o level results gonna be out this friday.
which is like TMR?!!!
WAD THE FUCK?!

neways, i went to loads of places today.
first to orchard, cineleisure.
met becca, chelle and gonaidi there.
then off to lucky plaza.
then took mrt down to bugis.
walked around bugis.
coz chelle needed to go there to collect something.
then off to bras basah.
becca and her valentine's.
BLAH!
then off to take a bus from beach road.
to golden mile something something to do some embroidery for becca's darling's cloth!
then we all ( me, becca, lampy and chelle) shared a cab.
and the other 2 guys, (gonaidi and wenshiun) shared a cab.
i didn't know that seeing another 2 boys in another cab on the road and wearing seat belts is sooooo hilarious.
LOL.
we gurls were laughing our ass off.
even the taxi driver was kinda amused as well.
LOL.
went to toa payoh.
ate.
and EGAN came.
wheeee...
=)
played pool.
it was fun.
i got homeat 11 something.
and i didn't get "screamo" from my grandma.
wheeee...
she was being really nice.
=)
and i'm happy.

first day of work!

erm... work.
it was alright.
not that bad.
blisters on my lil toes.
OUCH!
i'll deal with it tho.
=)

legs kinda tired.
but i'll survive.
goofed up a lil here and there during work.
but... i'd say that i did quite a fair job being a first-timer.
wheeeee... =)

well, this entry is for the 6th.
i had a good day.

sorry lampy for the last minute phone call.
and thanx for coming with me to shop for my working shoes.
and yes, u heard that... WORKING SHOES!
i'm gonna start working.
like on tuesday.
wait, that's today but later.
i hope everything will be alright.
kinda nervous tho.
juz jitters actually.

and i had a really good time with EGAN!
and dude, i know u're reading this.
LOL.
we should go out again.
WHEEEEEEEEE...
and even my frens said that u're a nice guy.
see... they like u too.
=)
and sorry for the loads of random-ness today.
and the random-ness bout BRYAN!
he's GOOD-LOOKIN
=)
i was sooooo hyper after that.
pardon me.
but u'll get more random-ness from me.
don't worry.
LOL.
<3

but well, i hope work is gonna make things better.
i get scolded for staying home, coz my grandma says i'm not doing anything at home.
and i get scolded for going out.
she says that i'm always out.
so i got scolded for being home and being out.
i'm confused.
and i feel that everything is wrong.
it kinda SUCK! like BIG TIME!
so initially she was against me working.
but in the end, she told me to get consent from my MOM.
so i called back to jakarta juz to ask my mom if i could work.
and my mom said ok.
wad trouble right?!

well, the weird thing is she thought if i'd go to work and come home late, i'll be making frens with those "bad company".
is funny coz why didn't she think that since i'm working, i'll be tired and i have no time to play after that?!!!!
GOSH! WEIRD THINKING!
but grandma is after all GRANDMA!

ROCK FOR GOOD.

so basically, i had a really great time on saturday.
missed the chingay thingy.
but whatever...
i was at RGS rockin my night away.
AMAZING!
ROCK FOR GOOD!
tix were like 10 bucks. but i think it's worth much more than that.
i made new frens.
really nice ppl.
got to talk to the band members and stuff.

i heard that the main organiser for the event was a 16 years old girl.
sabrina.
well, she did a really good job.

LEVAN of RONIN said that chingay is for gay chinese.
LOL.

i saw GERARD in the crowd.
i didn't talk to him tho.
i was at the other end of the stage.
SORRY DUDE!
=)

well, i had loads of fun that night.
after rockin and stuff, the bunch of us walked over to lido.
ate at mcd's and talk bout stuff.
wiz, kenneth, egan, pam, jess and i.

pam was commenting on wiz's hair.
LOL.

wiz, it was good right?
but i can't believe u actually fell asleep at a rock concert.
BLAH!

kenneth, next time i tell u more when there's concerts / gig OK?!
u had fun right?
WHEEEEEEEEEE...
and i can't believe u almost slept also.
and sorry u were hungry and needed ciggies so badly.
=)
and kenneth, the guy was good-looking.
LOL.

kinda bummed BESTIE AND LAMPY missed out.
=(
next time we crash another concert / gig together okies?!

i'm kinda tired to blog now.
shall blog bout everything later.
but one thing to let everyone know,
I HAD A GREAT DAY!

lalalalala.
wheeeeeeee...
=)

i feel that i have to blog bout this.
saying goodbyes and separation.
sighs.
i don't really like that.
seriously, i don't.

i went to the airport.
i sent my parents off today.
i sent my frens off today.
the departure hall is a sad place.
the arrival hall is a much happier place.
that's wad i think.

i feel like i'm losing everything.
i'm losing my purpose of staying here. in singapore.
i feel like i'm losing way more stuff.
but i dunno wad.
i've not come to realize all yet.

I ESPECIALLY HATE LOSING FRIENDS.

maybe is really time for me to say goodbye.

crying doesn't help with anything.
i'm like shedding tears of nothing.
sighs.

BOYS & DOTA.

ian.

reuben.

gerard.

joshua.

BOYS & TOYS.
LOL.
actually is BOYS & DOTA.
i find it quite interesting to watch boys play dota actually.
LOL.
the characters they choose, the way they fight, allies and enemies, the vulgarities they scold, the expression when their head get pawned and etc etc etc.


ian can tie his hair.
look at his teeny weeny lil tail.
LOL.

all about my hair straightener.

my ear is bleeding.
ok, it sounds weird but it is.
coz my itchy hand juz couldn't stop picking on the scab.
BLAH!
i have to stop. I HAVE TO!

in case u're wondering wad happen, my hair straightener did all that burning.
i think my hair straightener is starting not to like me.
it has started burning my hands too.
that's bad.
even my best fren suggested that i shouldn't use it anymore.

who knows, maybe i shall let it cool down and find back some love from it.
wait, that sounds kinda weird too.
but watever.
please love me, hair straightener, i need u.
haha =)
<3

food, food and more food.

first PEPPER LUNCH.
then COFFEE CLUB'S CHOCOLATE FONDUE WITH FRUITS.
and SEAFOOD CENTRE?!!!
ARGH!

i almost burst!
and growing fatter.
blah.

EMO SHIT!

I FEEL FOOLISH AND USELESS.
I'M BEGINNING TO LOSE MY PURPOSE OF STAYING.
IF NOT FOR SOME PEOPLE THAT I REALLY CHERISH AND TREASURE, I'D BE GONE BY NOW!

I LOVE U GUYS!!!
U KNOW I DO.
<\3

CNY and angpows and movies.

CNY CNY!!!
YIPEE!
so i've been staying home, collecting RED PACKETS!
WHOOPEEDOO!
=)

thanx those who came over to my place to visit.
i love u guys.
<3

and i've been watching movies since there's nth much to do.
going out late and coming home "early".
getting screamed at.
but watever... i had FUN!

JENSEN, when am i gonna have prata with you?
=)

emo-ish.

i'm emo-ish again.
sighs.
it's been happening to me more often now.
i dunno why either.
and is the festive season.
BOO-HOO =(

but i'm glad i always have you to cheer me up.
i'm sooooo glad.
and i realized too that you're always there when i'm feeling "shitty".
THANX GEL!
love, <3

gel says : oh man.
gel says : you cant be sad! your ms cheerful dammit
...
gel says : you gonna be aight?
...
gel says : theres nothing to be sad abt
...
gel says : take care you


and those words of yours actually made me smile for a lil bit.
thanx buddy.
you're the SWEET-EST!
gazillions and more love for you, <333

one more thing, i enjoyed my time hanging out with gel, ian, joshua, jess, pam, jason, and jason's friend.
=)
the JET LI movie wasn't that bad eh?

CNY!

YAY!!!
CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
ang pow come come.
LOL.

new clothes.
lots of goodies.
and RED PACKETS!
WHEEEEEEEE!!!

i have friends coming over to visit.
how sweet of them right?!
i don't have to go visiting so i sit at home and slack and wait for RED PACKETS to come my way.
YAYEEE!!!

=))
isn't it a great season?

so here's a weird post.
i was out hanging out with frens almost the whole day.
then i got my sis to come and meet me and we were again hanging out with frens.
so we were at youth park and we sat on the wordings.
as usual.
try to find a spot and sit there.
watching the skaters and stuff.
my view of the starry sky was blocked by a tree above me.
so i was looking around for other stars to see.
i juz love to star-gaze.
the weird thing was the conversation i had with my sis.
here goes...

me : ey jess, the stars are blocked by this damn tree above. blah.
me : let's look for other stars.
then i pointed to a star at a distant.
jess : del!!! don't point at the star.
me : why? why not?
jess : is rude.
me : HUH?! waddya mean?
jess : juz don't point la, give some respect.
me : to the stars?
jess : yah.
me : but if u were to point to the sky, u'll be like pointing to thousands of stars already, is juz not seen. unless u're using a telescope.
jess : yah.
then i pointed at the sky again.
me : see, if u do this, is as if u're touching it. LOOK!
and jess did the same thing that i do.
point at the stars.
LOL.

so i juz kept pointing at the night sky.
it looks like i'm poking at it.
LOL.
and i didn't know that my sis had such thoughts that pointing at the stars is a rude thing to do.
hahahaha =)

AVENGED SEVENFOLD.

CHECK OUT AVENGED SEVENFOLD!!!
THEY'RE FUCKIN AWESOME.
if you're wondering why my sudden post is dedicated to A7X,
here's why...
i've been watching videos online.
and i happen to come across one video of A7X performing LIFE on TRL.
and unlike bands who can't sing life for nuts.
(not mentioning names)
AVENGED SEVENFOLD can really sing. as in WHOAW singing.
and the crowd was TOTALLY ROCKIN!
i mean TOTALLY.
so this gives YOU a very very good reason to check them out!
PEACE.
and A7X, A7X, A7X, A7X, A7X.
ALL THE WAY!

for all those "faint-hearted" and who thinks that ROCK is NOISE.
(BULLSHIT!)
AVENGED SEVENFOLD is a METAL / ROCK / PUNK band.
so... be prepared.
BUT WHO CARES?!!
THEY SOUND FRIGGIN AWESOME!
<3

EMO MODE.
sighs.

so many questions i wanna ask.
so many things that i seek answers for.
i juz can't get them out.
i'm holding back.
i'm always holding back.
i wanna cry.
i really do.
but i can't.
my tears refuse to flow.
even for the slightest reason.
holding back again.

i need hugs.
hugs from everywhere.
i need someone.
someone who would be able to understand how i feel without me telling them anything at all.
<\3

so i went to school today.
and as usual, saying HI to ppl doesn't seem to stop.
it was pleasant tho.
hang around for a while.
made new friends.
see new ppl and stuff.
pretty interesting.

well, i went back home with my sis.
and we were arguing whether to stop at newton or at orchard.
i picked orchard. she picked newton.
so i was kinda begging her to stop at orchard.
coz there'll be more stuff to see.
she doesn't wanna.
i thought of "spying" on the BACKSTREET BOYS!
hahaha =)
lame thought i know.
but hey... u know wad i can do when i'm bored right?!

so much for "spying".
i called my dear fren ALFRED.
he was suppose to call me. DUH!
then we decided to meet up.
kinda last minute thing tho.
plans were kinda crazy.
and we ourselves didn't know wad was going on.
LOL.
so i met up with becca and charles at wisma atria.
walk around for a bit.
met up with tianhee and lampy.
and then waited for wee suan.
so... 7 of us.
hungry alfred... again.
we went to marche.
food was good.
any kind of food is good for hungry ppl.
=)
becca says i'm a pain in her ass.
she doesn't like my camera flash.
she said she'll go blind.
she's NUTS!

well, that's my best fren and i'll still love her.
haha =)
<3 you BESTIE!!!

denial? confusion?

sometimes i wonder to myself...
am i living in denial?
am i really contented with watever i have now?
i really wonder.

i feel happy. and i like it that way.
but there are juz some things that'll take ur hapiness away.
sometimes i feel that my life is different from any other girls my age.
even my friends.

don't you notice everyone's got something to complain about in life?
ppl are complaining about how they live and stuff.
why is that so?!
ppl can say that they're contented with watever it is.
i don't think that's true.
if u're happy with how the situation is...
u wouldn't be complaining now, would u?

contradicting as it is...

i think all along, i've kept my sadness hidden.
i hate to show the world the ugly side of me.
the unhappy side of me.
coz my thinking is, if i would juz be happy...
i should share it with everyone.
flash a smile whenever and wherever.
however, i have to also face the reality that not everyone is gonna do the same.
not everyone is gonna flash a smile at u and make ur day.

it feels that i'm living my life for someone else.
i don't like that.
i wanna live for myself.
coz is my life.
sometimes i wish i could grow up faster, live my dream so it'll be my own.
but at the same time, i don't wanna waste my youth by growing up so fast.
sighs.
life is sooo full of contradictions.

J.A.M

so the 21st, which was a SATURDAY was a boring day for me.
i practically stayed and home.
online and doing almost the same stuff.
in this period of time, i've become "obsessed" with someone whom i like to refer to as J.A.M.
so JAM is this really hot guy.
and only my sis knows who he is.

JESS, DON'T TELL ANYONE WHO'S J.A.M OKIES?!
PLEASE...

JAM is really hot.
and he's got a great voice i can't get enough of.
and the thought of him, makes me melt.
awww...

besides, i think he'll totally go well with me on the love scope.
LOL.

J.A.M is pure love.
<333

chalet.

thanx MATTHEW for it.
the ZOO and the ZOO-KEEPER.
LOL.
mole, tiger, monkey, ostrich (woodstock), giraffe, mealworm.
3 zoo-keepers.

me, becca, lester, tianhee, charles, warren, alfred, cheetong and matthew himself.
the crazy ppl who stayed over.
haha =)
2 girls and 7 guys.
and bloody hell, 2 beds, 2 matresses and 9 crazy sleepers.

CHARLES is a crazy sleeper. extremely dangerous.
don't get near him whenever he's asleep.
he's got weird sleeping positions too.
not forgetting the weird face expression he makes when he's sleeping.
and all the weird funny noises of his arms swinging wildly and hitting everything else.
LOL.

LESTER is the ultimate monkey.
he gets excited bout frogs and cockroaches.
frogs on the bed?!! SO WRONG! and u really didn't have to do that.
YOU CREEP!
and frog in the vending machine?! EWW.
i can't imagine.
SLIPPERS and COCKROACH?!!
disgusting.
and if the tv was spoilt.
i wouldn't be surprised. imagine how many times we hit the tv with SLIPPERS.
coz of the BLOODY COCKROACH.
u and ur lame suggestion.

TIANHEE, bitch and bitch and bitch with BECCA.
it seems that all u two only bitch and nth else.
BLAH! hahaha =)
and ur body is like "pai-kut".
oh-so buff?! NO!
LOL.

BECCA, u and ur stupid tortoise / turtle.
WHATEVER.
i didn't abuse it.
the guys did.
not me, i'm innocent. haha =)
SIMON-EY. what a name!

WARREN, if u haven't realized, u kick the bed everytime u go to ur little corner.
hahaha =)
and i really thought u were pulling my blanky.
my toes were freezing!

MATTHEW was probably the most matured person around.
he didn't fight for the bed like we did.
he helped us close the curtain when the morning light was streaming into the room and we were all sleeping like pigs.

ALFRED, i sure had fun taking pics with you.
sorry bout the reserved space on the bed.
tong took it but u both left.
hahaha.
in the end i got more space. and the monkey too.

CHEETONG, YOU BUGGER.
why u leave so early?!!
didn't take any pics with you.
=(
blah...

referring to becca's entry.
I DIDN'T SNORE! U TUUT!!
it can't be me.
MUST BE ONE OF THE DUDES OKAY?!!
ERGH!
or is it YOU?! LOL.

chalet was fun.
and i hope there'll be more fun coming up!
=D

CHALET DAY!

food, no food. the work of 2 hungry ppl.
there goes the fish & chips and the chicken baked rice.
swensens. LOL.

alfred and i. (the hair-dryer?)

i and lester. (you, monkey!)

matthew the goodie and charles the mealworm. (haha.)

making love to the camera.

matthew and i.

my best friend and i. (becca the giraffe)
we practically reserved the BEDS.
but the boys crashed on us.
LOL.

Lester. haha =)

tianhee and i.

i and charles.

ZOO.
lester the monkey, simon-ey the tortoise (becca's), becca the giraffe and tianhee the ostrich.
and the one without the visible face is charles the mealworm.

warren the mole.

"WE SLEEP WITH PRIDE."
we care and share in the animal world.
LOL.

ANIMAL PLANET.

is dark but look closer.

OSTRICH SAYS PEACE!

WHATEVER.

boys and x-box. (do u see the connection?)

i and ostrich (oh-so buff body huh?!)

BLISS...

mealworm.

mole.

monkey.

the camera loves us and we love the camera.

train ride.
tiger, giraffe and ostrich.

pictures speak a thousand words.
so...

cheetong!!!
i didn't take pics with u.
next time okies?!
=)

GEL, IAN, REUBEN.

REUBEN, GERARD, IAN.
these are the 3 "RETARDS".
LOL.
you know i don't mean it boys.
they're really fun to hang out with.
they have loads of CRAP to share with you.
they're really nice ppl.
I LOVE U GUYS TO BITS.
<3 <3 <3
*muacks.

REUBEN, u're WACKY.
and u know it.
erm... u know i didn't mean the fuck-face thingy.
i'm sorry. =)
i was juz kidding.
but ur face was hilarious.
LOL.

GERARD, u're NUTS!
and u know it.
LOL.
stop smoking for goodness sake.
and u still owe me something coz u scare me in the middle of the night the other time.
mwahahahaha.

IAN, BRO! u're CRAZY!
and u know it.
but i still love u bro! =)
and since u ask me to blog bout u, i did.
on the exception is juz not bout u but ur 2 goodie frens as well.

overall, I LOVE U 3 DUDES.
<3
and STOP SMOKING!
haha.
FOR GOODNESS SAKE!

LOVE always.
<3

this is for the 16th.
i woke up coz of jensen's text.
and i'm glad u texted.
if not i would have sleep like a pig again.

i met up with ian, reuben and gerard.
haha. =)
u guys are NUTS!
u're like the 3 stooges.
LOL.
it's pretty fun hanging out with u guys.
and we should do it again!
YES YES?!!
please.
i juz love u guys to bits.
<3 <3 <3

then i met up with jensen, kieran and daniel.
gosh... i haven't seen them for like AGES!!!
i missed u guys!
like a hella LOADS!!!
let's hang out again.
with my sis this time.
she's already being a GREEN-EYED monster.
too bad she's got school.
we'll hang out next time JESS, i promise ok?!

i watched a movie with them.
FOOTBALL HOOLIGANS.
pretty gruesome. but NICE.
M-18 and i got in when i'm not even 18 yet.
whoo-hoo.

my day was fun and i hope it'll get funner!
hahaha.

since it's already the 17th,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEETONG!
love ya dude.
<3
u're a nice hang out buddy. and u know it.
and tong, i still want that shopping trip!
hahaha =)

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You can't tell me you dont need me
And i know that hurts
Cause im looking at your picture
Cause its all i've got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot

in your absence, i'm learning to let go.
i'm still holding back
but i'll let go eventually.
<\3

i didn't even realize that it's 5 am.
LOL.
i got carried away.

i went to eat prata last night.
yeh, usual bunch.
joel, doug, josh, cone, lizz, sling, jess and pam tagged along.
met xavier woon.
wad a coincidence.
LOL.

nth much happened today i guess.
but i still had fun with them.
YAY! to crapiness.

JOEL NG, i hope u had a great time with us.
and i hope u'll like the big wonka bar i gave u.
LOL.
=)
i love u pal!
<3

JENSEN, i'm so glad to have met you!
we should hang out sometime.
<3

so i did go to cuscaden for joel's bday celebration.
it was fun.
i had alcohol.
but not that much.
u know i don't drink a lot.
loads of smokes.
and i freakin smell like ciggies now.
but... i'll freshen up. LOL.

oh.. i also bought candy and chocolates.
i bought loads of wonka candy.
a big wonka chocolate bar.
2 mudsludge bar and 1 wonka caramel bar.
plus 2 wonka ropes.
YAY! haha =)
WONKA ROCKS!
thanx cheetong for accompanying me.

if u guys didn't realize, i don't think it rained on friday the 13th.
that's why i felt so glad.
and... nth bad happen to me on friday the 13th.

this entry is for the 12th.
so i did nothing much today.
i slept.
coz the weather allowed me to.
is so cold and it gives u a good reason to be under the blanky.
LOL.

i went for sushi today.
collected my ipod.
yay!
i've missed my ipod since the battery was changed and stuff.
finally is back with me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GERARD AND JOEL NG!
love u guys loads. <3

IELTS

so... i'm really happy.
my IELTS results is out.
I'VE GOT A 7.5
u know... that's quite good.
the highest point is 9 and the lowest is 1... i think.
well, usually ppl only score bout 5 point something or a 6.
I'VE GOT A 7.5
that, of course, makes me really happy.
YAY!
one results down. one more to go.
i'm worried.
wish me luck!
<3

so this entry is for JENSEN and my wonka mudsludge.
(see the pic of a wonka mudsludge in my previous entry)

JENSEN is my friend.
he's really nice.
JENSEN is hyper right now.
and ya, i'm talking to him on msn messeger.
JENSEN influenced me to go hyper with him.
JENSEN is a really nice fren.
JENSEN is really nice to talk to.
JENSEN says he can't decide if i'm nice or really nice.
JENSEN says i look gorgeous and cute.
JENSEN is such a sweet dude.
i <3 JENSEN my friend.
and there's more bout JENSEN...
loads more.
i'll have to discover it first.
LOL.

this is for my wonka mudsludge.
someone or anyone, get me a wonka mudsludge and i'll love u.
haha.
<3

this is something i'd like to share with everyone.
if you love chocolates or if u don't love chocolates.
(who doesn't love chocolates?)
try this wonka's mud sludge.
it taste good!!!
it comes in a bar of wonka hats and bite each hat one by one and u can actually see and taste the sludge centre.
is really good.
YUMM!
i know is a "sin-full" food.
but just give it a try.
your sin of eating this will be forgiven.
=)

this post is for the 9th of jan too.
even tho the date states the 10th.
well, here goes...
i stayed home the whole day today.
trying to freeze my ass off.
i feel like a pig.
i wanna go out.
i hate the weather.
why can't anyone give me sun?
i don't like rainy days.
it's been raining non-stop. is annoying.
BLAH!
please stop the rain. PLEASE!
I NEED SOME SUN!!!
I MISS THE SUN!
i wanna go to the beach.
i totally need to get sunburn and a tan as well.

i hope my dear friends are coming over to my place later.
chill with me.
then i will be staying home again.
it's gonna be a NO SCHOOL DAY tmr.
so, yeah.
hopefully we can have fun indoor.
at least for a rainy day.
=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BECCA!
hope u had a great time with us bestie.
i heart u loads.
<3

PONGSA left s'pore.
i'm gonna miss you dude.
i'm gonna miss your nonsense.
you'll come back. i know.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZING!
have a great day ahead!

btw, today i was kinda cranky.
blah.
i got woken up when i was having my nicest-cest-cest dream ever.
i dreamt of someone.
a dream that i wish was a reality.
I WISH!
i wish it so badly!

i also had another dream.
i dreamt that my sister, my cousins, some of my friends and i were superheroes.
LOL
i was superwoman.
how great right?! hahaha.

you still somehow pop into my mind.
can it ever stop?
i've to get over it.
one way or another.
sooner or later i guess.

dragonfly?

i wish it was that easy...
for you to walk out of my life.
but is not easy.

even if you would walk out eventually.
i will always remember you.
always.
i don't want you to walk out on me.
please don't.
i couldn't bear to let you do that.
and i won't.

i wish i could turn back time.
get to know u better.
but i know i can't.
i'm no superhero.

pardon me for my imperfection.
i know that you're not perfect too.
but it's your imperfection that makes you perfect.
thoughts of you will linger in my mind.

i just wanna let you know that...
if you need a friend and a shoulder to lean on,
i'll be there for you.
i'll be a call away.
<3
i adore you.

pretty rad words for a song, don't you think?!
well... to everyone reading this, these words are originally MINE!
it'll be my song. i guess.

well... this entry is for the 5th of JAN.
LAST DAY OF XMAS!
the last MERRY CHRISTMAS wish to everyone!

i went to school today.
i was suppose to help my fren collect something.
passed a cd to val.
-- i hope u like the cd! enjoy it! HE'S JUST SIMPLY HOT!
-- HE'S MINE BTW. please don't take him away from me.
checked out the new campus.
i have to say that there seems to be more fresh air there.
i miss the school.
missed the atmosphere and stuff.
i did talk to some of the teachers and friends.

orientation camp.
one boy fell from the flying fox.
he kinda fell "plop" from the top.
kinda shocking.
the ambulance came.
paramedics and stuff.

ate at mc.d's
card and jon came along too.
they even popped by the school.
took a cab back home.

juz as i got home, i got a msg.
yeh... asking me where i was.
blah.
cheesecake eh tong?! haha =)
OK! LOL.
so i went out again and had cheesecake and coffee with cheetong.
i'm such a nice friend.
u better love me for it. =D
neway, thanx for the treat.
<3

met up with fardhan and ridzuan (his cousin).
they've juz finished work.
so.. yea.
kinda chill a while and stuff.
then i headed home.

quite a day i had today actually.
pretty interesting.

this is to my jungle boy...
i'll still love u, my friend.
<3
for last night, and for now and for always.

i still haven't think of a new year resolution.
well... blah.
i'll juz go with the flow and see where the flow will take me.
meahwhile, i'll also do watever that's right and not against anyone's will.
that should be alright, shouldn't it?!

neway, i was out with my cousins today.
met my sister, phyllis, nat and peiwen after their school ended.
and jon, card, joel, cone, josh.
hahaha =)
unexpectedly, i saw kaizi.
first day of being in junior college eh?!
then we took the bus.
with all my cousins.
nonensical. blah.

walked around in far east.
hahahaha. i picked out my shirt.
OLD MAN, U BETTER GET MY SHIRT FOR ME!
LOL.
THANX. =)

well, i'm really glad i saw you today.
<3

NEW YEAR WISHES!

i have to think of a new year resolution.
meanwhile, here are my new year wishes.

WISHES...
-get good grades for O LEVELS and IELTS.
-for all my friends to be happy. for with happiness everything falls into place.
-for my own happiness.
-for my beloved family and friends to be healthy always.
-for everything to go well when i leave for australia.
-for me to get accepted into the school in australia.
-to see more eye-candy. (ooh la la)
-to see more hot guys. (LOL)
-for my wishes to come true. =)
-to get more wishes. hahaha.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
well... i'm gonna start thanking ppl again.
and yes... THE GUYS.
u guys juz made my XMAS and NEW YEAR so fun.
is the best ever.!!!
I LOVE U GUYS not juz loads, GAZILLIONS.
<3

cheetong, alfred, bohan, weishen, jianbin, matthew, kaizi, kenneth, fardhan, ridzuan (fardhan's cousin)
we shall hang out together again k?!
LOL.

my beloved sister jesslyn, phyllis dearest, starfire, jon sweetie, josh, douglas sweetie pie.
we shall meet up really soon. haha =)
like we always do.

my XMAS and NEW YEAR would be really different it it weren't for u guys.
it would be a big sad disaster spending XMAS and NEW YEAR without my beloved frens.

THANX FOR ALL THE NEW YEAR HUGS AND KISSES.
muacks. muacks. muacks.
<3

TO MY GURLFRENS...
PLEASE MEET UP SOON ALRIGHT?!!!!
I MISS U GURLS. LOADS.

to everyone out there reading this,
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
have a great year ahead.

this is PHYLLIS.
she told me to blog bout her so this is for her.
she's my DEAREST.
she's a gr8 friend.
she's adorable.
she's cute.
she bitches bout stuff with me.
she goes high together with me.
she spends time with me.
she cheers me up when i'm down.
she tells me about interesting events.
she brings me to watch them.
she loves to hang out with me.
and I <3 HER.
DON'T TRY TO MESS WITH HER, I'LL COME HAUNTING YOU!

a different kind of pizza night ; new year wish.

PIZZA NIGHT!
well, is kinda different from all the pizza night i have.
usually is juz family and stuff.
today my dearest STARFIRE joined my sister and i.
YAY!

sorry phyllis dearest and jon sweetie.
we'll have pizza night next time together k?!
=)
love love. <3

NEW YEAR'S DAY IS COMING!
i hope that 2006 will be a good year for everyone.

I WANT THAT NEW YEAR KISS.
<3
LOL.

WAHHH!!!!
GERARD SCARED THE HELL OUTTA ME.
U OWE ME! BIG TIME!
LOL. hahahaha =D

You come over unannounced
Silence broken by your voice in the dark
I need you here, tonight
Just like the ocean needs the waves

hahaha =)
went out again today.
FUN. haha. YA!
throwing fries, playing with the mayo and chilli sauce.
ewwww...
i think the burger king staff gonna feel disgusted.
DUH!

starfire loves my bag.
yes... my bag that looks like a punching bag.
but is cute and is nice to use.
that's why i bought it wad?!!

chilled.
ate a strawberry lollipop.
ooh lala...
u all got strawberry kisses from me.
SWEET!

sighs.
it seems that i haven't talk to u in ages.
blah.
let's meet up soon. =)
<3

BOXING DAY is over but XMAS is not.
XMAS last for 12 days.
YAY!

why does santa spend only a night sending gifts to children all over the world when he can spread his time for 11 nights?!
his reindeer sleigh is MAGICAL!
hahaha =)

can anyone name me all santa's reindeer?

neway, levin called early this morning. BLAH.
u and ur nonsense ya lev?!
go coffee club and make trouble.
and when i said let's meet up soon, i didn't expect it to be so soon.
LOL.
neway, i had a good time.
eh... i still want a next time k?!!

met up with jess, dearest, starfire, JON and jasmine.
NYDC! OLD CHANG KEE!
ey DEAREST, maybe u're too cute. that's why got called NAUGHTY BABY!
the aunty is WEIRD.
even tho she thought u were 12 or 13, that's not an age for BABY!
BLAH. NONSENSE.

went to bishan, met joel, josh and sling.
cone and doug came later.
love this bunch. PLENTY.
i love all the crap and stuff that u guys share.
my life would be so different if i didn't meet u guys.
all the jokes and crap.
hahaha =)
love. <3

i had a great time last night.
X'MAS with frens is juz GREAT!
thank the guys for that.
you guys know who you are.
to my frens i met.
X'MAS couldn't be funner without u guys.
I LOVE U GUYS TO BITS.
<3

tong, new year eh? LOL

MERRY XMAS!

make my wish come true.
coz all i want for christmas is YOU.

i want you to know that...
i miss you, i miss you so.

I'M BACK!

hey peeps...
YAY! i'm back in spore.
i'm posting from the airport.
MERRY X'MAS!
love love love and gazillion more love!
happy holidays.

xoxo

update. finally.

urgh!!!
i hate it when there's a problem with my damn computer.
BLAH!
and right now i'm somewhere using a super-duper slow connection system which takes ages to load a page.
UGH!
hurry get fixed please, compy...
=(

just a few more days then i'll be back in spore.
YAY!

the WEAVERS didn't win the amazing race.
boo hoo hoo. =(

i'm stressing.
i've got a test this saturday.
i need help with my writing test.
ARGH!
i thought it was gonna be easy but is not as easy as i expected it would be.
BLAH!
WISH ME LUCK!

nightmare or sweet dreams?

oh... before i forgot.
i dreamt about JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE the other night.
JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE?!
of all people.
i dunno why him either.
hahahaha =)
WEIRD.

why not JESSE MCCARTNEY?
ooh... i juz have a weakness for that guy.
*DROOLS.
JESSE MCCARTNEY!
ooh la la.
LOL.
sweetness and hotness.

JON LOVES ME.

i've got sad news and pleasant news to deliver today.
let's start with the sad news.
sad news...
im leaving spore next year.
and i dunno when i'll be back again.
my student pass expires on 30 april 2006.
that means i've to leave spore by then.
=(
and i'll miss everyone!

good news...
"[Jon.] in the dark, they say angels don't kill J.I.M.P. 12 more days says:
i love u oreo"
JON LOVES ME!
LOL.
thanx for making me feel better.
love love love to JON!
<3
hahaha =)

YAY!!!
i went shopping!
yes, i shopped for xmas gifts.
hear that?!!!
I SHOPPED FOR XMAS GIFTS!!!
haha =)
i really can't wait to be back in spore.
BE EXCITED PPL!

JON.

so... this post is bout JON.
well, a few things to know bout JON.
JON is MY SWEET DUDE.
i'm JON's sweetie.
i mean how can i be someone's SWEETIE and the person is totally calling me BAD?
weird right?

neway, JON is really lovable.
so... love love love gazillions to JON.

<3

YAY!
i shopped again today.
this time i was hanging out with my frens.
yesh, wira, yohan, edbert and meilisa.
and also my sister.
i had fun!
lunch then shopping then movies then more shopping then dinner and finally, home.
thanx for the fun guys!
we should do it again.
oh ya... ICE CREAM!
LOL.

I MISS EVERYONE!
I MISS YOU.! yea, YOU!
i miss becca, lampy, michelle, starfire, dearest, jon, kaizi, cheetong, doug, josh, cone, joel... there's just so many ppl.
i can't probably list all.
it'll probably fill up everything.
well, I LOVE YOU GUYS.
I REALLY DO!
<3

MISS ME TOO?
PLEASE SAY YOU DO.
=)

JON.

YAY!
JON IS MY SWEET DUDE.
MINE.
love love JON. <3
xoxo

i dunno why but somehow, i feel neglected by my friends.
why am i feeling this way?!!
maybe coz i miss my frens too much.
=(
i wish i was back in singapore.

well, the only thing i can think of to console myself is...
the fact that i'll be back for xmas.
and i'm gonna have fun with them again.

i'll have fun with u guys again right?!!
please say YES to that.

i miss u guys so much. =(
<3

say goodbye to the perfect guy.
love doesn't come by easily.
and is not a sensible thing to say forget love.
contradicting isn't it?
i don't like it when i have to question myself like this.
but the questions just pop out in my head.
how am i to avoid that?

let's just leave without goodbyes.
so goodbyes wouldn't have hurt that much.
but is so long and goodbye.
we might just meet again.
maybe then i'll be perfect for the perfect guy.

TO JON.
THANX SO MUCH FOR BEING THERE.
LOVE LOVE LOVE A GAZILLION.
AND THANX A GAZILLION.
<3

BRAIN DEAD.

BRAIN
DEAD.

SERIOUSLY.
i juz hope a whole would open up in front of me.
then i can juz jump in and disappear.
and maybe no one will know i existed.

last night i quarelled with my parents. mom mostly.
and the thing i don't get is.
she seems to not trust me.
no one does. CRAP!

MOM.
so wad if other ppl are telling you i'm doing this and that.
so wad if i'm hanging out with guy friends?!
they're juz my frens.
FYI, i also do hang out with my gurlfrens.
DUH!
and my frens are NOT bad people.
so stop thinking that i'm with bad company.
I'M NOT!
i've got enough common sense alright?!
UGH! GET OFF MY BACK FOR ONCE!

DAD.
trying to understand wad u're saying is like trying to understand GREEK.
maybe i can even understand greek better after i've learn it.
you gotta start speaking properly.
or no one in the world will understand.
DUH!
and if u don't get anything that i was saying to mom.
don't say anything.
coz i don't wanna repeat whatever i said to you.

i'm pissed and am still pissed bout stuff.
i dunno how you all are gonna think if everything would be ok after a few days.
the truth is... i don't have such bad memory.
i'll still remember.
so, if u want me to think that everything is gonna be back to normal.
give me a few days or even a week or weeks.

and last night i was really thinking of how things would be like if i disappeared.
wad if i'm DEAD somewhere at the other end of the universe?!
would anyone in the world know?!

as far as i can remember, i've never been this pissed at people for a really really really long time.
how i wish i could be back in spore right now.
sighs.
I FREAKIN MISS MY FRENS!

YAY!
i went shopping today!
FINALLY.
haha =))
i spent like loads of money tho.
so... i might not be shopping for some time maybe.
save money.
and to get more money? maybe?
LOL.

let's just face the fact that everyone in the world change.
be it the old, young, fat, thin, ugly and pretty.
everyone change.
but why do i realize that most of the change are negative?
when will there be a positive change in everybody?
WAD'S WRONG WITH THIS WORLD?!

as SIMPLE PLAN sang...
IS EVERYBODY GOING CRAZY?!
i bet. duh.

i woke up in the afternoon.
i watch the news.
i hear all the innocent ppl being killed. murdered. tortured. raped.
wad else can be happening?!
it's sad to know that these hideous stuff are going on in your everyday life.
are we even the least affected by it?
well, it did affect me. indeed.
is sick to think that ppl die everyday for the STUPIDEST reasons ever.
wad is it with drug-trafficers?
wad is it with rapist?
wad is it with murderers?
don't they realize that they are harming their own species.?!!
we are all HUMANS for goodness sake!

neway, this is to you. ex-bf
when will you ever realize that you're not yourself anymore?
the old you have been hidden and cast away.
when will you bring it back?
maybe NEVER. coz the good past does not come back easily.
wad ever happen to the oh-so nice person that i once knew?
WHERE ARE YOU?!
next time i should just say... HI, STRANGER.
you took me for granted.
what an ASS!
you night think that you're all so great.
REALITY CHECK : YOU'RE SO NOT!
you think i'm gonna cry over this?!
SO NOT TRUE.
in this case, i just won my title of being the HEART-BREAKER.
and i'm so glad i did.

i'm missing LOADS of ppl.
i know i've been saying this for the past few entrties.
I CAN'T HELP IT.
COZ THE FACT IS I MISS A HELL LOAD OF PPL.
I MISS YOU!<3

neway, sorry to rub this in when everyone's enjoying themselves.
i can't help it too but i'm already getting worried for my O LEVEL's results.
i'm wondering how i'll do and stuff like that.
the thought juz pops out every now and then.
i can't help it but is like that.
is kinda irritating.
but... I REALLY CAN'T HELP IT!
UGH!

k... out of that subject.
i'm going shopping later.
FINALLY... my first shopping trip ever since i got back.
AHHHH!
my aunt's telling me that there's loads of new stuff and all.
i so can't wait to check out everything i can.
haha =)
got cash from my mom.
whoo-hoo.
the malls better watch out for me.
coz i'm coming.
YEAH!

first entry from jkt.
sighs.
i'm already missing LOADS of ppl.
i didn't have my internet yesterday.
but thanx to cable tv.
i didn't DIE.
LOL.
i wanna go shopping. like real bad.
i haven't visit the mall here for ages.
there's gonna be tons of new stuff waiting for me to discover them.
haha =)
u'll be in my thoughts.
not to worry.
<3

i'm going back to jkt tmr.
sighs.
miss me?! haha =)
i'm gonna miss a hell loads of ppl.
everyone seems to be leaving.
NAT's gone off to camp.
my dearest LIZZ is going to malaysia.
and my sis and i are going back to jkt.
well... we'll be back soon tho.
gonna update from back there.
this is gonna be my last entry from spore.

chinablack.

the time now is 01:18 am.
at this time yesterday, i was in CHINABLACK.
non-smoking and non-alcohol.
cool party neway.
thanx for asking me along guys.
kaizi, cheetong, kahkiat, lester, daniel, junhan.
thanx for a great time.
LOVE YOU GUYS. <3 <3 **muacks.
i had a great time dancing. LOL.

GRADUATION NITE!

yesterday was sooo much FUN!

the PRE-PROM.
the make-up. the hair. the manicure. the pedicure.
the dress. the suits.

the PROM.
photo taking. the FUN and LAUGHTER.
the most unbelievable thing ever : winning the MOST ELEGANT WHITLEYAN contest.
hahahahahaha. =))

the POST PROM.
roaming about in ORCHARD.
meeting the guys. and there were 4 of us.
(me, becca, lampy and chelle)
wasted money on cab fare going to CLARKE QUAY thinking that we could find FOOD there.
still ended up back at ORCHARD. with the guys.
3 MONKEYS CAFE. ORCHARD TOWERS. quite a freaky place i'd say.
luckily there's so many guys around. (BODYGUARDS huh?! ... LOL)
something really funny happened. haha. (BADRI, u were the spotlight ... LOL)
then everyone went their separate ways and it was OVER.
JUZ LIKE THAT.
not for me and the gurls tho.
went to the ESPLANADE. wanted to watch the sunrise but stayed indoor instead.
LOL.
by the time we came out, the sun was already out as well.
took a bus back to my place.
got cleaned up.
and sleep. for like 3 hours?! i think.
then went out again.
watched HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE.
my second time watching.
then everyone went home.
then the day, is FINALLY OVER.

parting is such sweet sorrow.
i really think so.
sad to leave. but the thoughts of the ppl make us happy.
SIGHS.
i can't help but sigh.

the night was such a BLAST!
i wanna thank everyone that kept me company.
the BOYS. and most definitely my GIRLFRIENDS. =)
I LOVE YOU GUYS LOADSSS. <3
i didn't know that watching soccer with the GUYS was SO MUCH FUN!
haha. LOL.

so much to say...
but feelings can't be put down in words this way.
is INDESCRIBABLE.
coz is so INCREDIBLE.

it'll be a night i'll never forget.
i'm gonna freakin miss EVERYONE!
sighs.
still... hugs and kisses from me. XOXO
and loads and loads of LOVE from ME.
much much much love.

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

you're my eye-candy.
i can't stop stealing glances at YOU. =)
<3

PROM.

YEAH!
and the O LEVEL examinations are finally OVER.
is OFFICIALLY OVER for me.
YAY!
the day of the GRADUATION NITE.
pretty excited.
whoohoo. PARTY!
yeah. =))
ooh boy am i glad?!

ONE more paper to go. ONE bloody paper.
ARGH!
counting down to the days of total freedom as i've already considered myself as a free soul. LOL. the exams are ALMOST over.
and ALMOST is still the word.

i already started shopping again on thursday.
and shopped on friday.
gonna shop on saturday and sunday and monday and tuesday.
WEDNESDAY is GRADUATION NITE.
i'm so gonna f**king miss everyone after that.

still in the midst of O LEVEL.

sighs.

i'm taking my combined humanities history paper tmr. usually the night before any humanities paper, i don't get enough sleep. and i don't get to sleep after i finish the paper. coz i basically finish it juz in time before the chief examiner says STOP WRITING. and by the time i finish the paper and even in the midst of doing the paper, among all the stress trying to remember the important points to write down, my fingers get crams. thanx to all the writing. is pretty sad u know.

i should be lucky that i had enough time to finish my social studies paper. actually, i agree to wad my fren said. foreigners should be exempted from taking social studies. haha =) i know.

neway, the exams are almost over. ALMOST is the word. i'll be quite free by this weekend. and the last paper is on the 22nd of november. and the next day is... GRADUATION NITE. i can't wait for the 23rd. haha =))
i'm sure gonna miss everyone!
i mean... EVERYONE!

and with the school demolished, i'm gonna miss the school. REAL BAD.
sighs.
i still remember when i hated the first week of school in sec 1. haha =)
WHAT AN ASS RIGHT?!
LOL.
now is ironic that i'll miss the school so much.
i'll miss my BELOVED friends MOST.
i dunno wad i'll do without them. SERIOUSLY.

ooh... this is a really long entry i guess.
i better get going.
i gotta study.
i've gotta hang on to the pressure for juz a while more.
i'm sure i'll be going CRAZY after the 23rd. hahaha =)
or... i might juz start this weekend and sober down on the 21st to study a lil bit more. haha =)
still... WISH ME LUCK!
<3

O LEVELS

wheeeeeeeeeee.
7 down and 4 to go.
I KNOW I CAN GET THROUGH IT.
all the paper one paper two and blah blah blah.
RESISTANCE and PERSISTANCE.
COME ON ALL.
we'll be FREE in no time.
TIME FLIES.

Josh?

somehow i find you kinda irresistable.
aren't u tired of running through my mind... like... everytime?

STARFIRE is leaving for CHINA.

i'm so gonna FREAKIN miss STARFIRE.
she's going to CHINA!
i know you'll survive my dear.
DON'T WORRY.
HAWK GIRL will fly there and make sure u survive. LOL.

lizards .

this entry is dedicated to natasha, my dear starfire. LOL
since she asked me to blog about LIZARDS, here goes...
i think LIZARDS are gross creatures. i totally don't like them. ppl might think that LIZARDS are cool. but they're so NOT! EWWWWW..... imagine how they drop their FUGLY tails when you catch them. YUCK! they wanna escape from your evil clutch. haha. well... since GECKO and LIZARDS are in the same family, i should juz throw in a couple of lines bout them. GECKOS are pretty gross too. and they do drop their FUGLY tails too. YUCKY YUCK! *pukes*

WEIRD !

you know how weird it is?!
do u have any idea?
neway, it was HALLOWEEN yesterday. and today is DEEPAVALI, also known as the 'festival of light'.
see the big difference.
in case no one noticed the difference.
it was so DARK yesterday. and BRIGHT today.
well well... time for a change ain't it?!

HALLOWEEN!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!
the day when all the ghosts and ghouls unite.
but there's nothing to fear.
TRICK-OR-TREAT.