converse shoes!

SHOES GALORE.
why can't i own these rad shoes?!
i bet they fit me.
and that's what fit me PERFECTLY.
converse chuck taylors are sooo RADDDD!

batman converse chuck taylors all star.

this is such a RADDDDD shoe.
i wanna own it!



another RADDDDD shoe.
is so RAD, from top to bottom.

is the batman converse chuck taylors all star!
WAYYYYY RADDDDD!

i forgot to mention that it comes with a US$65.00 price tag!

thursday!

another GREAT thursday!
is always fun hanging out with friends.
in a big group.
WHEEEEEE...

becca, lampy, chelle ng, shermin, chelle lee, weishen, alfred, charles, gonaidi, jianbin, matthew, tianhee.
funny movie.
laughing my ass off.
LOL.

shermin left before dinner tho.
but KAIZI came!
wheee.. =D
i'm so glad u came.
=)

i've been dressing up for 2 thursdays!
and is been FUN and RAD!
it juz seems worth dressing up for!

and tianhee said it gives him something different to see rather than ppl who dress alike as always.
INTERESTING right?!
well, now u know wad i'm capable of dressing like.
LOL.
and is not all the time that i get to dress up.
so, MAKE THE MOST OF IT!

movie marathon.
didn't go quite as planned.
thanx to one fateful phone call bout posting results and school.
i can't believe it but it seems so fast.
i didn't apply for any school of any sort.
but the thought of me not going to school with my frens anymore is kinda shocking.
initially i find it hard to believe.
but i had to snap back to reality.
DUH!

all the talks.
i need shoes.
i need new bag.
i need a new pencil case.
no school uniform?
wad shoes can i wear?
can we meet up and go to school together?
one thing that was in my mine the whole time is the fact that my best fren BECCA exclaiming, "I DON'T HAVE PENS!"
that was hilarious!

GAWD, i'll miss that.
and the least i could do is to go "school" shopping with them.
sighs.
feeling different.

well, maybe some of you ppl coming to my blog might not know.
i already got accepted into a school in australia.
MIBT (Melbourne Institute of Business and Technology)
i'm still waiting for a reply from TAYLORS tho.
but i'll probably pick MIBT.
school's gonna start in june for me.

as i've said, my days here are numbered now.
60 days or so.
countdown to it or don't?
i guess not.
let's just take life by the day and enjoy the day to it's fullest as it offers me new beginnings of such.

lost friendship.

it seems that i'm trying to salvage a friendship that i've already lost.
i don't know why i'm still trying.
maybe because i think there's always hope that we'll be OK once again.
just like old days.
if you know what i mean.

all the fun.
all the times when it seems that you're just a phone call away.
i miss those days.
i miss you.
i wonder if you knew that.
i hope things will be OK once again before i leave.
even if it's the very last minute, i'll be glad to know i still have you there.
that i can rely on the friendship even if i'm miles away.

for now, i'd just like to thank you for all the fun that we had.
i can never get enough of that.
and i hope i can have fun with you whenever i come back from "god-knows-where".
that you'll be there to say hi and goodbye as i come and leave.
i have to say that my days here are numbered now.
the next time i know, i'll only come back here during my school vacation.
or maybe no chance to come back from time to time.
it will all depends on fate.
i guess.

to lost friendships... i'm not ready to say goodbye.

the thought suddenly daunts on me to create this entry which seems really emo-ish.
losing a friend is something i don't like to deal with.
<\3

i cracked my brain for this entry.
i've been thinking wad's interesting lately.
and it occured to me that nth much has been interesting.
well, here are the few things i can think of.

went over to reid's place and reid came over to mine the next day.
basically to chill.

gel, i miss you! haha =)
i know it might sound crazy.
neway, i would love to see ur tattoo.
and also to hang out with u.
the whole me missing u thing sounds kinda weird.
but i really do.
it seems i haven't seen u for ages.

same to reuben and ian.
i miss your nonsense.
LOL.

to my frens whom i went out with last thursday,
let's do it again.
i really can't wait. *excited*

and to the ppl whom i haven't see for like AGES,
let's hang out soon!
coz i might not have much time for that anymore.
BOO! =(
but is the fact.
so i would love to do much much catching up and stuff before i leave.
or...
YOU'LL BE SORRY WHEN I'M GONE!
and i'll miss everyone plenty.
fo sho!

braces

my teeth are killing me.
thanx braces. (sacasm.. BLAH!)
"your bottom set of teeth are ok already." said the orthodontist.

wheeee...
i'm gonna have nice teeth.
YAYS!

warren, ppl with braces are RAD!
especially ME!
LOL.

fun-ness

yesterday was great.
12 frens.
hanging out altogether.
movies, dinner, juz hanging out.
is pure fun!

i love my frens. <3
i wish we could do this more often.
becca, lampy, chelle ng, alfred, warren, weishen, jianbin, gonaidi, matthew, charles, tianhee.
let's do this more often.

these are the days that i'll miss when i'm gone.

thanx warren for walking me home.
we were like 2 bored kids.
LOL.
aww... how sweet.
(must be added on according to you)
HAHAHA.

random.

fetish for emo boys.
something for black skirts.
temptation for rad tops.
a thing for band tees.
vice for clothing, magazines and cds.
urge for shopping.
can't live without music.
passion for acting, singing and dancing.
wanting to star-gaze.
sweet tooth for chocolates.
crushing on someone.
attracted to "eye candies"
loves hot boys. <3
hearts all my frens.
yearning for overseas valentine.
longing for freedom.

YOU'RE MORE THAN JUST MY VALENTINE.

work was tiring.
extremely tiring today.
BOO! =(

neway, i caught pink panther on monday.
hilarious.
funny but lame.

do u know that when u type panther on the phone, it actually shows the word "panties".
LOL.
so be sure to type slower.
u don't wanna be asking ppl to go watch "pink panties".
hahaha. =)

From day one I talked about getting out.
But not forgetting about,
How all my worst fears are letting out.
He said why put a new address on the same old lonliness?
When breathing just passes the time,
Until we all just get old and die.
Now talking's just a waste of breath,
And living's just a waste of death.
And why put a new address on the same old lonliness?
And this is you and me and me and you until we've got nothing left.

Blast @ Sentosa.

i had fun on saturday night!
blast at the beach was a blast.
despite the rain that poured earlier in the afternoon.
CLAPS FOR EGAN AND RUSS! =D

as usual, fun people!
i love u guys!
<333

reid, egan, dharma, bryan and kj, eric and lisa, jude and sherie, gaby and mark, and many many more ppl.
the ppl i went to sentosa with.

jess, i <3 u SISTERR!
lizz, dearest. <3
jasmine, slut sister. LOL. <3
natasha, my wonderbrick. <3 no wall without u
pam, cuzzie. <3
wiz, u lame nut. <3

i had fun.
really FUN!

reid, star gazing couldn't be more interesting without you.
u know so much stuff!
haha =)
VENUS and MARS!
LOL.
<33

you're more than just my valentine.

PAUL and JUSTIN!

i'm so glad i have frens who treat me so nicely.
u guys are the ppl who make me wanna go to the states badly.
i wanna see u.

PAUL and JUSTIN!
you hotties.
<3

friends like you guys make me real and alive.
i love you both to bits!
<333

I MEAN IT!

paul can't talk. i'm bummed.
BOO. =(

worked.
came home at 2.
i had fun at work. somehow.

thanx SYAHID for meeting me up first. =)
KAIJIE, u're a good partner. LOL. =)
EDDY, thanx for the rose. =)

my grandma is going back to jakarta.
and she'll only be back in april.
FREEDOM?!!
i hope!
wahahaha.
i can feel it already!

PAUL.

meet PAUL!
he's my overseas valentine too.
he's nice & sweet.
HE'S MY HERO!
he talks to me when he comes home from school.
he wants to come meet me here in singapore.
he wants to go to the beach with me.
and we'll hang out together if he ever comes to singapore.
he wants me to go to ohio so i can hang out with him.
he fits the profile. (you know wad i'm talking about, =D)
he can tolerate my random-ness and still loves me.
right PAUL?!
u are love.
<3

you're so emo, i love you.

local VALENTINE.

a valentine from singapore. LOL.
ALFRED.
hahaha =)
thanx sweetie.

my good food partner, my cam-whore partner.
WHEEEEE...
<3

VALENTINE(S)

overseas valentine.
<3 JUSTIN.
you're far from me.
like all the way in PENNSYLVANIA, USA.
BOO. =(

DANIELLE, i miss u.
and u're my valentine. from MIAMI.
hahaha. <3

JENSEN, i miss you like WHOA!
you're all the way in AUSTRALIA.
=(

but is better than nothing.

my valentine's day is not gonna be so bad after all.
=)

VALENTINE-LESS

17 years without a valentine.
but whatever.
i still like it.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S TO ALL.
i shall seek comfort in the midst of all the loving couples.
<\3

would you be my valentine?

emo kid on valentine's day.

dragonfly

one more post.
an emo one.

all the sleepless nights thinking of you, are finally over.
i thought i totally got over you.
i haven't.
there's this teeny weeny bit.
but i want you to know i exist.
please...
your friendship and nothing else.
that's all i ask for.
juz friendship.
i hope that's not too much to ask for.
u know how i value friendship.
the friendship between you and i means a lot.
don't ditch me, friend.
please... and thank you.

PAVILLION. PLAYERS & SWINGERS.

drop it like it's hot.

shake your body like a belly dancer.

dressing up.
heels.
great company.
i mean really really great company.
love love love and gazillion more love.
<33333

blisters, heels and fun juz go well together.
i guess.
i got to see who i wanted to see.

EGAN, u're always such a sweetie.
love, <3

DHARMA, BRYAN and GANG, u guys are fun ppl.
really fun ppl.
i can't imagine my night without u guys.
love, <3

this is random, but bryan smells good.
hahahaha =)
is not wad u think it is.
i was dancing beside him.
and a hug before i left. =D
I TOLD U IT WAS RANDOM!

O LEVELS

results wasn't really satisfactory.
i'm disappointed with english grade.
the rest of the subjects were quite an improvement.
so i'm happy bout that at least.
mixed feelings.

juz get me accecpted into the school in australia.
PLEASE!

o level results gonna be out this friday.
which is like TMR?!!!
WAD THE FUCK?!

neways, i went to loads of places today.
first to orchard, cineleisure.
met becca, chelle and gonaidi there.
then off to lucky plaza.
then took mrt down to bugis.
walked around bugis.
coz chelle needed to go there to collect something.
then off to bras basah.
becca and her valentine's.
BLAH!
then off to take a bus from beach road.
to golden mile something something to do some embroidery for becca's darling's cloth!
then we all ( me, becca, lampy and chelle) shared a cab.
and the other 2 guys, (gonaidi and wenshiun) shared a cab.
i didn't know that seeing another 2 boys in another cab on the road and wearing seat belts is sooooo hilarious.
LOL.
we gurls were laughing our ass off.
even the taxi driver was kinda amused as well.
LOL.
went to toa payoh.
ate.
and EGAN came.
wheeee...
=)
played pool.
it was fun.
i got homeat 11 something.
and i didn't get "screamo" from my grandma.
wheeee...
she was being really nice.
=)
and i'm happy.

first day of work!

erm... work.
it was alright.
not that bad.
blisters on my lil toes.
OUCH!
i'll deal with it tho.
=)

legs kinda tired.
but i'll survive.
goofed up a lil here and there during work.
but... i'd say that i did quite a fair job being a first-timer.
wheeeee... =)

well, this entry is for the 6th.
i had a good day.

sorry lampy for the last minute phone call.
and thanx for coming with me to shop for my working shoes.
and yes, u heard that... WORKING SHOES!
i'm gonna start working.
like on tuesday.
wait, that's today but later.
i hope everything will be alright.
kinda nervous tho.
juz jitters actually.

and i had a really good time with EGAN!
and dude, i know u're reading this.
LOL.
we should go out again.
WHEEEEEEEEE...
and even my frens said that u're a nice guy.
see... they like u too.
=)
and sorry for the loads of random-ness today.
and the random-ness bout BRYAN!
he's GOOD-LOOKIN
=)
i was sooooo hyper after that.
pardon me.
but u'll get more random-ness from me.
don't worry.
LOL.
<3

but well, i hope work is gonna make things better.
i get scolded for staying home, coz my grandma says i'm not doing anything at home.
and i get scolded for going out.
she says that i'm always out.
so i got scolded for being home and being out.
i'm confused.
and i feel that everything is wrong.
it kinda SUCK! like BIG TIME!
so initially she was against me working.
but in the end, she told me to get consent from my MOM.
so i called back to jakarta juz to ask my mom if i could work.
and my mom said ok.
wad trouble right?!

well, the weird thing is she thought if i'd go to work and come home late, i'll be making frens with those "bad company".
is funny coz why didn't she think that since i'm working, i'll be tired and i have no time to play after that?!!!!
GOSH! WEIRD THINKING!
but grandma is after all GRANDMA!

ROCK FOR GOOD.

so basically, i had a really great time on saturday.
missed the chingay thingy.
but whatever...
i was at RGS rockin my night away.
AMAZING!
ROCK FOR GOOD!
tix were like 10 bucks. but i think it's worth much more than that.
i made new frens.
really nice ppl.
got to talk to the band members and stuff.

i heard that the main organiser for the event was a 16 years old girl.
sabrina.
well, she did a really good job.

LEVAN of RONIN said that chingay is for gay chinese.
LOL.

i saw GERARD in the crowd.
i didn't talk to him tho.
i was at the other end of the stage.
SORRY DUDE!
=)

well, i had loads of fun that night.
after rockin and stuff, the bunch of us walked over to lido.
ate at mcd's and talk bout stuff.
wiz, kenneth, egan, pam, jess and i.

pam was commenting on wiz's hair.
LOL.

wiz, it was good right?
but i can't believe u actually fell asleep at a rock concert.
BLAH!

kenneth, next time i tell u more when there's concerts / gig OK?!
u had fun right?
WHEEEEEEEEEE...
and i can't believe u almost slept also.
and sorry u were hungry and needed ciggies so badly.
=)
and kenneth, the guy was good-looking.
LOL.

kinda bummed BESTIE AND LAMPY missed out.
=(
next time we crash another concert / gig together okies?!

i'm kinda tired to blog now.
shall blog bout everything later.
but one thing to let everyone know,
I HAD A GREAT DAY!

lalalalala.
wheeeeeeee...
=)

i feel that i have to blog bout this.
saying goodbyes and separation.
sighs.
i don't really like that.
seriously, i don't.

i went to the airport.
i sent my parents off today.
i sent my frens off today.
the departure hall is a sad place.
the arrival hall is a much happier place.
that's wad i think.

i feel like i'm losing everything.
i'm losing my purpose of staying here. in singapore.
i feel like i'm losing way more stuff.
but i dunno wad.
i've not come to realize all yet.

I ESPECIALLY HATE LOSING FRIENDS.

maybe is really time for me to say goodbye.

crying doesn't help with anything.
i'm like shedding tears of nothing.
sighs.

BOYS & DOTA.

ian.

reuben.

gerard.

joshua.

BOYS & TOYS.
LOL.
actually is BOYS & DOTA.
i find it quite interesting to watch boys play dota actually.
LOL.
the characters they choose, the way they fight, allies and enemies, the vulgarities they scold, the expression when their head get pawned and etc etc etc.


ian can tie his hair.
look at his teeny weeny lil tail.
LOL.

all about my hair straightener.

my ear is bleeding.
ok, it sounds weird but it is.
coz my itchy hand juz couldn't stop picking on the scab.
BLAH!
i have to stop. I HAVE TO!

in case u're wondering wad happen, my hair straightener did all that burning.
i think my hair straightener is starting not to like me.
it has started burning my hands too.
that's bad.
even my best fren suggested that i shouldn't use it anymore.

who knows, maybe i shall let it cool down and find back some love from it.
wait, that sounds kinda weird too.
but watever.
please love me, hair straightener, i need u.
haha =)
<3

food, food and more food.

first PEPPER LUNCH.
then COFFEE CLUB'S CHOCOLATE FONDUE WITH FRUITS.
and SEAFOOD CENTRE?!!!
ARGH!

i almost burst!
and growing fatter.
blah.

EMO SHIT!

I FEEL FOOLISH AND USELESS.
I'M BEGINNING TO LOSE MY PURPOSE OF STAYING.
IF NOT FOR SOME PEOPLE THAT I REALLY CHERISH AND TREASURE, I'D BE GONE BY NOW!

I LOVE U GUYS!!!
U KNOW I DO.
<\3

CNY and angpows and movies.

CNY CNY!!!
YIPEE!
so i've been staying home, collecting RED PACKETS!
WHOOPEEDOO!
=)

thanx those who came over to my place to visit.
i love u guys.
<3

and i've been watching movies since there's nth much to do.
going out late and coming home "early".
getting screamed at.
but watever... i had FUN!

JENSEN, when am i gonna have prata with you?
=)

emo-ish.

i'm emo-ish again.
sighs.
it's been happening to me more often now.
i dunno why either.
and is the festive season.
BOO-HOO =(

but i'm glad i always have you to cheer me up.
i'm sooooo glad.
and i realized too that you're always there when i'm feeling "shitty".
THANX GEL!
love, <3

gel says : oh man.
gel says : you cant be sad! your ms cheerful dammit
...
gel says : you gonna be aight?
...
gel says : theres nothing to be sad abt
...
gel says : take care you


and those words of yours actually made me smile for a lil bit.
thanx buddy.
you're the SWEET-EST!
gazillions and more love for you, <333

one more thing, i enjoyed my time hanging out with gel, ian, joshua, jess, pam, jason, and jason's friend.
=)
the JET LI movie wasn't that bad eh?

CNY!

YAY!!!
CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
ang pow come come.
LOL.

new clothes.
lots of goodies.
and RED PACKETS!
WHEEEEEEEE!!!

i have friends coming over to visit.
how sweet of them right?!
i don't have to go visiting so i sit at home and slack and wait for RED PACKETS to come my way.
YAYEEE!!!

=))
isn't it a great season?

so here's a weird post.
i was out hanging out with frens almost the whole day.
then i got my sis to come and meet me and we were again hanging out with frens.
so we were at youth park and we sat on the wordings.
as usual.
try to find a spot and sit there.
watching the skaters and stuff.
my view of the starry sky was blocked by a tree above me.
so i was looking around for other stars to see.
i juz love to star-gaze.
the weird thing was the conversation i had with my sis.
here goes...

me : ey jess, the stars are blocked by this damn tree above. blah.
me : let's look for other stars.
then i pointed to a star at a distant.
jess : del!!! don't point at the star.
me : why? why not?
jess : is rude.
me : HUH?! waddya mean?
jess : juz don't point la, give some respect.
me : to the stars?
jess : yah.
me : but if u were to point to the sky, u'll be like pointing to thousands of stars already, is juz not seen. unless u're using a telescope.
jess : yah.
then i pointed at the sky again.
me : see, if u do this, is as if u're touching it. LOOK!
and jess did the same thing that i do.
point at the stars.
LOL.

so i juz kept pointing at the night sky.
it looks like i'm poking at it.
LOL.
and i didn't know that my sis had such thoughts that pointing at the stars is a rude thing to do.
hahahaha =)

AVENGED SEVENFOLD.

CHECK OUT AVENGED SEVENFOLD!!!
THEY'RE FUCKIN AWESOME.
if you're wondering why my sudden post is dedicated to A7X,
here's why...
i've been watching videos online.
and i happen to come across one video of A7X performing LIFE on TRL.
and unlike bands who can't sing life for nuts.
(not mentioning names)
AVENGED SEVENFOLD can really sing. as in WHOAW singing.
and the crowd was TOTALLY ROCKIN!
i mean TOTALLY.
so this gives YOU a very very good reason to check them out!
PEACE.
and A7X, A7X, A7X, A7X, A7X.
ALL THE WAY!

for all those "faint-hearted" and who thinks that ROCK is NOISE.
(BULLSHIT!)
AVENGED SEVENFOLD is a METAL / ROCK / PUNK band.
so... be prepared.
BUT WHO CARES?!!
THEY SOUND FRIGGIN AWESOME!
<3

EMO MODE.
sighs.

so many questions i wanna ask.
so many things that i seek answers for.
i juz can't get them out.
i'm holding back.
i'm always holding back.
i wanna cry.
i really do.
but i can't.
my tears refuse to flow.
even for the slightest reason.
holding back again.

i need hugs.
hugs from everywhere.
i need someone.
someone who would be able to understand how i feel without me telling them anything at all.
<\3

so i went to school today.
and as usual, saying HI to ppl doesn't seem to stop.
it was pleasant tho.
hang around for a while.
made new friends.
see new ppl and stuff.
pretty interesting.

well, i went back home with my sis.
and we were arguing whether to stop at newton or at orchard.
i picked orchard. she picked newton.
so i was kinda begging her to stop at orchard.
coz there'll be more stuff to see.
she doesn't wanna.
i thought of "spying" on the BACKSTREET BOYS!
hahaha =)
lame thought i know.
but hey... u know wad i can do when i'm bored right?!

so much for "spying".
i called my dear fren ALFRED.
he was suppose to call me. DUH!
then we decided to meet up.
kinda last minute thing tho.
plans were kinda crazy.
and we ourselves didn't know wad was going on.
LOL.
so i met up with becca and charles at wisma atria.
walk around for a bit.
met up with tianhee and lampy.
and then waited for wee suan.
so... 7 of us.
hungry alfred... again.
we went to marche.
food was good.
any kind of food is good for hungry ppl.
=)
becca says i'm a pain in her ass.
she doesn't like my camera flash.
she said she'll go blind.
she's NUTS!

well, that's my best fren and i'll still love her.
haha =)
<3 you BESTIE!!!

denial? confusion?

sometimes i wonder to myself...
am i living in denial?
am i really contented with watever i have now?
i really wonder.

i feel happy. and i like it that way.
but there are juz some things that'll take ur hapiness away.
sometimes i feel that my life is different from any other girls my age.
even my friends.

don't you notice everyone's got something to complain about in life?
ppl are complaining about how they live and stuff.
why is that so?!
ppl can say that they're contented with watever it is.
i don't think that's true.
if u're happy with how the situation is...
u wouldn't be complaining now, would u?

contradicting as it is...

i think all along, i've kept my sadness hidden.
i hate to show the world the ugly side of me.
the unhappy side of me.
coz my thinking is, if i would juz be happy...
i should share it with everyone.
flash a smile whenever and wherever.
however, i have to also face the reality that not everyone is gonna do the same.
not everyone is gonna flash a smile at u and make ur day.

it feels that i'm living my life for someone else.
i don't like that.
i wanna live for myself.
coz is my life.
sometimes i wish i could grow up faster, live my dream so it'll be my own.
but at the same time, i don't wanna waste my youth by growing up so fast.
sighs.
life is sooo full of contradictions.

J.A.M

so the 21st, which was a SATURDAY was a boring day for me.
i practically stayed and home.
online and doing almost the same stuff.
in this period of time, i've become "obsessed" with someone whom i like to refer to as J.A.M.
so JAM is this really hot guy.
and only my sis knows who he is.

JESS, DON'T TELL ANYONE WHO'S J.A.M OKIES?!
PLEASE...

JAM is really hot.
and he's got a great voice i can't get enough of.
and the thought of him, makes me melt.
awww...

besides, i think he'll totally go well with me on the love scope.
LOL.

J.A.M is pure love.
<333

chalet.

thanx MATTHEW for it.
the ZOO and the ZOO-KEEPER.
LOL.
mole, tiger, monkey, ostrich (woodstock), giraffe, mealworm.
3 zoo-keepers.

me, becca, lester, tianhee, charles, warren, alfred, cheetong and matthew himself.
the crazy ppl who stayed over.
haha =)
2 girls and 7 guys.
and bloody hell, 2 beds, 2 matresses and 9 crazy sleepers.

CHARLES is a crazy sleeper. extremely dangerous.
don't get near him whenever he's asleep.
he's got weird sleeping positions too.
not forgetting the weird face expression he makes when he's sleeping.
and all the weird funny noises of his arms swinging wildly and hitting everything else.
LOL.

LESTER is the ultimate monkey.
he gets excited bout frogs and cockroaches.
frogs on the bed?!! SO WRONG! and u really didn't have to do that.
YOU CREEP!
and frog in the vending machine?! EWW.
i can't imagine.
SLIPPERS and COCKROACH?!!
disgusting.
and if the tv was spoilt.
i wouldn't be surprised. imagine how many times we hit the tv with SLIPPERS.
coz of the BLOODY COCKROACH.
u and ur lame suggestion.

TIANHEE, bitch and bitch and bitch with BECCA.
it seems that all u two only bitch and nth else.
BLAH! hahaha =)
and ur body is like "pai-kut".
oh-so buff?! NO!
LOL.

BECCA, u and ur stupid tortoise / turtle.
WHATEVER.
i didn't abuse it.
the guys did.
not me, i'm innocent. haha =)
SIMON-EY. what a name!

WARREN, if u haven't realized, u kick the bed everytime u go to ur little corner.
hahaha =)
and i really thought u were pulling my blanky.
my toes were freezing!

MATTHEW was probably the most matured person around.
he didn't fight for the bed like we did.
he helped us close the curtain when the morning light was streaming into the room and we were all sleeping like pigs.

ALFRED, i sure had fun taking pics with you.
sorry bout the reserved space on the bed.
tong took it but u both left.
hahaha.
in the end i got more space. and the monkey too.

CHEETONG, YOU BUGGER.
why u leave so early?!!
didn't take any pics with you.
=(
blah...

referring to becca's entry.
I DIDN'T SNORE! U TUUT!!
it can't be me.
MUST BE ONE OF THE DUDES OKAY?!!
ERGH!
or is it YOU?! LOL.

chalet was fun.
and i hope there'll be more fun coming up!
=D

CHALET DAY!

food, no food. the work of 2 hungry ppl.
there goes the fish & chips and the chicken baked rice.
swensens. LOL.

alfred and i. (the hair-dryer?)

i and lester. (you, monkey!)

matthew the goodie and charles the mealworm. (haha.)

making love to the camera.

matthew and i.

my best friend and i. (becca the giraffe)
we practically reserved the BEDS.
but the boys crashed on us.
LOL.

Lester. haha =)

tianhee and i.

i and charles.

ZOO.
lester the monkey, simon-ey the tortoise (becca's), becca the giraffe and tianhee the ostrich.
and the one without the visible face is charles the mealworm.

warren the mole.

"WE SLEEP WITH PRIDE."
we care and share in the animal world.
LOL.

ANIMAL PLANET.

is dark but look closer.

OSTRICH SAYS PEACE!

WHATEVER.

boys and x-box. (do u see the connection?)

i and ostrich (oh-so buff body huh?!)

BLISS...

mealworm.

mole.

monkey.

the camera loves us and we love the camera.

train ride.
tiger, giraffe and ostrich.

pictures speak a thousand words.
so...

cheetong!!!
i didn't take pics with u.
next time okies?!
=)

GEL, IAN, REUBEN.

REUBEN, GERARD, IAN.
these are the 3 "RETARDS".
LOL.
you know i don't mean it boys.
they're really fun to hang out with.
they have loads of CRAP to share with you.
they're really nice ppl.
I LOVE U GUYS TO BITS.
<3 <3 <3
*muacks.

REUBEN, u're WACKY.
and u know it.
erm... u know i didn't mean the fuck-face thingy.
i'm sorry. =)
i was juz kidding.
but ur face was hilarious.
LOL.

GERARD, u're NUTS!
and u know it.
LOL.
stop smoking for goodness sake.
and u still owe me something coz u scare me in the middle of the night the other time.
mwahahahaha.

IAN, BRO! u're CRAZY!
and u know it.
but i still love u bro! =)
and since u ask me to blog bout u, i did.
on the exception is juz not bout u but ur 2 goodie frens as well.

overall, I LOVE U 3 DUDES.
<3
and STOP SMOKING!
haha.
FOR GOODNESS SAKE!

LOVE always.
<3

this is for the 16th.
i woke up coz of jensen's text.
and i'm glad u texted.
if not i would have sleep like a pig again.

i met up with ian, reuben and gerard.
haha. =)
u guys are NUTS!
u're like the 3 stooges.
LOL.
it's pretty fun hanging out with u guys.
and we should do it again!
YES YES?!!
please.
i juz love u guys to bits.
<3 <3 <3

then i met up with jensen, kieran and daniel.
gosh... i haven't seen them for like AGES!!!
i missed u guys!
like a hella LOADS!!!
let's hang out again.
with my sis this time.
she's already being a GREEN-EYED monster.
too bad she's got school.
we'll hang out next time JESS, i promise ok?!

i watched a movie with them.
FOOTBALL HOOLIGANS.
pretty gruesome. but NICE.
M-18 and i got in when i'm not even 18 yet.
whoo-hoo.

my day was fun and i hope it'll get funner!
hahaha.

since it's already the 17th,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEETONG!
love ya dude.
<3
u're a nice hang out buddy. and u know it.
and tong, i still want that shopping trip!
hahaha =)

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You can't tell me you dont need me
And i know that hurts
Cause im looking at your picture
Cause its all i've got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot

in your absence, i'm learning to let go.
i'm still holding back
but i'll let go eventually.
<\3

i didn't even realize that it's 5 am.
LOL.
i got carried away.

i went to eat prata last night.
yeh, usual bunch.
joel, doug, josh, cone, lizz, sling, jess and pam tagged along.
met xavier woon.
wad a coincidence.
LOL.

nth much happened today i guess.
but i still had fun with them.
YAY! to crapiness.

JOEL NG, i hope u had a great time with us.
and i hope u'll like the big wonka bar i gave u.
LOL.
=)
i love u pal!
<3

JENSEN, i'm so glad to have met you!
we should hang out sometime.
<3

so i did go to cuscaden for joel's bday celebration.
it was fun.
i had alcohol.
but not that much.
u know i don't drink a lot.
loads of smokes.
and i freakin smell like ciggies now.
but... i'll freshen up. LOL.

oh.. i also bought candy and chocolates.
i bought loads of wonka candy.
a big wonka chocolate bar.
2 mudsludge bar and 1 wonka caramel bar.
plus 2 wonka ropes.
YAY! haha =)
WONKA ROCKS!
thanx cheetong for accompanying me.

if u guys didn't realize, i don't think it rained on friday the 13th.
that's why i felt so glad.
and... nth bad happen to me on friday the 13th.

this entry is for the 12th.
so i did nothing much today.
i slept.
coz the weather allowed me to.
is so cold and it gives u a good reason to be under the blanky.
LOL.

i went for sushi today.
collected my ipod.
yay!
i've missed my ipod since the battery was changed and stuff.
finally is back with me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GERARD AND JOEL NG!
love u guys loads. <3

IELTS

so... i'm really happy.
my IELTS results is out.
I'VE GOT A 7.5
u know... that's quite good.
the highest point is 9 and the lowest is 1... i think.
well, usually ppl only score bout 5 point something or a 6.
I'VE GOT A 7.5
that, of course, makes me really happy.
YAY!
one results down. one more to go.
i'm worried.
wish me luck!
<3

so this entry is for JENSEN and my wonka mudsludge.
(see the pic of a wonka mudsludge in my previous entry)

JENSEN is my friend.
he's really nice.
JENSEN is hyper right now.
and ya, i'm talking to him on msn messeger.
JENSEN influenced me to go hyper with him.
JENSEN is a really nice fren.
JENSEN is really nice to talk to.
JENSEN says he can't decide if i'm nice or really nice.
JENSEN says i look gorgeous and cute.
JENSEN is such a sweet dude.
i <3 JENSEN my friend.
and there's more bout JENSEN...
loads more.
i'll have to discover it first.
LOL.

this is for my wonka mudsludge.
someone or anyone, get me a wonka mudsludge and i'll love u.
haha.
<3

this is something i'd like to share with everyone.
if you love chocolates or if u don't love chocolates.
(who doesn't love chocolates?)
try this wonka's mud sludge.
it taste good!!!
it comes in a bar of wonka hats and bite each hat one by one and u can actually see and taste the sludge centre.
is really good.
YUMM!
i know is a "sin-full" food.
but just give it a try.
your sin of eating this will be forgiven.
=)

this post is for the 9th of jan too.
even tho the date states the 10th.
well, here goes...
i stayed home the whole day today.
trying to freeze my ass off.
i feel like a pig.
i wanna go out.
i hate the weather.
why can't anyone give me sun?
i don't like rainy days.
it's been raining non-stop. is annoying.
BLAH!
please stop the rain. PLEASE!
I NEED SOME SUN!!!
I MISS THE SUN!
i wanna go to the beach.
i totally need to get sunburn and a tan as well.

i hope my dear friends are coming over to my place later.
chill with me.
then i will be staying home again.
it's gonna be a NO SCHOOL DAY tmr.
so, yeah.
hopefully we can have fun indoor.
at least for a rainy day.
=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BECCA!
hope u had a great time with us bestie.
i heart u loads.
<3

PONGSA left s'pore.
i'm gonna miss you dude.
i'm gonna miss your nonsense.
you'll come back. i know.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZING!
have a great day ahead!

btw, today i was kinda cranky.
blah.
i got woken up when i was having my nicest-cest-cest dream ever.
i dreamt of someone.
a dream that i wish was a reality.
I WISH!
i wish it so badly!

i also had another dream.
i dreamt that my sister, my cousins, some of my friends and i were superheroes.
LOL
i was superwoman.
how great right?! hahaha.

you still somehow pop into my mind.
can it ever stop?
i've to get over it.
one way or another.
sooner or later i guess.

dragonfly?

i wish it was that easy...
for you to walk out of my life.
but is not easy.

even if you would walk out eventually.
i will always remember you.
always.
i don't want you to walk out on me.
please don't.
i couldn't bear to let you do that.
and i won't.

i wish i could turn back time.
get to know u better.
but i know i can't.
i'm no superhero.

pardon me for my imperfection.
i know that you're not perfect too.
but it's your imperfection that makes you perfect.
thoughts of you will linger in my mind.

i just wanna let you know that...
if you need a friend and a shoulder to lean on,
i'll be there for you.
i'll be a call away.
<3
i adore you.

pretty rad words for a song, don't you think?!
well... to everyone reading this, these words are originally MINE!
it'll be my song. i guess.

well... this entry is for the 5th of JAN.
LAST DAY OF XMAS!
the last MERRY CHRISTMAS wish to everyone!

i went to school today.
i was suppose to help my fren collect something.
passed a cd to val.
-- i hope u like the cd! enjoy it! HE'S JUST SIMPLY HOT!
-- HE'S MINE BTW. please don't take him away from me.
checked out the new campus.
i have to say that there seems to be more fresh air there.
i miss the school.
missed the atmosphere and stuff.
i did talk to some of the teachers and friends.

orientation camp.
one boy fell from the flying fox.
he kinda fell "plop" from the top.
kinda shocking.
the ambulance came.
paramedics and stuff.

ate at mc.d's
card and jon came along too.
they even popped by the school.
took a cab back home.

juz as i got home, i got a msg.
yeh... asking me where i was.
blah.
cheesecake eh tong?! haha =)
OK! LOL.
so i went out again and had cheesecake and coffee with cheetong.
i'm such a nice friend.
u better love me for it. =D
neway, thanx for the treat.
<3

met up with fardhan and ridzuan (his cousin).
they've juz finished work.
so.. yea.
kinda chill a while and stuff.
then i headed home.

quite a day i had today actually.
pretty interesting.

this is to my jungle boy...
i'll still love u, my friend.
<3
for last night, and for now and for always.

i still haven't think of a new year resolution.
well... blah.
i'll juz go with the flow and see where the flow will take me.
meahwhile, i'll also do watever that's right and not against anyone's will.
that should be alright, shouldn't it?!

neway, i was out with my cousins today.
met my sister, phyllis, nat and peiwen after their school ended.
and jon, card, joel, cone, josh.
hahaha =)
unexpectedly, i saw kaizi.
first day of being in junior college eh?!
then we took the bus.
with all my cousins.
nonensical. blah.

walked around in far east.
hahahaha. i picked out my shirt.
OLD MAN, U BETTER GET MY SHIRT FOR ME!
LOL.
THANX. =)

well, i'm really glad i saw you today.
<3

NEW YEAR WISHES!

i have to think of a new year resolution.
meanwhile, here are my new year wishes.

WISHES...
-get good grades for O LEVELS and IELTS.
-for all my friends to be happy. for with happiness everything falls into place.
-for my own happiness.
-for my beloved family and friends to be healthy always.
-for everything to go well when i leave for australia.
-for me to get accepted into the school in australia.
-to see more eye-candy. (ooh la la)
-to see more hot guys. (LOL)
-for my wishes to come true. =)
-to get more wishes. hahaha.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
well... i'm gonna start thanking ppl again.
and yes... THE GUYS.
u guys juz made my XMAS and NEW YEAR so fun.
is the best ever.!!!
I LOVE U GUYS not juz loads, GAZILLIONS.
<3

cheetong, alfred, bohan, weishen, jianbin, matthew, kaizi, kenneth, fardhan, ridzuan (fardhan's cousin)
we shall hang out together again k?!
LOL.

my beloved sister jesslyn, phyllis dearest, starfire, jon sweetie, josh, douglas sweetie pie.
we shall meet up really soon. haha =)
like we always do.

my XMAS and NEW YEAR would be really different it it weren't for u guys.
it would be a big sad disaster spending XMAS and NEW YEAR without my beloved frens.

THANX FOR ALL THE NEW YEAR HUGS AND KISSES.
muacks. muacks. muacks.
<3

TO MY GURLFRENS...
PLEASE MEET UP SOON ALRIGHT?!!!!
I MISS U GURLS. LOADS.

to everyone out there reading this,
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
have a great year ahead.