAT! hahaha.

and school orientation is tmr!
I'm excited and nervous.
I don't know why I am nervous. but oh wells...

I've made quite a lot of new frens.
and it's great. =)
but I won't forget u guys back in spore.
YOU GUYS MEAN SO MUCH TO ME!
I MISS YOU!!!
<3

nat, I wouldn't be a WONDERWALL without you.
so u'll be noticable no matter what.
I LOVE PRINCESS STARFIRE! =)

eye-candies. =)

EYE-CANDIES. EYE-CANDIES. and MORE EYE-CANDIES.
gurls... get it?
LOL.
=D

I'm in MELBOURNE!
and yes, it is COLD COLD COLD!

I NEED A WARM HUG! I REALLY DO!

and I've got a housemate.
yes, I'm staying in a dorm. but is more like an apartment actually.
so yea.

I'm still waiting. I MISS YOU! <3

please, jean.

I NEED A CLUE, PLEASE...
I feel lost and confused.
I'm sorry.

I wanna be a superhero with teleportation powers.

define love.

someone asked me today, what is "love"?
and I replied, "I don't know how to describe it to you."
that someone asked again, "have you ever been in 'love'?"
I replied, "I don't know. there are different kind of love you know..."
that someone asked again, "such as?"
I replied, "well, like family love, siblings love, brotherly sisterly love and love LOVE."
that someone asked, "have you ever love LOVE someone?"
I replied, "I don't know."

this is by far the most interesting question I got for the day.
it got me thinking.
and really, what is love?

blame it on luck and fate.

It's so unfair how I can always be glad bout something even tho the situation is so bad.

I'm gonna be in spore for an hour on friday. airplane transit.
and above all things, I'm glad that I can be in spore for that pathetic 1 HOUR!
Is like, which person in the right mind can feel glad bout it?
when you've had such a horrible one month.
one month of missing your frens, your loved ones and new ppl that you just made frens with and ppl that you long to hang out with. or even ppl that you didn't even get to hang out with.
It's just unfair.

the whole getting the student visa thingy took longer than I expected.
it was like a total waste of time and when I plan to leave on the 11th of june, I ended up leaving on the 16th of june. and my visa only got done on the 12th.
the initial plan that they told me was I go back to jakarta then fly down to sydney and change to the domestic flight to melbourne.
but i guess not anymore. I'll be flying up to spore then back down straight to melbourne.
why is it that I can't even stay for like a couple of days in spore before I leave for melbourne?
it's not possible.
what I said was, "blame it on luck... and fate."
well, it seems like that.
nth is going in my favour. and my parents don't even wanna stay till I've started school.
they're just gonna be there for a week. regardless of whatever day and when their week is over then they'll just leave. not even considering the fact that my school starts on the 26th of june.
I mean, is only for a few more days right?
sheesh...

what luck?!
and my sister and cousins are all in italy enjoying themselves.
already, I'm bummed enough that I can't even go.
and luck repaid me by giving me just 1 HOUR in singapore.
sighs.

thank you for this pathetic month. NOT!

CRISTIANO RONALDO

CRISTIANO RONALDO is OOH LA LA!
=)

YAYS!!!
i went shopping today!
FINALLY, i got the ZARA skirt.
and the belt that i've been wanting to get. is a white belt with heart-shaped studs.
awesome right?! =)
and i still wanna get a paul-frank shirt!
it's an emo-monkey! =D
JOY! JOY!

i still wanna get ACCEPTANCE and THE ACADEMY IS... CDs.
and a pair of VANS slip-ons.

everyone is going to ITALY for a holiday and i'll be still stuck here in pathetic JAKARTA.
BOO!
on top of that, i still need to work to get more cash to buy stuff. =(
sighs.
the "joy" of life in jakarta.
sad life. really really sad.

These days, I miss you more than ever. I 've been thinking bout you. You seem to have dissapeared. Maybe for a lil while, leaving me behind to fall in the deep abyss that I've just discovered. I miss the way we used to talk, even tho we don't really talk face to face. I miss your texts. I miss talking to you online. I just miss you. The thoughts of what you've said still linger in my mind. And I'm happy to be thinking bout you. =)

jess is coming back to jkt!

RAWRR!!!
blogger is being annoying! like totally!
i can't sign in. takes me a bloody hell long time to get the page loaded and shit.

neway, JESS is coming back to jakarta today!
YAYS!
that's a plus. and something to look forward to.
I MISS MY SISTER!
see, i may hate her all i want. but i still love her.
that's just how things go i guess.
in the siblings rivalry and love. hahaha.
even tho she's only gonna be here for a day before she leaves for ITALY, i'm still glad that i could hang out with her.
i mean GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME, that beats seeing her again for x'mas!
it's just too long a time.

and the thing that i'm really looking forward is to go MAJOR SHOPPING with her.
it just gives me a sense of satisfaction.
and shopping with a sibling is always good. honest comments bout everything. haha. kinda.
so yeah...

she better buy me stuff from ITALY tho, or I'LL KILL HER.
is bad enough i can't go along to ITALY.
damn school. blah!

smiley

:)

just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

TIANHEE IS A GOOD GUESSER!
so what if u can read my mind huh?!
it can be annoying sometimes. LOL.

this post is for friday, 2nd of june.
coz I don't know what to blog about.
except that...
you've been on my mind the whole day. =)

and after I blog about this, you'll still be on my mind.
how amazing... =)

hey unloving, I will love you.
<3

trouble trouble, boil and bubble.
but is all settled now.
as I say, "SPREAD THE LOVE!"
=)

thanx for taking me on a ride.
and getting me out of adult troubles.
sure made my night.
besides that...
MICHAEL, should stop laughing at me juz because i have to work.
is a bummer already! I KNOW IT!
HA!
LOL.

I MISS YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW.

RAWR! updates bout me.
i might start uploading videos. i don't know yet. but i might.

saturday night.
went clubbingwith my parents and their frens.
yes, i was the only "KID" there.
the place was so dark.
and it was techno all the way.
BLAH!
i think they totally destroy some pretty good and decent songs.
sad case of adding more beats to music. sounds horrible.
advantage : i got to get out of the house and come home late.
disadvantage : dislike the music. the place was too dark. the music was too loud and annoying coz it's like the same bass beats over and over again.
DISGUSTING!

kept thinking bout singapore tho.
like all the fun clubbing with my frens and stuff. and it felt so different going without them.
furthermore, the music sucks hardcore.
but made me think of TIANHEE.
coz he loves techno.
i find that stuff kinda impossible to dance to actually.
but he can. and surprisingly, kevin can too. LOL.

sunday.
went out of town to puncak.
juz to eat my favourite pancake and poffejes ( if that's how u spell it ) at some hotel / resort in a mountainous area.
nice view. nice air. nice food.
at least not that much pollution like jakarta.

so i can't wait for the da vinci code. like FINALLY.
and i need to do more shopping.

is friday night and i'm all alone.
that makes me miss you more.

everytime i wanna catch a movie, the tix is always sold out. and again when i go the next day or anywhere else, is the same situation.
NO TIX! NO TIX! NO TIX!
this is sooooo freaking annoying.
my sis has already watched da vinci code TWICE!
and i haven't even seen it.
i wonder when i can get tix to watch X-MEN 3.
GAWD! RAWRRRRRRRRRRRR!

the last time i watched POSEIDON, the film went out twice.
prolly part of the story was cut off.
coz it was like a blank screen.
WTF?!
i don't experience that in singapore.
cinemas in jakarta juz sux.
even the tix prices ranges. depending on which cinema u go to.
u go to a theater with cheap tix price, u get fugly smelly seats. and litter all over your seats.
YUCK!
u go to a theater with expensive tix price, u get good service and all.
i mean like WHATEVER!
but u have to pay a bomb for it.
and expensive means more than $9.50... u know!
URGH!
and they only show a few shows at one time.
maximum prolly 6 movies at a time.
like WTF?!
i'm so deprived of movies.
for a frequent movie go-er like me, this is BAD!

medical check up.

i went for medical check up today.
i didn't know u have to go thru so much shit before applying for a visa to aussie.
BLAH!
but it takes shit like that.
thank goodness no injections and things like that.
I FEAR SYRINGES WITH NEEDLES!
=S
and lungs x-ray?!

if only wishes could be dreams and all my dreams could come true.

i dunno wad to say.
just that I MISS SPORE soooooooooo MUCH!
sighs.

DISNEYLAND KIDS!

KX AND I ARE DISNEYLAND KIDS!

CAPTAIN JEAN!

is amazing how one text can make you feel so happy for the whole day. =)
I love the feeling.
<3
and the thought of it just kept me smiling despite the ups and downs in the day.
YOU made my day again. and again. and always.
like you always do. even now when I'm not around.

I thought of it as lost hopes.
just the lingering thought of staying as close as friends kept me contented.
but you never fail to make my day. even with things as simple as a text.
I MISS YOU! and really, I DO!

my only wish is that you won't forget me. ever.
then in that way, we can always be friends.
i hope. and i wish.

lack of EYE CANDIES.

ODELIA SURVIVED 2 WEEKS IN JAKARTA WITHOUT EYE CANDIES!
and MIND YOU, IS 2 FUCKING WEEKS!
=(

and I can't even live without eye candies for 2 FREAKING DAYS in SPORE.
HMRPH!

today is not such a bad day.
yea, still going ot of town. but, watever.
i got to buy a book and magazines today.
at least i have something to read at work. rather then getting bored staring into blank space. UGH!

actually i do have a fren who cares.
that's just ONE.
but still it counts.
thanx MICHAEL. =)
i kinda unbelievable that you'd actually care so much bout me feeling like shit in jakarta.
at least you're keeping my company. on the phone for now.
and thanx for the text the next day.
it was really sweet of you to ask if i was feeling better and stuff. =)
and i can't believe i was crying on the phone. oops.

wait, did i tell you that he wants to bring me out too?
well, that's after his exams tho.
at least he can drive. so i hope if i do go out with him, i'll have fun.
sorry tho for being so demanding bout star-gazing and going to the beach. LOL.
but... ya. haha. =)
still, THANK YOU. <3

OH, YOU'RE SUCH A BAD BOY IN A GOOD WAY!

my day's better today.
i still miss singapore.
but at least i had a better day.
=)

oh... i got a new digicam.
that means. more cam-whoring!
YAYS!

I miss singapore =(

I cried in silence. At work. =(
I miss singapore so badly.
everything bout singapore. all the fun and even the boring part of it.

that's all i have to say for today.

i didn't blog yesterday, i realized.
i can't think of wad to blog.
sighs.

i went to the doctor today.
flu bug got me!
and it got my mom too.
is skipped work for 2 days.

life here is still boring and i'm not enjoying it.
i might not be able to stay over at my cousin's this weekend too.
so another weekend with nth to do.
how great can that get?! *sacasm*
=S

I NEED SOMEONE TO KIDNAP ME!
BRING ME BACK TO SINGAPORE!
OR ANYWHERE HAPPIER!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!

to BECCA, LUMPY and CHELLE : please gang up and come here to kidnap me! PLEASE!

to JEAN : AYE CAPTAIN! SEND YOUR WHOLE PIRATE CREW HERE AND TAKE ME AWAY!

to GERARD : DUDE, do something. I KNOW YOU WANNA KIDNAP ME! you need happy ppl. LIKE ME! =)

anybody else who wanna kidnap me and take me away to a happy place, please be my guest.
but tell me before hand.



"KIDNAPPERS" application form

name :

why do u wanna kidnap me? :


copy and paste, FILL IT UP and send it to my e-mail : voodoo_jelly@hotmail.com.
I'LL BE GLAD TO HEAR FROM YOU, MY FRIENDS! =)

m:i:||| and ethan

so after watching M:i:III
my conclusion is... i like the name ETHAN.
is such a nice name.

and the ethan i met isn't such a bad guy.
ETHAN MENTZER that is. =)
if you're clueless, he's the BASSIST of THE CLICK FIVE.
see, BASSIST!
=D

i'm on MTV! LOL.
haha. with the click five.
well, watch out for me or something.
LOL.
catch the show timings...
Wed 10 May 2300hrs
Sat 13 May 1500hrs
Sun 21 May 1700hrs
too bad they didn't show the one at zouk.

and yes, i'm thankful for a better sunday. =)

feeling of emptiness.

so i didn't get the saturday i wished for.
the desperate way out was to join my grandaunts and granduncle for dinner.
it wasn't fancy but at least i get to get out of the house.

SIGHS.

it feels sooooo bad to be here. i thought everything was gonna be ok and i totally told myself that i'll be able to deal with everything after all i got my mom and everything. but is not.

I'M NOT OKAY! I'M REALLY NOT OK HERE!

i'd much rather be somewhere else.
be it in singapore or anywhere. ANYWHERE HAPPIER! =(

i miss all of you ppl sooooo much. i don't know how i can deal with that everyday.

i came back home from dinner today and i decided to call my best fren. and both of them were there together. so lump and becca.
man, i was sooooooo happy to hear ur 2 voices together. but somehow it feels so different.
to know that u guys are having fun and i'm actually missing it. and to know that i'm actually so far away from u guys. it juz hurts. and the fact that i really miss u guys doesn't help me feel better. it made everything worse.

is not ur fault really. NOT AT ALL.
in fact, i wanna apologize for breaking down and cry on the phone. I'M SO SORRY.
i juz feel ever so lonely. and i feel like i've got no one here. is that bad...
u guys tell me to make frens... but with who?
and there's no one here for me to hang out with.
weekends without my frens is juz so different. too different to be put into words.

i wish i can somehow deal with this and wish that it'll be over soon.
but one more painful month to go.
i'm only leaving for aussie early in june. probably 10th june.
sighs.

i'm turning into an emo kid.
maybe JEAN was right. i am an emo kid.

so i didn't work on friday.
and i'm stuck at home on a friday night.
UGH!
even my parents are out at someone's party.
and me, pathetic ME... STUCK AT HOME.

well well... give me a better saturday.
please.

to those peeps in singapore,
friday night is different without me eh?
sighs.
i wish i can be back there.

so i went to work.
and i got paid. YAYS!
since i only work for 2 days this week.
i got 100,000 rupiahs.
which is not bad a pay in indonesia.
compare the standard of living.
whoo!!!
actually my pay was increased.
from Rp 45,000 a day to Rp 50,000.

jess if u're reading this. haha. =)
and i'm still doing the same stuff at work.
i even got to take a short power nap.
LOL.

so... i still miss the ppl back in singapore.

and that's all i have to say for today.

one more thing...
mango and chocolate doesn't taste that bad.
quite yummy in fact.

pirate and thank you(s)

YAYS! PIRATE!
i got a pirate!
=D
pirates are lovable. yes?

msg to chelle : esp this one yes? LOL.
CAPTAIN _ _ _ _ sounds good right CHELLE?! haha.

neway, i haven't got a chance to say this.
so here goes...

thank you TIANHEE, KEVIN, CHARLES and ALFRED for the roses.
they're beautiful. =)

thank you WEESUAN for the bottle of sand.
lovely. =)

thank you CHELLE for the collage of photographs.
love them. =)

thank you CHEETONG for the cheesacake.
it was YUMMY! =)

thank you WIZ for the saw loser cd and the photo.
how thoughtful of you. =)

thank you ZACH, QINGLONG, GUIYUAN, ANDY, DESMOND for the alarm clock.
i'll try to practice the art of being early. LOL. =)

THANK YOU...
jess, pam, becca, lampy, chelle, natasha, alfred, tianhee, kevin, kaizi, cheetong, junhan, weesuan, zach, qinglong, wiz, chiumei, douglas, cone, joshua, shawn, jon and dharma for going to the airport to send me off.

LOVE YOU GUYS PLENTY!
<33333

ok so i didn't go to work today.
HA!
but i have to show up for work tmr.
GRR!

can you be my pirate?
LOL.
your name sounds good with the word "captain" in front. =)

i'm fascinated by pirates.
pirates are RAD.

YAYS!
GUESS WHO'S BACK ONLINE?!!!!
ME ME ME!

i can't stay for long.
work tmr.
URGH!
ahflsdghas;kghaghad.

thanx jess for invading.

I MISS EVERYONE LOADS!

more updates soon. i promise.

Jezz invades.

Hello fellow readers of Of Odel's blog.
This is Jez, her beloved sister, helping Del to blog [:

Sad to say, I'm here to deliver some bad news. Odel will not be online for maybe a few days till the computer over there is fixed.
She also wants me to tell EVERYONE, that she misses all of you already even though its only been a day.

Mmkay that is all. Take care & remember that Odel is missing youuuu !!!1 (: