so i went to work.
and i got paid. YAYS!
since i only work for 2 days this week.
i got 100,000 rupiahs.
which is not bad a pay in indonesia.
compare the standard of living.
whoo!!!
actually my pay was increased.
from Rp 45,000 a day to Rp 50,000.

jess if u're reading this. haha. =)
and i'm still doing the same stuff at work.
i even got to take a short power nap.
LOL.

so... i still miss the ppl back in singapore.

and that's all i have to say for today.

one more thing...
mango and chocolate doesn't taste that bad.
quite yummy in fact.

pirate and thank you(s)

YAYS! PIRATE!
i got a pirate!
=D
pirates are lovable. yes?

msg to chelle : esp this one yes? LOL.
CAPTAIN _ _ _ _ sounds good right CHELLE?! haha.

neway, i haven't got a chance to say this.
so here goes...

thank you TIANHEE, KEVIN, CHARLES and ALFRED for the roses.
they're beautiful. =)

thank you WEESUAN for the bottle of sand.
lovely. =)

thank you CHELLE for the collage of photographs.
love them. =)

thank you CHEETONG for the cheesacake.
it was YUMMY! =)

thank you WIZ for the saw loser cd and the photo.
how thoughtful of you. =)

thank you ZACH, QINGLONG, GUIYUAN, ANDY, DESMOND for the alarm clock.
i'll try to practice the art of being early. LOL. =)

THANK YOU...
jess, pam, becca, lampy, chelle, natasha, alfred, tianhee, kevin, kaizi, cheetong, junhan, weesuan, zach, qinglong, wiz, chiumei, douglas, cone, joshua, shawn, jon and dharma for going to the airport to send me off.

LOVE YOU GUYS PLENTY!
<33333

ok so i didn't go to work today.
HA!
but i have to show up for work tmr.
GRR!

can you be my pirate?
LOL.
your name sounds good with the word "captain" in front. =)

i'm fascinated by pirates.
pirates are RAD.

YAYS!
GUESS WHO'S BACK ONLINE?!!!!
ME ME ME!

i can't stay for long.
work tmr.
URGH!
ahflsdghas;kghaghad.

thanx jess for invading.

I MISS EVERYONE LOADS!

more updates soon. i promise.

Jezz invades.

Hello fellow readers of Of Odel's blog.
This is Jez, her beloved sister, helping Del to blog [:

Sad to say, I'm here to deliver some bad news. Odel will not be online for maybe a few days till the computer over there is fixed.
She also wants me to tell EVERYONE, that she misses all of you already even though its only been a day.

Mmkay that is all. Take care & remember that Odel is missing youuuu !!!1 (:

leaving

so... i'm leaving today.
can't believe how fast time flies.
man... i'm gonna miss everyone here in singapore.
if i were to list it out, i bet u...
it'll take up like the whole page.
u'll be tired of reading to find ur name.
LOL.

so goodbye to everything here.
i'll be back for more next time.
hopefully in this same year too when i'm having my school vacation.
although i really can't bear to say goodbye, i really have to.
SIGHS.
so to everyone i know, YOU'LL BE MISSED!
PLENTY!!!

lots and lots and gazillion more love from me.

Baby, just say goodnight. I'll be gone tomorrow.
Baby, just close your eyes. I can't take the sorrow.
Baby, just walk away. You know I can't stay.
There's no easy way to say goodbye...
Baby, just say goodnight.

JASON. LOL. packaholic.

MetalEdge133: lol i read it ummmmm
MetalEdge133: first off
MetalEdge133: come here its better
MetalEdge133: and second u packaholic
MetalEdge133: dont take so much

LOL.

ha! you know who you are.

SO NOW I'M A PACKAHOLIC!
HA HA!

TUUM!

TUUM TUUM.

LOL.

straight teeth.

LOOK PPL! STRAIGHT TEETH!
LOL.
ok, sorry random.
and is a totally random pic! so yea... pardon the fuglyness.
HAHA!

=D

DO I LOOK BETTER WITH OR WITHOUT BRACES?!
honest answers appreaciated. LOL.

braces!

I GOT MY BRACES OUT TODAY!
and YES, i'm hyper bout it!
like it or not!!!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...
straight teeth! =D

the click five + steve and ryan. = <33333

THE CLICK FIVE.


ERIC DILL.


ETHAN MENTZER.


JOEY ZEHR.

BEN ROMANS.

JOE GUESE.

and another 2 awesome ppl. =)

STEVE.


RYAN.

THE CLICK FIVE + STEVE & RYAN = <33333

let's get married - archie star

But it don't mean a thing, if you're not next to me.
I'm so sick, so sick of just always dreaming...
I'm sleeping on the couch which is married to the matress.
I think the hardest times are finally gonna pass us.
The Glass half full, to watch my eyes
Oh babe I promise that'll never let it happen last time...
I know you're there so I'm not scared
But that's the crazy, how "bout we just get married?"
She said "Hey Baby Baby Boy, loved you from the day that we met."
Don't care what mom says, "If we're ready just yet"
Because it don't mean a thing, if you're not next to me.
You're who I want to wake up to every morning.

Let's just get married.
Baby yeah, I'll marry you.

let's get married - archie star

happy sunday.

my sunday wasn't that bad.
dinner at suntec city.
then off to bbq at janice's place.
THANX JAN, for it.
i had fun!

today i realized, i've missed you all along.

so the day didn't turn out that bad. =)
it was pretty fun actually.
i got to talk to ppl whom i didn't even talk to in school and i thought i never will talk to them.
edward, i hope u had fun. =)

i met REUBEN! =D

ok, so i still haven't got over THE CLICK FIVE.
i wanted to post some pics.
but... i can't seem to.
GRR!!!
another day perhaps.

the click five + steve and ryan. = <33333

i think i should blog about this coz i can't get it out of my mind!
WHOOOO!!!

ERIC DILL has got a killer smile!
and i told him that.
seriously, one to die for! =D

ETHAN MENTZER is juz plain gorgeous!
BASSIST!
juz that fact that he's a bassist makes him hot already!

BEN ROMANS is such an awesome keyboardist!
love his style.
he's my inspiration to continue playing the piano.
and i told him that.
he replied, "you should!"

JOEY ZEHR has gorgeous eyes.
like totally! GORGEOUS!
his eyes are like the most beautiful eyes i've ever seen.
plus he's really tall.

JOE GUESE seems like the lil kid of the group!
nonetheless, he has the cool factor!
the lil kid factor juz makes him all the more cute! =)

that's THE CLICK FIVE for you.
i had a blast hanging out with them. =)
lovely ppl.
<3

and the 2 lovable personal stage crew of click five on that day.
STEVE AND RYAN!
STEVE, u're juz such a great guy! thanx soooo much for the pick!
RYAN, ooh tattoos. and i love his tattoos.
=)

friday night.

so friday night.
all i did was go for a family dinner.
that's it.
i hope saturday would be more fun.

Friday night, baby are you sleeping
Friday night, my heart is still beating
It's alright.
Curfew's gonna break my heart
So come and meet me in the dark
Friday night, you're under the covers
Friday night, we could be lovers
It's alright.
Open up your sleepy eyes
Come alive, come alive on friday night

that is wad i should be doing on friday night!

i dreamt bout you. =)
you know who you are.
it was weird, funny but nice in a way.
LOL.
knight in shining armor. LOL.
hahahahahahaha.

ditched? i dunno.

someone go to the zoo with me?
let's bring out the inner child in us.
LOL.

WHY?!

i miss you.
each and everyone.

THE CLICK FIVE.

IT WAS GREAT!
AWESOME, in fact.
nuff' said!
pics uploaded on a another day. =)

i'll try my very best to do something to make u feel better.
please don't be mad at me.
please.

i love playing 'GUESS' with WAYNE THUNDER!
LOL.
nuff' said. =D







where is MY boy tonight? i hope he is a gentleman.
<\3

so i'm a happy gurl. =)
i've got invites to THE CLICK FIVE at ZOUK!
i got them from DESMOND! =)
thanx, LOVE. <3
and i'm excited.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

today isn't such a bad day.
met up with desmond to get my intives.
he gave me 4 by the way. =)
and zach really ought to love me for giving him the opportunity to see THE CLICK FIVE! LOL.
then i took a cab down to school for drama.
had kfc with the 3 wacky gurls.
and mustika, i'm know u'll be alright.
is not gonna be all that bad.
cheer up gurl. =)
that wacky phone call from some stranger to akira. LOL.
and ana being a "pirate". LOL.
met uncle kiat at novena and went for ice-cream at ben & jerrys.
GAWD! ice-cream when is so cold.
walked around for a bit.
then i took a cab home. coz is wet and stuff.
bottomline, i'm juz lazy. LOL.

so it might sound abit boring.
tmr will be an exciting day. =)
YAYS!

you're looking for something you can't find.
if you give it up you'll lose your mind.
there's always something in your way.
what can u say?
you're gonna have a good day.

tix to THE CLICK FIVE AT ZOUK!

OMGZZZ!
I LOVE DESMOND!
DUDE, U ROCK MY SOCK!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you X GAZILLION!
still not enough right?! LOL.
<33

DESMOND MADE ME A HAPPY GURL! =DD

I'M GONNA HAVE A GOOD DAY!

CLICK FIVE! CLICK FIVE! CLICK FIVE!
ooh la la la la.
=)

pretty balloons.


birthday gurl.
she's got a pretty cake. =)


happy kids.
look at the boy with the hands in his mouth.
one of the cutest kids.


birthday gurl adelyn and i. =)


kids. and party hats. =)


we got pretty hats. be jealous. =D


finally, the lame clown that jess and i wanna shoot.
HAHA!
thank goodness he got no make up on.
CLOWNS FREAK ME OUT!

so this was how i spent my sunday. mostly.

HOLLABACK!

HOLLABACK! HOLLABACK!
it was AMAZING!
the excitement and everything else.
WHITLEY! WHITLEY!
RONIN was great. but a pity, they preformed only for a lil while.
THE CLICK FIVE WAS AWESOME!
i was grooving. =)
it was definitely FUN.
actually is the best day i've had the whole of last week.
and the best one that i've woken up to.
so i'm really really really glad. =)

i've got more than enough eye-candy for the day! =D
shan wee and the click five.
wad more could i ask for?
i'm a happy gurl for now.

ate at marina square, chilled at the esplanade.
then left for bishan coz my sister misses her boyfren.
i'm such a nice sister.
the whole time, i was a total lightbulb. UGH!

but watever... overall, it was a good day!!!

i wanna go to zouk. on wednesday night.
i want tickets. please please please pray for me so that i can get them.
i need more of THE CLICK FIVE! =)

TAKE THE LEAD is a gooooooddddd movie.
watch it. =)

i'm excited. for hollaback finals. ronin, THE CLICK FIVE!
i'm annoyed.
i'm frustrated.
i'm worried.
i'm feeling emo.
my home is not a place where i wanna be right now.
is not a happy place for me.
i can't figure out my feelings. i don't exactly know how i feel.
i hate the feeling of being home.
i feel stuck.
i feel restricted.
if not for my lil cousins and sister at home, i'll go insane.

i need someone.
someone to spend the whole day with me juz doing nth or doing something that'll help me get my mind off things.
please.

i know i know i know, i'm still your love...
i know i know i know. you're still my love...
stick your hands inside my pocket, keep them warm while i'm still here.
tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't change me at all.
stick your heart inside of my chest, keep them warm while we rest.
tell then this love hasn't changed me, hasn't change me at all.
the same as i love you, you'll always love me too.
this love isn't good unless it's me and you.
<3

this is for the 13th.
and sorry but i do realize that i'm always blogging like a day late. well, not technically a day but juz later than it should. haha.

i didn't have a good start to my day.
it was a really really bad start.
the kind that i did thought of but not the one to happen.
i've been wishing that it wouldn't happen at all.
well, i left the house feeling upset.
but thanx to tianhee, weishen, jianbin, matthew, dayah.
i was glad to take my mind of things for a bit.
i didn't even complain that we catch a foreign movie which tianhee thinks is a comedy in a way.
it was suppose to be a horror flick!

so my grandma wants me off by the 27th of april. i know is a few days earlier. and she thinks it would be better coz my aunt would be flying off to jakarta on that day too.
but 27th or april is a thursday. which means that my gurlfrens have school. at least 2 of them do.
the reason why i wanna go on the 30th is because...
firstly, it's the end of the month. and i can start a new life-less life in jakarta which will be at least for a month or so? i don't know.
secondly, the 30th is a sunday. yes it is a weekend. or also the start of a new week to some.
but i wouldn't mind having a sad sunday coz sunday is always more of a blues day for me. and also, sunday is always seen as the last day of the week for all of us. so is perhaps the best time for a goodbye. and also i think it would be easier to get on with lives after that as the monday would be a start of another busy week. even tho the monday 1st of may is LABOUR DAY. at least is a good time to get over stuff.
thirdly, i don't wanna burn out my weekend in jkt. is a bad idea.
i mean i'd rather have me spending the weekend with ppl i care and love. MY FRIENDS!
it would be a much more meaningful.

seriously, i don't know when i'll be back in singapore again.
it is sad. it really is.
these few months while i'm bumming in singapore, i've made many new frens that matters to me coz they're such nice and fun ppl.
and loads of catching up with old frens.
ppl that i've never really been close with. i've grown closer to them.
i will miss all my dear friends for sure.
if you are my fren, i'll miss you. really.
so if you do think or know that i'm your fren, you will be really missed.

life is not gonna be the same.
for me. and for ppl.
and i think you know who you guys are.

can you hear me? does anyone around me feel the way that i feel now?...
coz i need you more than ever, i need your help to find where i've been going wrong so far.
take me under your wings tonight, make me so perfect in your eyes...
i need your loving hand to guide me through the maze of all the things inside me then i know that i'm alright.
please help me get from worse better before these tears soak through this lonely sweater and let me know that i'm alright...

thanx jean. you made my day. mostly. =)
you give the best surprises at my downest moment.
<3

this is for the 12th.
YAYS! i went shopping today!
and yes as i predicted, i didn't buy much stuff. but there was loads. i mean LOADS of trying. =)
i bought myself a black and white polka dotted spaghetti top and a rose buckeled belt.
well, that was the closest satisfaction of a belt that i can get coz it was nice, next to the superman logo buckle.

chelle, thanx for the company. really enjoyed it.
and SAVE UP FOR THE HEELS!
we shall go get it for urself when we go shopping again?

made a new fren today. joel. technically, michelle's ex school mate.

ok, dental first. then shopped and shopped and shopped.
tried and tried and tried.
it was fun.
i haven't done that in a while actually.

i still haven't got my superman logo belt buckle. i can't order it either.
BUMMER! =(

met up with josh and jon for dinner.
jon's joke got me laughing like a mad hatter. LOL.
pubic hair grow to the back and shit.
WTF?!
but hell yeah it was funny.
so josh and jon wanted to come over to my place. to chill.
josh had a crazy idea of swimming.
but they couldn't stay long anyway.
my grandma's in town and i had to go. before she nags or something. so yea.

well, it was fun seeing the both of them again.
i miss them. and their nonsense. =)

met san singer while walking home. it was a nice surprise actually.

i still want a pirate and a superhero name.
i haven't got one.

unexpectedly, i ended up shopping with liangyan today.
it was fun.
but she did the shopping.
i window-shopped.
the reallll shopping deal for me is tmr.
altho i don't think i'll be buying too much stuff, i'm sure of wad i wanna get.

chelle, i can't wait!!!

question : is liangyan stupid?
the magic number 8 ball answers, "SIGNS POINT TO YES"
so there you go.

is strange but everytime i get a text, i wish it's you.
at least for now.

there's a good reason these tables are numbered honey, you just havent thought of it yet

Next is a trip to the, the ladies room in vain,and
I bet you just can't keep up with these fashionistas, and
Tonight, tonight you are, you are a whispering campaign.
I bet to them your name is "Cheap", I bet to them you look like shit.
Talk to the mirror, choke back tears.
And keep telling yourself that "I'm a diva!"
Oh and the smokes in that cigarette box on the table,they just so happen to be laced with nitroglycerin.
I am the new cancer, never looked better, you can't stand it.
Because you say so under your breath.
You're reading lips "When did he get at all confident?"

freakers & chelle.

i never expected that phone call. it wasn't a pleasant surprise. not at all.
it kinda freaked me out.
it really did.
i don't wanna meet u. not for now. maybe not later or another day.
u freak me out. somehow.
like u did the last time.

thanx chelle!
the skinny ass gurl who doesn't keep her myspace alive. LOL.
love, <3
can't wait for shopping! WOOTS!

this is for the 9th of april.
u know how it feels when u haven't finish ur sentence and ppl juz hang up on u on the phone?! GAWD.

holland v. spizza. ate pamela.
LOL.
gonaidi, stop saying that i'm eating my cousin.
went to marina square. played arcade.
becca, i told u the funny guns work. at least is a change from shooting zombies. LOL.
sorry tianhee we didn't bowl. next time. =)

juz glimpses of you make me happy.
illegally downloaded stuff juz to see you act.
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
hot-ness.
a weakness for J.A.M.
WOOTS!
<3

i want a pirate name. =D
i need a super-hero name too.

jean says i'm a superhero pirate.
YAYS!
<3

thanx zach for the 3 cds. =)
<333

went to gashaus to watch ronin and frens gig.
met edward and yiloong there.
wad a pleasant surprise.
laughing and joking and stuff.
all the ball lickers and shit they were talking about.
made new frens. =)

and i got my eye-candy for the night / day. =)
<3

dysfunctional.

i know i've made mistakes. and always making them. but don't everybody make mistakes too?! even adults make mistakes.
come on, give me a break!!!
the phone call that my mom made from jakarta made me realize that my family is not all that perfect. and i mean not juz my family. coz i'm close with my other relatives as well, i'd like to see them much like my family too. but, i guess everything is juz kinda dysfunctional. well, that's one way to put it. DYSFUNCTIONAL. but then again, i still love my family no matter wad.

maybe i'm juz seeing this whole big family thing too innocently. all the phrases and sayings of family living harmoniously. i doubt that. i do. somehow. so much for being a harmonious family. after all this time, i thought i'm the only one, among all my frens or rather anyone i know, who's actually close to the bigger family, rather than the kind of family that only consist of a dad, mom, brother, sister. no, i count my aunts, uncles, grandaunts, granduncles, grandma, grandpa, all my cousins and everyone else involve as a family. but, i juz realized that they do bitch about me. they say things behind my back and gossip bout me. yes, make comparison of me and other ppl that they know. that i might be able to tolerate. maybe. but hey, doesn't everyone have their imperfection? excuse me, i can't be all that everyone wants me to be. i'm not perfect. I'M REALLY NOT PERFECT.

i'm 17 going on 18 and i make mistakes. just like everyone else. can anyone accept me for who i am and not try to change me?! that's so impossible in my family. my teenage years are bad enough being controlled tooooo strictly. i don't get sleepovers. coz i can't. and i can't even organize one for my frens and i to hang out. i don't drink much. coz i've never been drunk. and so much that i wanna live like by the moment and juz enjoy it for wad it is, I CAN'T.

i would so much like the adults in this family reflect and think too. YOU'RE NOT ALWAYS RIGHT! i really wanna know their past. did my mom make big mistakes? like staying out too late and stuff? well, i always hear that my dad was notorious. wad bout my uncles? and aunts? wad did they do when they were younger? they did get wild too, i'm sure. well, the thing is that there is generation gap u know. u gotta let me live thru my teenage years the way i want it to be lived. i won't do drugs. i promise. and i bet the adults know that too. i'm already a passive smoker. well, u say that i shouldn't smoke. well firstly the influence did not come from frens. my dad smokes, i have uncles who smoke too. so see, it all started from the family itself. and everytime i talk to the adults, they say that they don't want me hanging around and making frens with bad company. but think again, are the frens really bad or really where did the influence come from?

my mom told me not to sleep late. i told her i can't sleep. and the next thing she said was that ppl are complaining bout me sleeping "early" and waking up in the afternoon / evening. hey, too bad i'm the night-life kinda gurl, O K?! GEEZ! then she said, wad bout later when i've started school. i told her, is not gonna be like this after i start school. and right now i have no school. and she replied with silence. see... wad's wrong with everyone?! they even bitch bout me sleeping "early". wad's wrong with them?! and then there'll be a talk. and it will start off with this FAMOUS line, "your parents care about u, they're concern and worried". maybe parents will never trust their younglings enough. i'm sure mine don't. and i can assure u that. is sad to think this way. aren't we all family, why do family do such things? and even i turn to my aunts to talk to them, i'll juz get the same reply. then there's always this FAMOUS reasoning, "you'll know it next time when u have your own children. you'll do the same thing too". is like i have no one to turn to at all. and watever reasons i have and watever that i have in mind to do, i can't carry it out without approval. is like my whole life is being controlled. and that's why i'm longing for freedom. at least for now. i talk to my parents and i've tried to tell them to let me do wad i want. their answer might be a yes but eventually, it actually turn out to be a no. as opposite as it gets. thank u very much! i still can't do wad i want to.

i feel like no one's listening. no one at all. i'm restricted to everything i want.
and i can't do everything and anything i want coz of family pressure.
is depressing to think this way. it really is.
but i have to face it that is gonna this dysfunctional. till i dunno when and i hope i'll still be able to live thru it. is not as tho i'm gonna commit suicide or anything but i'm juz waiting for the day when i finally can be heard. maybe they still see me as a kid who doesn't know wad i want. but even a kid can feel and think. why not hear the KID out and see wad she has to say?
RIGHT?

sorry that this entry is sooo long. but if i don't spill my thoughts and feelings here, who else can i turn to? i'm the only one who can speak up for myself in this issue.

wishlist.

i think i've got a wishlist.
erm...

♥ really good party(s) before i leave.
♥ a digital camera.
♥ a shopping spree.
♥ more RAD shirts / top / skirts / shoes / footwear.
♥ a handbag / bag (the balenciaga inspired kind)
♥ accesories. (earrings / choker / necklace)
♥ the fishnet hand thingy.
♥ black and red striped socks. ( that i saw at takashimaya department store)
♥ black and white striped socks.
♥ a rad hat.

★ hawk nelson CDs. ( saturday rock action / letters to the president )
★ fall out boy CDs. ( fall out boy's evening with your girl / take this to your grave / my heart will always be the b-side to my tongue / from under the cork tree )
★ acceptance CDs. ( lost for words / black lines to the battlefields / phantoms )
★ jason mraz CDs. ( waiting for my rocket to come / mr. a-z )
★ mae CDs. ( destination : beautiful / the everglow )
★ the click five CD. ( grettings from the imrie house )
★ the audition CDs. ( it's all in your head / controvery loves company )
★ panic! at the disco CD. ( a fever you can't sweat out)
★ meriwether CDs. ( meriwether / make your move )
★ october fall CD. ( a season in hell )
★ something corporate CD. ( audioboxer / leaving through the window / north )
★ the used CDs. ( the used / in love and death )
★ the veronicas CD. ( the secret life of )
★ waking ashland CD. ( composure )
★ relient k CDs. (relient k / the anatomy of the tongue in cheek / two lefts don't make a right...but three do / mmhmm / apethetic [EP] )

i think that's all i can think of for now.
maybe there's more.
i have to think.
gawd... mainly CDs. coz i have to pick clothings myself. LOL.

ok, i need to mention this.
thanx DONAVAN for recommending me to watch 13th district.
=)

here's wad happen yesterday. and erm... today? LOL.
i went to school for drama.
hang out with the adek-adek. =)
and finally get to talk to PHYLLIS my DEAREST after sooooo long.
then went off to meet tianhee, kevin and warren.
dinner, bowling, arcade.

KEVIN'S PARA-PARA DEBUT?!
LOL.
go kevin.

and then CHIJMES.
yea yea, back to carnaval.
gawd... aren't we all under-dressed.
drank. got high / hyper.
went nuts for a bit.
and the guys thought i was drunk... like pft, gone.
no i wasn't.
i bet u i was the most sober one there. ok?
and according to tianhee, i wasn't able to even stay up to watch THE O.C.
but i did watch a lil of it. before i realized that my laptop was already on ever since my sis came back from school and the adaptor was already so effing hot. so i gotta switch it of before it explodes or spoil or something.
so then i went off to bed.

TIANHEE OWES ME A MEAL AT MARCHE'S!
HA!

so today i mean yesterday as in monday.
it rained again.
totally destroy or on the milder side, crushed my mood.
i wanted to go out shopping.
meet some frens and juz hang out.

i wanna meet ALFRED!
i miss that dude.
but then again, it rained.
there goes. bummer huh?

so, i stayed in bed. for like the whole time.
till zach called me.
movies? totally up for it. since the rained already stopped.
well, there was josefyn and chunlin too.
so we caught 13th district. is a french movie btw. with english subtitles. DUH!
well, i'm not a big fan of foreign movie actually.
but i gotta say, this one's good.
check it out. i mean to the rest who hasn't catch the movie yet.
then we went to the balcony. had a few drinks. juz talk and joke and stuff.
oh, and gerry and huishan came too.
it was great to see ppl whom i did work with before.
i kinda miss work tho.
i hear them talk bout work and it sounded... well, fun and not fun at the same time.
well, they get to experience that and they can talk or bitch bout it.
but one thing that i had in mind was that the fact that i gotta stop working there. is sad tho. it really is. but i gotta do wad i gotta do.
but is nice at the same time that u still get to see these ppl again.
i mean i've made frens with them for a lil bit. is juz not very nice to juz leave a hi-bye impression u know.
after all, these ppl are fun to be with in a way.

neways, reflections and thoughts.
my entries are getting more "mind-ful" these days.
loads of thoughts.
and now, BACK TO THE O.C!
=)

i feel the need to blog bout this.
i don't know why.
but i'm chewing on my nails again.
and now is short.
GAWD!
someone tell me to stop.
and constantly remind me to not bite my nails. before i bite my fingers off as well.
well, on one really really important condition.
don't be an irritating person when u remind me.
when u irritate me enough, i'll tell u.
so there goes...
i want an un-irritating person to remind me not to bite my nails.

i hope my simple request is fulfilled.
thank you very much.
=)

it wasn't a sunday that i imagine it would be.
not a very good sunday.


i just realized that SHAN WEE has to bend down everytime he is wanted in a picture.
that includes my picture with him
he's too tall.
and good-looking! =)
he's my eye candy!
<3

i forgot bout this.
i hit shan on the right shoulder.
he stared at me for a bit.
and i said, "HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S!"
LOL. that got him for a bit.
i bet he was puzzled to why i hit him
but he smiled back.
it wasn't that bad.
i didn't think i hit him too hard. at least i hope i didn't.

This poison's my intoxication. I broke the needle off in my skin. Picked the scabs and picked the bleeding. And assume that it was all in vain. A positive scab that's never healing. Calloused hit me in the face. A burning bridge that's so misleading. Poison's more potent now with the flame. Let it bleed, and take the red for what it's worth. Watch the fire, fill your lungs with smoke for the last time. If you feel like dying, you might wanna sing. The fire department couldn't drown the city. They didn't even try to wash it clean. What did you think, that I was sober? Put me out cause I'm on fucking fire. A positive scab that's never healing. Regret that I kept this clean. The most that I can do for you is keep on lying. It's not a lie if you can let it sing...

APRIL FOOL'S before and after.

well, friday kinda sucked coz it rained on me and i couldn't go out.
so i was pretty much bored.

thank you SATURDAY!
it was APRIL FOOL'S DAY!
it was good.
actually not just good but it was GREAT!

i went to the padang to watch the whitleyans for the whole hollaback crew thing.
WOOTS! who would have thought?!
they were great.! i mean AWESOME!
each and everyone of them!
both whitley teams took the first and second position.
so they're in the FINALS!
yes, FINALS!
and i can't wait for that!
i soooooo badly wanna get tickets.
and u know wad tickets means?!!
I CAN WATCH THE CLICK 5!
YAYS! DOUBLE YAYS! and TRIPLE YAYS! and MORE YAYS!
i'll be able to watch both teams again!
and also RONIN.
and also THE CLICK 5!
i can almost feel the excitement.
but please, i don't wanna think of the disappointment.
as in, NO TICKETS?!
that'll be a DISASTER!
like fo sho!
so please please please, pray that i can get tickets.
and i hope god will answer my prayers.
i'm keeping my fingers crossed on that!

and yea, APRIL FOOL'S!
haha.
jokes and fun and stuff with frens.
it was FUN definitely.

surprise visit from GREG!
dude, I MISS YOU!
pool was fun! hahaha =)
altho i know i'm not good at it.
arcade was sick. in a good way.
i dunno why but i seem to have lost my mojo at playing arcade games.
man, that suck!
i gotta start going to the arcade more often tho.
but contradictory, it'll increase the chances of me getting deaf.
loud noises and bang bang gun shots and funny noises out of machines and not forgetting the ever loud techno blasting music from the damn para para machines with crazy TWITS dancing like they're somekind of stuck poles that can only move their legs and hands in time with the rhythm.
is like, have u ever seen someone moving their whole body when they do that thingy on the para para machine? i bet NOT!
well, i did once. it was ALLLLLLL WEIRDDDD!
trust me, i bet u don't even wanna see it.
the guy who did it, i mean A GUY.
he was sooooo hilarious at it that it was an attraction.
but i dunno if it was in a good way or bad.
but i think is a bad thing coz everyone was just laughing.
well, i don't think technically laughing together with him but AT him.
so... GO FIGURE!
if u get wad i mean.

ok, met up with tianhee, gonaidi, cheetong and junhan.
soccer match.
MAN U WIN?!
and i caught a movie.
the inside man.
maybe u should try watching it.
well, it wasn't really wad i imagined the movie to be but the guy did a really clever move.
robbing a bank but didn't steal anything.
leaving clean traces. oh, which means no trace at all.
had everything planned out.
and actually just to steal some cartier diamond ring from and old dude.
well, the ring was HUGE!
i bet if u seen the diamond on it, u wish u had it or something.
some paris stuff. it was indeed a one-of-a-kind jewellery.
so go catch it. if u have time.
besides, they've got good actors and actress in it.

neway, THANX ZACH!
FALL OUT BOY CD!
YAYS!
love, <3

and now, hello sunday.
and i'm still addicted to watching THE O.C SEASON 2 on DVD!
and guess wad, i'm actually taking the time off to post this long entry.
so, i'm back to the show.
take notice of the time. is actually 6.30 am.
so, yea. catch ya later.

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!
=D

first joke of the day!
YAY! to DHARMA!
u really got me there. =)
i thought it was for real.
DUDE! hahaha.

let's see who can come up with more jokes and pranks for me today.
let it be a fun day, PLEASE!

cds & tianhee.

i'm happy.
first i got the PANIC! AT THE DISCO cd.
even tho is for my sis.
but i still get to listen to it.
YAYS!

today, i got myself THE ROCKET SUMMER cd.
pretty good! DUH!
and THE O.C SEASON 2.
DOUBLE YAYS!
so if u don't see me online for a bit, u should know why yea? LOL.

something can make me even happier.
SUMMERLAND ON DVD!
YES, SUMMERLAND PLEASE... i'm waiting.

tianhee, u make me feel honored.
u said i should be proud of myself.
well, both of us were talking. online.
bout some stuff.
and then i said bout getting a bf in aussie or something. LOL.
i'm not desperate or anything. let's just go with the flow.
and he said, "u don't have to look for one. they'd line up for u."
HAHA! LOL.
that's a figure speech. something like that.
but he did make me feel good bout myself. and honored in a way too.
well, all of coz in a good way.
my head is not gonna swell like some too self-obsessed bitch.
i'll still be my nice and humble self.
don't worry bout that.
=)

dental today.
got my guitar back from iqbal.
erm, lemme thing.
out with THE KIDS!
LOL.
ate junk food. and more junk food.
caught ice age 2.
cute show.
we were all laughing.

one thing i can remember most bout the movie.
HI! HI! HI! HI! HI! HI! HI! HI! HI! HI!
all the hyper sloths.
LOL.
all hail the fire king!

wanted to catch another movie, ultraviolet.
but front 2 rows.
no thanx.
i'm not desperate to watch it either. maybe next time.

oh wells, came back home and started fun again
GLORIA and her nonsense.
ok, ALL THE KIDS AND THEIR NONSENSE.
i think i should be included as one of the kids.
even tho i was shouting at them and stuff trying to keep the room neat for bedtime.
GRR! KIDS!
i <3 my cousins!

DHARMA!

isn't DHARMA such a sweetie?
LOL.
=)

thanx for this.
<3

YAYS!
3 of my cousins are in singapore!
JUSTINE!!!
u should come and meet me!!!
I MISS YOU TRUCKLOADS!
and u're back in jkt.
GRRRR!!!
well, i'm seeing u next month.
=)
look forward to that and u promised me u'll hang out with me.
YAYS!

shopped. got a new atticus shirt.
thanx to my aunt.
YAYS!
had dinner at the cafe cartel.
watched a movie.
hahaha.
the goodness of having cousins around.
especially christopher, adrian and adeline.
too bad justine's missing.
but is still good.

oh, i forgot...
famous amos cookies and delifrance chocolate crossaint.

wish u were me now?! HA! DREAM ON! LOL.

ok, here's details and more stuff.
on saturday, i went to phunk bar. i was suppose to watch summer's over's gig. but... unfortunately, i can't go in. coz the management was fucked up and the organiser and iqbal had to actually refund tix money to those ppl who can't get in and got pre-sale tix. BUMMER! so we sat by the road pathetically waiting for zach and then we left to rogue. i called becca and lampy for that to meet up and hang out there. so yea. it was fun! fought over ice-cream, chicken nuggets and fries. LOL. then zach went off to ktv with his frens. tianhee, kevin and wiz came back to my place and juz chill. late night swimming huh? only tianhee and kevin are the nutsy dudes who did that. haha. talked bout stuff and more stuff. and zach came to join us with a whole bunch of his frens. haha. and they were drunk and tired and stuff. so yea. there was a lil not socialising gap actually. but it was alright. ordered mcds at like 3 am and had more chicken nuggets. LOL. ate and chill and talk and blah blah blah. so then there was my neighbor who juz got back. and she was at the pool too hanging out with her fren. she asked the guys if anyone wanted more booze. so they went to far east 7-11 to get some and ciggies too. well, breakfast was mcds and booze. but hey, no drinking for me! so there you go.

3 times in one night i got shot by ppl saying that i don't look 18!
watever...
but think again.
if i don't look young and youthful, imagine by the time i reach 30, how do u think i'll look?
HUH?!!
GAWD, i dare not imagine.
LOL.

neway, i went to liangyan's birthday party.
i hope u had a good time gurl!
=)
i brought home a pretty pink balloon.
YAYS!

fun and more fun.
party.
details comes later aights?
WOOTS!

i'm off for now.

sadly, no eye-candy for me yesterday.
BOO! =(

i do hope you know that i actually care.
but maybe you don't care at all.
i don't know.
in doubt.

feeling neglected somehow.

what if i say i really wanna be your pop princess?
but... you don't know i exist?
HA! dream on huh?!

i saw my eye-candy for the day.

for PAUL.

this is for you.

heyy...
cheer up, emo boy.
i'm your friend.

love, <333
odelia

i hope that'll cheer you up.
and i don't even know if you read this.
please tell me you do?

so puayboon got a new name.
DWAYNE.
credits to me!
WOOTS WOOTS!
and he's my SWEET NUT!
i'm the sweet pea.
LOL.

well, basically i stayed home the whole day today.
there are some stuff going thru my mind which kinda make me feel fucked up at times.
but brush it off i guess.
is nothing to fret about i hope.
and i'm still feeling excited bout something deep down.

secret message.

i have a secret message for someone.

here goes...
i would soooo love to be your pop princess.
you're so effing hot, good-looking etc etc.
and you've been in my mind.
i wish you were my friend.
one day soon?
i only hope you know.

<3

more excitement from LEVAN

neway, this entry is made coz i can't contain more excitement.
LOL.
i'm already pretty excited bout some stuff.
which i'm not really clear about actually.
but, LEVAN add on to my excitement.
haha.
you know wad u said, LEVAN. =)
and it made me had the jitters.
WOOTS!
LOL.
u got me all excited at 3.30 am.
WHOA!

i have this excited feeling inside me.
all of a sudden.
i know is soooo weird.
but i'm hoping that it'll not turn into a disappointment.
keep my fingers crossed for that.

YOURS, MINE and OURS.
WOOTS!
what a cute movie.
LIKE FOR REAL!
DRAKE BELL, SEAN FARRIS.
HOTTIES.
WOOTS! WOOTS!

and i saw my eye candy for today!
=)

life's a bitch when you're broke.
i mean fucking broke.
and you've got no job.
wad fate!
GRRRR!

being ditched isn't exactly what i plan to wake up to or watever i had in mind.
WAD BITCH LUCK TOO!
URGH!
your sorry means nth now.
but watever... you're forgiven.
but is not forgotten.
coz i don't have such suck-ass memory.

i had second thoughts bout coming out today.
like seriously.
but despite the fact the i know i'm FUCKING broke, i still got out.
caught THE SUNS'S last performance at esplanade.
it was DARN good.
and at least i enjoyed myself there.
thank goodness i went!
at least that was something that made my day.

V FOR VENDETTA!
what a good movie!
worth a catch!
even DHARMA caught it twice!
WOOTS!

i had fun! LOL.
and the cheesecake were yummy yes, DHARMA?!
LOL.

LONG DAY!
i didn't think i slept the whole of thursday!
ok, so here goes my long story...

i woke up and went to sentosa with the crazy bunch as always. with loads more ppl this time. it was FUN! definitely! so played around and stuff. met more ppl at the beach. wad a delight. so we were there till bout erm, 6? and we had dinner at harborfront centre. and yes, i'm always spotting for eye candies. LOL. i saw a few there. then we left for home. becca came back to my place with my sis and i. went crazy in the cab as well. haha. as always when becca is around. so we got changed and stuff. despite the fact that jess and i have already picked an outfit to wear the night before, there's always still question whether we look good or not and then, there's the thing that we always do. like change a few more outfit before we actually get out. well, is a girls thing. so we rushed to the esplanade to catch RONIN! and DUH! they were good. met a few more frens from school there. anoter delight. met the guys from west grand. dharma, eric, daphne, chen, etc etc etc. FUN! and i met jasmine! YAYS! but too bad we didn't hang out. met egan too. so i talked to levan for a bit. then i saw amanda and desmond. haha. i juz saw desmond the other day at city hall actually. LOL. singapore is small. DUH! well, we headed off to zouk. it was friggin crowded. and just like wead everyone said, the small underage kids should juz fuck off and go home. YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSE TO BE OUT AFTER 11 IF YOU'RE NOT 17! IT WAS ON THE HEADLINES! so we chilled for a bit around there before we decided to go to CHIJMES. we chilled at CARNAVAL. had loasds of fun there even tho there were only 11 of us! nonetheless, it was such a good night. and to think that i actually did have a shitty time earlier on. well, weesuan and tianhee got drunk so charles and kevin sent them home and let them stay over. i love the fact that i have such caring friends. so the rest of us came back to my place. we chilled at the poolside and juz talk and stuff. till everyone fell asleep. and we woke up bout an hour later. ordered breakfast. ate then headed home. it was a long night indeed. it went on till morning actually. but i still had sooo much fun. i juz couldn't describe it more. coz it was FUN!

I JUST LOVE MY FRENS TO BITS!
YOU GUYS MAKE ME! <3 <3 <3

so these are the ppl i wanna thank for making my day!
jess, pam, becca, lampy, chelle lee, chelle ng, shermin, emmeline, alfred, tianhee, charles, gonaidi, weesuan, kevin, clement, kah joo, lynn, natasha, peiwein, yijun, danial, haiqal, adam,wiz, zach, dharma, eric, daphne, aznet, chen, jasmine, desmond, amanda, egan, gel, ridz, khairi, kenneth wong, wanwing, glenn, levan and to those ppl whom i met and i didn't mention ur name, i'm sorry. i still love you. <3

TIANHEE, i'm glad that u had fun on ur birthday!
love, <3

neways, long. i mean LONG day tmr.
sentosa, esplanade, zouk.
WOOTS!

and...
i'm not working anymore.
BOO! =(
juz when i was starting to have fun at work and stuff.
i have to leave.
but... watever. i guess.
i gotta to wad i gotta do.
goodbye my frens at work.
but we'll hang out?
I HOPE!
please say yes?

nanny mcphee

NANNY MCPHEE!
thank goodness my nanny wasn't anything like her.
LOL.

WIZ, u do share the same "world" with my cousin, PAM.
u 2 lame shits!
LOL.

JESS, u've got to stop the kfc addiction.
somehow.

YUNHUI got a new name.
HELLO, ZACH!
WOOTS!
and now you know how i cam-whore!
LOL.

well, work was alright today.
it wasn't that bad.

so u still want a piece of me?
=)

bad day turned ok. thanx to frens.

i'm still hoping for a better day.
i'm still mentally tired.
now adding on physically tired.

but i'm glad i met up with my frens today.
khairi dear fren, i did miss you. haha.
ikram, i juz know you. but u're fun to laugh with. LOL.
wiz, u're always that lame piece of shit. hahaha =)

GERARD, wad a coincindence to meet u at the esplanade.
but... thanx.
you're always there to listen to my shit.
LOVE, <3

CHELLE, gurlfren.
you're always there to listen to my shit too.
LOVE, <3

YUNHUI, thanx for ur concern.
definitely made me feel better. =)
LOVE, <3

DHARMA, thanx for asking and stuff.
even tho u're so busy.
LOVE, <3

so maybe the day didn't turn out as bad as i thought it would be.

want a piece of me? =)

URGH!

mentally tired.
nuff' said.

i'm hoping for a better day tmr.
please.

down - something corporate

But I hear sound echo in the emptiness all around
What you can't change is loneliness
Look at what you've found, I'm falling down

Taste the saline rolling down your cheekbone
Tell me that you’re alone, tell me on the telephone
Feel your heart, it breaks within your chest now

<\3

so basically, my gurlfrens have started school.
and i'm glad to see them happy to be in school and stuff.
well, except for one.
u know who u are.
please cheer up.
i'm here for u! fo' sho.
<3

speaking of school, i can't wait till my school starts.
even tho is in june.
i'm kinda excited and nervous.
i wonder how it'll be like.
in australia.
a whole new environment for me and stuff.
but my eyes will always be open for eye-candies.
and you know that!
LOL.

and justin is grounded.
no seeing him online for this week.
and i hope he gets un-grounded soon!
i'm not used to seeing his icon under offline on AIM.
he's always away. and not there.
but he talks to me once he get back on!
ARGH!
I MISS YOU!

one more thing, i didn't know talking to ppl thru msges could be that fun!
YAYS for ASH!
you're such a nice person to talk to! =)
<33

JUSTIN MUSLOE

heyy everyone! meet JUSTIN!
yes, JUSTIN!
he's a really sweet guy!
he WAS my valentine. and IS my valentine still.
and will always be my valentine.
yes, my valentine from pennsylvania, USA!
he's my overseas lover.
I'M HIS OVERSEAS LOVER!
I CAM-WHORE FOR HIM! (be jealous)
I EAT JUSTIN coz he said he smelled like jello. (isn't that yummy?!)
i need to go to pennsylvania to hang out with him.
he needs to come to singapore to hang out with me.
he's gonna be my guitar tutor. (yes right?)
he's a guitarist in DEAD AND DISHONEST.
dead and dishonest is his band!
and they're awesome.
and we will basically enjoy each other's company.
we send msges with the subject "HEY BABY! =)"
so basically, i juz LOVE him.
<3