I'm off to Sydney tmr.
I don't know if I should be totally excited or not.
there are reasons...

hmm, for a fact I know I can't just be free and party like I want to.
I'll be baby-sitting for sure. or at least helping out with that.
haha.
but I love those kids. my lovely cousins.
I'm hoping the trip would bring some good to me.
or at least I can bring positive vibes back to Melbourne upon my return.
meanwhile, Melbourne, you just have to miss me for a bit.

and I think Lizzie will coz she's already asked me wad I'm doing on saturday after I told her like countless times that I WILL BE IN SYDNEY!
hahaha.

for Cameron, my first love. <3

so he tells me and I tell myself,
this is not goodbye. our best friendship is just beginning.
he is someone I've grown to love.
I will never forget that.
he is my first love. and so am I to him.
I will always love you. regardless.
be it friends or lovers.

Cam, you're one of my reasons to be happy.
and you always will.
We will be the best of friends we can be.
and I will always be grateful and appreciative for that.
Thank you.

so quoting my sister, "Que Sera Sera, whatever will be, will be."
who knows one day we still might be together.
I guess we'll just "let time tell and fate decide".

I love you, Cameron Murcutt.
<3

assignments assignments assignments.
when will it ever stop?!

Jesslyn Susanto, get your butt to Melbourne soon.
I miss you.
bring me some goodies from home.

<3

I'm half excited.
I really wanna go to Sydney to see the new baby.
and of coz the adorable Gloria and Georgina. my lovely cousins. =]
I miss them.
then it'll be somehow getting to know the new baby after she is not that tiny anymore.
hahaha.
now I just have to wait for a phone call from my uncle.
then I'll be 1 plane ride away.


baby, sometimes I miss how things used to be.

jmac

I get silly and stupid to myself when it comes to Jesse McCartney.
*blush*
I was watching an episode of Hannah Montana.
title: when you wish you were the star

I swear I was all like "AHHHHH!!! EEEEEEEEE!" all in my head.
I was like going crazy in my head.

and he was rapping at the end of the episode.
HOT!

k, see... I told you I get silly when it comes to Jesse McCartney.
he's hot. can't help it.

made my day. so far that is...

party night for Kaz tonight. =]

so it's kinda over. but not really.
we're still seeing each other.
I hope we'll get back together.

if you are reading this (you know who you are),
I said I'll wait for you so I will keep to my word.
and meanwhile, I'm still seeing you so I'm gonna appreciate what I have.
I can't afford to lose you like that.
I still love you.
<3


Becca, if you're reading this, I'm still waiting for your letter.
wad happen to the stamp? hehe.

I was wondering, can someone tell me the answers to the following questions...
1) Is it worth to love someone and not have the feelings returned?

2) Is it worth waiting on an empty future because you don't know if your feeling of love towards someone might or might not be returned?

These questions have nth to do with me. I was juz wondering.
it's kinda bugging my mind.
so, I'd just like to know.

Anyways, for update on my life...
nth much to say on that too.
one word : ASSIGNMENTS!
well, from week 5 to week 8 of my uni semester, I have 1 kind of homework due.
and because some of my units don't have exams, I'm relying on these measly assignments.
which I hope I won't get some measly marks/grade for. *cross fingers*

in all of these busy-ness, I would still need to find time for my bf, my friends and just time to randomly party if I feel like it.
altho the latter is not too attractive at the moment due to money issue.

but hey, I'm going to Sydney soon.
which is a plus.
I could use a new environment for a bit. even tho it'll just be for a weekend.
be it next week or the week after. I just wanna go.
firstly, I'll get to see my aunt's new baby. (hi, giovanna!)
secondly, I'll get to see my 2 other lil cousins (hi, gloria & georgina) and also my grandma & grandaunt. you know what that means... good food + free stuff + money!
(so a lot of ppl tell me that they wish their relatives were more like mine, oh how I'm glad when I hear that. makes me feel thankful & grateful)
thirdly, I'll get my new laptop! (YAYS!)
so the deal is I have to pay for my airtix first. but that'll be all paid back for after plus I'll probably get extra money along with watever covers my airtix cost.
I love my family in times like this. =]
(I think you love my family too by the sound of it. yes? HAHA!)
LOL!!

so I should really get started on my assignment now.
this assignment's due date should totally be pushed till next week.

hmm, and from the past few days, I've come to know that there are actually ppl out there who reads my blog. (even tho they don't tag my board, but I guess it's ok)
altho, I think it'll be nice if you tag. so I know you're here. =]

toodles for now.
xx

I know I haven't been updating.
but yeh, it juz doesn't really come to my mind that often anymore.
haha.
I'll try tho.

so lately, well, probably the past couple of days or so...
I've been feeling kinda nostalgic if u must say.
juz been missing the old days back in whitley.
yeh yeh, fun days.

uni has been ok lately.
assignments are not exactly the best thing to be doing but they're piling up.
I actually drag my lazy ass to uni this morning.
bear in mind, it's like strong winds and really cold weather.
and I still dragged my ass to uni.
thanx to my sudden hardworking motivation vibe.
but I guess it's a positive thing.
only if I can be bothered to get myself thinking like that more often.
HAHA!

my recent self.

so I got thru my first week of uni.
in fact, I'm bout to finish the 2nd week.
I'm quite impressed with myself, actually.
I'm doing my work dilligently, didn't even skip any lectures or tutorials.
it's like I've become hardworking!
ZOMG!
I know some of you might actually find that unbelievable to what I've become but you should actually be proud of my positive change. (at least I think it's positive)
there are times when I feel like I'm not myself bcoz I'm more diligent in my work and stuff.
but I told myself, I should get used to it.
after all, it'll be beneficial to me when it hits to like the middle of the semester or something.
hmm, and plus... it'll be good that I stay ahead in my work before more work starts piling in like maddddddd!

so wish me luck and all the positive stuff that I might get from you. =]
I'll gladly appreciate it very very much.

and oh of coz, how I miss SINGAPORE!
man, I crave chicken rice so badddddd!
*slurpsss*

back to uni.

after like 4 or 5 months of holidays, I'm back at uni tmr.
nervous...? well, kinda.
it's like my brain will be in use again. and then assignments and homework, notes and all that stuff.
but I guess, it's bout time I get back to all that before my brain decided not to function at all.
besides, uni will keep me busy.
and in 2nd year. it's gonna be more work than before.
also tougher I must add.

well, wish me luck.

go ODIE, go!

so I know I've not been updating the blog.

Reason:
1. going for house inspection to get a new place to live.
2. applying for new apartments
3. moving out of the old place
4. settling in the new apartment
5. unpacking and cleaning up (which I haven't completely done)

and also coz I've been sick.
first the fever then flu.
yes, it's been a long january.
but february has been looking up and I'm glad.

you know, I really think that this blog is getting a lil too quiet.
seriously, I haven't been blogging much.
I also don't know who reads it anymore.

neways, juz an update on what's been going on with me.
well, mostly, looking for a place to live.
who knows house-hunting can be so tedious ey?!
and gawd, the applications and what-not.
it can kill you.
oh, plus house inspections.
on the bright side, I'm kinda getting the hang of it.

at least I'm not feeling so lost anymore.

and I got my blood test results back from the doctor's.
the good thing, I'm fine.
all good and healthy.
that's a plus. =]

I'm kinda nervous starting out uni in February.
I mean it's second year.
and MIBT wasn't exactly uni. it was more high school coz of the classrooms and watever.
I hope uni will turn out okay.
at least I'm hoping better.

meanwhile, wish me luck on finding a place.
I don't wanna be living on the streets.
that'd be kinda pathetic. and sad.

fever's gone.
hopefully for quite a long time.
I hate being sick.
especially when I'm missing out summer coz of it.
damn weather change too.

but I'm all well now.
so THANK GOD! =]

party timeeeeeee!!!

oh before it's too late, HAPPY NEW YEAR!

watch out for my resolution.

hey all.
I'm still ranting on bout the same shit.

work = boring.
jakarta = ugh!
melbourne = I miss muchly.
shopping = I need want.

that's all for now.

I had fever and now it's gone. (YAYS!)
the good part about it is that I don't have to work.
but now that I'm ok.
it's back to work and shiz starting monday.
damn! damn! damn!

and extending passport.
fuck that!
i gotta wake up so early juz to take a new photo for a new passport.
like s'if I don't have enough passport size photos already!

officially pissed off by that.

jakarta sucks.
I miss melbourne.

that's my rant for now. I'm out.

goodbye, Singapore.
I'll be back for Xmas. =]

party at my place, yo!

YO YO!
party at my place! =]

WHO? ALL those that knows me.
(so if u think u do, show ur face and say HI!)

WHAT? A BBQ.
*buy ur own food and alcohol.*
coz I can't cater to all of ur wants.

WHEN? 24th November. this SATURDAY!
I only have the bbq pit till 7 pm. (COME EARLY!)

WHERE? MY PLACE! *bbq pit. [DUH!]
57 Cairnhill Road - Elizabeth Heights

WHY? it's been some time since I've seen my frens all come together.
it'd be good to have something going on.

and did I mention there's a pool? =]


see you all there lovelies.

xoxo
<3

double trouble?

the feeling is unexplainable.
it's uncontrollable.

I feel like I need you most right now.
I'm not off-track and I'll never be.
because I miss you. so much.
but I'm sure I'll be fine.

I think twice, I think double about a lot of things.
especially when it comes down to this.

I am not giving up, and I'll hold on till I see you again.

<3

back in singapore.

yes, the rumour is right.
I'M BACKKKKK!!!
in SINGAPORE!

at least till the 25th of november.
better take the time to hang out with me. LOL.

I know you miss me.
so come on, don't be shy.
coz I probably miss you too.

<3

no time nemore?

I apologize bcoz I haven't been updating.
there's excuses for that.

first being, spending too much time with the boi. (LOL)
and then there's the "I'm busy", "I can't be bothered", "I'm lazy", "I don't know who reads it anyways".
so yeh... and on and on.

but this time I'm updating.
reason being, I'm up in the middle of the night.
when I was already falling asleep on the couch. (GRR!)
got woken up coz someone came.
and then I became not sleepy anymore.
and here I am, online and I thought of my blog.
which obviously haven't been updated for sometime.

and it is amazing how I can be online but not actually be at the computer.
I never was like that...
let me tell u this, the reason above is why I haven't gotten back into the craze of staying on myspace and facebook all day, refreshing the page everywhen I can.
I kinda grew out of that.
well, at the same time, it's not as tho I found something better to do.
it's just that I never get to doing so, that's why.

I can be so amazed at the things I can do sometimes.