this is for the 13th.
and sorry but i do realize that i'm always blogging like a day late. well, not technically a day but juz later than it should. haha.

i didn't have a good start to my day.
it was a really really bad start.
the kind that i did thought of but not the one to happen.
i've been wishing that it wouldn't happen at all.
well, i left the house feeling upset.
but thanx to tianhee, weishen, jianbin, matthew, dayah.
i was glad to take my mind of things for a bit.
i didn't even complain that we catch a foreign movie which tianhee thinks is a comedy in a way.
it was suppose to be a horror flick!

so my grandma wants me off by the 27th of april. i know is a few days earlier. and she thinks it would be better coz my aunt would be flying off to jakarta on that day too.
but 27th or april is a thursday. which means that my gurlfrens have school. at least 2 of them do.
the reason why i wanna go on the 30th is because...
firstly, it's the end of the month. and i can start a new life-less life in jakarta which will be at least for a month or so? i don't know.
secondly, the 30th is a sunday. yes it is a weekend. or also the start of a new week to some.
but i wouldn't mind having a sad sunday coz sunday is always more of a blues day for me. and also, sunday is always seen as the last day of the week for all of us. so is perhaps the best time for a goodbye. and also i think it would be easier to get on with lives after that as the monday would be a start of another busy week. even tho the monday 1st of may is LABOUR DAY. at least is a good time to get over stuff.
thirdly, i don't wanna burn out my weekend in jkt. is a bad idea.
i mean i'd rather have me spending the weekend with ppl i care and love. MY FRIENDS!
it would be a much more meaningful.

seriously, i don't know when i'll be back in singapore again.
it is sad. it really is.
these few months while i'm bumming in singapore, i've made many new frens that matters to me coz they're such nice and fun ppl.
and loads of catching up with old frens.
ppl that i've never really been close with. i've grown closer to them.
i will miss all my dear friends for sure.
if you are my fren, i'll miss you. really.
so if you do think or know that i'm your fren, you will be really missed.

life is not gonna be the same.
for me. and for ppl.
and i think you know who you guys are.

can you hear me? does anyone around me feel the way that i feel now?...
coz i need you more than ever, i need your help to find where i've been going wrong so far.
take me under your wings tonight, make me so perfect in your eyes...
i need your loving hand to guide me through the maze of all the things inside me then i know that i'm alright.
please help me get from worse better before these tears soak through this lonely sweater and let me know that i'm alright...

thanx jean. you made my day. mostly. =)
you give the best surprises at my downest moment.
<3