note to self:
losing everything that makes me happy. :(
sucks to be you, odie.

oh, and I quit my job.

20th. :)

so my birthday was last week on the 9th of October.
and I had a great night at Next! :)
birthday dinner on the Saturday was enjoyable too!
and finally the big party this weekend, the 18th!
it was AWESOME! :D
I'm happy.
truely happy for the friends that I have.
friends that I love. <3
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

initially due to everything I've been thru, I just thought that my birthday this year would suck!
it turns out not so bad, in fact, it turned out great!
better than expected.
and I thank everyone who wish me happy birthday, and thank you to those that partied with me too.
made me happier than ever.
*AHEM! Daniel & Matt for getting me drunk! :P (no more, really!)
Jess for partying with me like all the time! :)
Cheese for dumplings and hangouts and gossips! :)
Cam for still giving me shit even tho u turned up for my dinner and my party in the end. :P
and lots and lots more to thank.
I appreciate it so much.

for those who have facebook, check the pics out.
*photos will be uploaded on myspace soon. :)

peace out for now!
I'll be back with more updates.

I thought my birthday was gonna suck this year.
it turned out not so bad after all.
and I'm glad. :)
I love my friends.

thursday at next was good.
birthday dinner was good too.
saturday at bang! was def awesome!
and I got drunk! hahaha
on 1 drink. ey, it was a jagerbomb + tequila ok. (daniel and matt, stop giving me shit for this!)
but it's fun.

more partying next week!
can't wait.

you make me smile. :D
you know who you are...

*sighs*
and why?
why now?
after all this time. maybe as you said, it's karma getting back at you.
maybe it'll let you know how I've been feeling before.
it hurts, certainly does.
but I don't hate you. and to know that we're friends make me happier.
and I thought that was settling in.
I was caught off guard.

Daniel?

Dear ______,
"Where are your guts to fly
Soaring through
Through the night
And if you take that last step
I’ll follow you 
Leave the edge
And we’ll fly
We’re finally alive"

xo, Odie

mixed messages / signals,
crushes,
am I missing something? give me a clue, please.

don't ignore.
stay, and tell me, why? or what?

I didn't even plan to go for the Underoath gig. but I ended up going neways.
$55 bux was worth it.
to see friends, to see Underoath, again.

thanx Robbie for driving me to the airport to pick up my sister!
and Jess, WELCOME TO MELBOURNE, BITCH!
hahahaha.
I bet u really enjoyed ur first night out! :P

I prefer Bang! to Next.
seriously.
can't wait for saturday now!
should be good awesome fun! :)

once bitten, twice shy.
and they say, three time's the charm.
so what now?
wad's four? or fouth?

Welcome Cheese to casa de Odie.
LOL.
she's my temporary housemate now! YAY!

smiles. :)

stuff that makes me smile:- (for now)

• work
• ppl I work with (just to name a few: Laura, Getta, Lachy, Mishan, Ricky and so on...)
• going to Bang! with Laura!
• dancing silly at Bang! with Cheese.
  
• hanging out with Cam
• txting with Daniel
• vegan nuggets + belgian sauce
  
• dumplings + pumpkin cake
  

I'm looking forward to... (for now)

• Cheese being my housemate temporarily
• Jesslyn coming in October
  
• Singapore Day carnival, so I can meet up with the electrico guys. :)
• shopping with Jesslyn
• showing Jesslyn around town + partying!
• having ice-cream with Mattystars when he comes to Melbourne
• my birthday? (probably?)
  

SMITTEN! :)
for now.

some songs are better played in clubs than on cd at home.

sleeping at 8am after my morning adventures after a night out, totally worth it!
daniel + matt + laura = lots of smiles.

I'm still broken. :(
<\3

THURSDAY.
the adventure of odie, mukie and his hip-hop car.
LOL.
oh, plus krispy kreme. :)
and winning some money at crown!
YAY!

at next, me + cheese + vocalist of Unwritten Law.

an unexpected friday.
but it's a good one.
oh, how I love when Cam comes up with his unexpected gestures.

what's another weekend all alone?
I've been doing this too often now, I feel.
everything is so different.
I do miss the old days. I miss so many moments of it.

I miss my holidays.
my 3 weeks in Singapore and Jakarta.
the new frens that I've gotten close to, especially Jeffrey Susanto.
I'm glad to have you as my "adopted" lil bro. :)
I miss Jess, Justine and Pam.
I miss the 2 days I hung out with Jess and Pam in Singapore.
I miss the days in Jakarta when I hung out with Jess, Justine, Pam, Jeff, Armand, Adrian, Adeline, Chris and my family, my precious Gloria & Georgina & Hugo.
it was good seeing them.
it felt good to be around them.

I miss my vacation.
I want more.

I'm back at uni and I dread it. A LOT!
I just don't wanna deal with the stress all over again every semester.
it's just so tiring.
right now I'm feeling the worst.
I'm tired and I just want more sleep.

so much for 3 hours of no class.
what the hell am I suppose to do?
I don't want to just do homework and more work.
man, if I had a car, it'll be so much easier.
I can just drive and not wait for public transport.

everything seems to be so slow today. UGH!

I want my holidays back!

Lostprophets. :)

me happy. :)
lostprophets! woots!
:)

that's all for now.

there are some things that I haven't done in a while.
and I do miss it.
I miss the feeling and everything that comes with it.

like, I haven't ate durian in a while.
I also haven't got on a bike in a while, or ice-skating...
and there are more stuff, but I'm not gonna say.
it might get too personal.

but neway, at least I got to eat durian today, even tho I'm down with the flu and I shouldn't be eating it at all.
it still tastes good and so many things, or rather, memories come flooding back to me.

I guess "absence makes the heart grow fonder" do apply in some situation.
there is always something that we can relate to with each other.
one way or another.

lost, broken, confused.

the internet connection in jakarta doesn't go my way sometimes.
that should explain the lack of my presence online.

so this trip home that I took doesn't seem like a total disappointment.
yes, I've had some share of fun and I do hope for more to come.

my heart is torn between places and people.
I can't help feeling the way I feel.

lost, broken, confused but I won't give up.
I can't give up.
but I don't know how long I can hang on...

hello singapore (humidity, UGH!)...
ZOMG, I've been eating sooooo much.
been missing too much food.
and to think 5 days in singapore, I don't even think that's enough time to eat everything that I want.
LOL.

then back to more food in jakarta.
I'm gonna be really well fed this holidays.

Singapore, you need a lil coolness from Melbourne.
and Melbourne needs a lil heat from Singapore.

coming home...

so I booked my flight and I'm leaving for Singapore next week on Friday.
although I won't be in Singapore for long, I hope my friends will be able to hang out with me.
I miss you guys.

I hope it'll be good to be away from Melbourne for a bit.
I think making me go back only once a year makes me miss home even more.
that's why the urge to go back home.

I definitely will miss Melbourne.
I know it's only gonna be 3 weeks, but still...
I'll miss hanging out with people who matters.
(you can figure out who they are)
but nothing is gonna change when I come back (hopefully) so I can come back and just fall back to the comfort I had before.

so please... don't change, don't change

it gets boring.
I need some company.
and entertainment.
mostly, just company would be good.