CHALET DAY!

food, no food. the work of 2 hungry ppl.
there goes the fish & chips and the chicken baked rice.
swensens. LOL.

alfred and i. (the hair-dryer?)

i and lester. (you, monkey!)

matthew the goodie and charles the mealworm. (haha.)

making love to the camera.

matthew and i.

my best friend and i. (becca the giraffe)
we practically reserved the BEDS.
but the boys crashed on us.
LOL.

Lester. haha =)

tianhee and i.

i and charles.

ZOO.
lester the monkey, simon-ey the tortoise (becca's), becca the giraffe and tianhee the ostrich.
and the one without the visible face is charles the mealworm.

warren the mole.

"WE SLEEP WITH PRIDE."
we care and share in the animal world.
LOL.

ANIMAL PLANET.

is dark but look closer.

OSTRICH SAYS PEACE!

WHATEVER.

boys and x-box. (do u see the connection?)

i and ostrich (oh-so buff body huh?!)

BLISS...

mealworm.

mole.

monkey.

the camera loves us and we love the camera.

train ride.
tiger, giraffe and ostrich.

pictures speak a thousand words.
so...

cheetong!!!
i didn't take pics with u.
next time okies?!
=)

GEL, IAN, REUBEN.

REUBEN, GERARD, IAN.
these are the 3 "RETARDS".
LOL.
you know i don't mean it boys.
they're really fun to hang out with.
they have loads of CRAP to share with you.
they're really nice ppl.
I LOVE U GUYS TO BITS.
<3 <3 <3
*muacks.

REUBEN, u're WACKY.
and u know it.
erm... u know i didn't mean the fuck-face thingy.
i'm sorry. =)
i was juz kidding.
but ur face was hilarious.
LOL.

GERARD, u're NUTS!
and u know it.
LOL.
stop smoking for goodness sake.
and u still owe me something coz u scare me in the middle of the night the other time.
mwahahahaha.

IAN, BRO! u're CRAZY!
and u know it.
but i still love u bro! =)
and since u ask me to blog bout u, i did.
on the exception is juz not bout u but ur 2 goodie frens as well.

overall, I LOVE U 3 DUDES.
<3
and STOP SMOKING!
haha.
FOR GOODNESS SAKE!

LOVE always.
<3

this is for the 16th.
i woke up coz of jensen's text.
and i'm glad u texted.
if not i would have sleep like a pig again.

i met up with ian, reuben and gerard.
haha. =)
u guys are NUTS!
u're like the 3 stooges.
LOL.
it's pretty fun hanging out with u guys.
and we should do it again!
YES YES?!!
please.
i juz love u guys to bits.
<3 <3 <3

then i met up with jensen, kieran and daniel.
gosh... i haven't seen them for like AGES!!!
i missed u guys!
like a hella LOADS!!!
let's hang out again.
with my sis this time.
she's already being a GREEN-EYED monster.
too bad she's got school.
we'll hang out next time JESS, i promise ok?!

i watched a movie with them.
FOOTBALL HOOLIGANS.
pretty gruesome. but NICE.
M-18 and i got in when i'm not even 18 yet.
whoo-hoo.

my day was fun and i hope it'll get funner!
hahaha.

since it's already the 17th,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEETONG!
love ya dude.
<3
u're a nice hang out buddy. and u know it.
and tong, i still want that shopping trip!
hahaha =)

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You can't tell me you dont need me
And i know that hurts
Cause im looking at your picture
Cause its all i've got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot

in your absence, i'm learning to let go.
i'm still holding back
but i'll let go eventually.
<\3

i didn't even realize that it's 5 am.
LOL.
i got carried away.

i went to eat prata last night.
yeh, usual bunch.
joel, doug, josh, cone, lizz, sling, jess and pam tagged along.
met xavier woon.
wad a coincidence.
LOL.

nth much happened today i guess.
but i still had fun with them.
YAY! to crapiness.

JOEL NG, i hope u had a great time with us.
and i hope u'll like the big wonka bar i gave u.
LOL.
=)
i love u pal!
<3

JENSEN, i'm so glad to have met you!
we should hang out sometime.
<3

so i did go to cuscaden for joel's bday celebration.
it was fun.
i had alcohol.
but not that much.
u know i don't drink a lot.
loads of smokes.
and i freakin smell like ciggies now.
but... i'll freshen up. LOL.

oh.. i also bought candy and chocolates.
i bought loads of wonka candy.
a big wonka chocolate bar.
2 mudsludge bar and 1 wonka caramel bar.
plus 2 wonka ropes.
YAY! haha =)
WONKA ROCKS!
thanx cheetong for accompanying me.

if u guys didn't realize, i don't think it rained on friday the 13th.
that's why i felt so glad.
and... nth bad happen to me on friday the 13th.

this entry is for the 12th.
so i did nothing much today.
i slept.
coz the weather allowed me to.
is so cold and it gives u a good reason to be under the blanky.
LOL.

i went for sushi today.
collected my ipod.
yay!
i've missed my ipod since the battery was changed and stuff.
finally is back with me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GERARD AND JOEL NG!
love u guys loads. <3

IELTS

so... i'm really happy.
my IELTS results is out.
I'VE GOT A 7.5
u know... that's quite good.
the highest point is 9 and the lowest is 1... i think.
well, usually ppl only score bout 5 point something or a 6.
I'VE GOT A 7.5
that, of course, makes me really happy.
YAY!
one results down. one more to go.
i'm worried.
wish me luck!
<3

so this entry is for JENSEN and my wonka mudsludge.
(see the pic of a wonka mudsludge in my previous entry)

JENSEN is my friend.
he's really nice.
JENSEN is hyper right now.
and ya, i'm talking to him on msn messeger.
JENSEN influenced me to go hyper with him.
JENSEN is a really nice fren.
JENSEN is really nice to talk to.
JENSEN says he can't decide if i'm nice or really nice.
JENSEN says i look gorgeous and cute.
JENSEN is such a sweet dude.
i <3 JENSEN my friend.
and there's more bout JENSEN...
loads more.
i'll have to discover it first.
LOL.

this is for my wonka mudsludge.
someone or anyone, get me a wonka mudsludge and i'll love u.
haha.
<3

this is something i'd like to share with everyone.
if you love chocolates or if u don't love chocolates.
(who doesn't love chocolates?)
try this wonka's mud sludge.
it taste good!!!
it comes in a bar of wonka hats and bite each hat one by one and u can actually see and taste the sludge centre.
is really good.
YUMM!
i know is a "sin-full" food.
but just give it a try.
your sin of eating this will be forgiven.
=)

this post is for the 9th of jan too.
even tho the date states the 10th.
well, here goes...
i stayed home the whole day today.
trying to freeze my ass off.
i feel like a pig.
i wanna go out.
i hate the weather.
why can't anyone give me sun?
i don't like rainy days.
it's been raining non-stop. is annoying.
BLAH!
please stop the rain. PLEASE!
I NEED SOME SUN!!!
I MISS THE SUN!
i wanna go to the beach.
i totally need to get sunburn and a tan as well.

i hope my dear friends are coming over to my place later.
chill with me.
then i will be staying home again.
it's gonna be a NO SCHOOL DAY tmr.
so, yeah.
hopefully we can have fun indoor.
at least for a rainy day.
=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BECCA!
hope u had a great time with us bestie.
i heart u loads.
<3

PONGSA left s'pore.
i'm gonna miss you dude.
i'm gonna miss your nonsense.
you'll come back. i know.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZING!
have a great day ahead!

btw, today i was kinda cranky.
blah.
i got woken up when i was having my nicest-cest-cest dream ever.
i dreamt of someone.
a dream that i wish was a reality.
I WISH!
i wish it so badly!

i also had another dream.
i dreamt that my sister, my cousins, some of my friends and i were superheroes.
LOL
i was superwoman.
how great right?! hahaha.

you still somehow pop into my mind.
can it ever stop?
i've to get over it.
one way or another.
sooner or later i guess.

dragonfly?

i wish it was that easy...
for you to walk out of my life.
but is not easy.

even if you would walk out eventually.
i will always remember you.
always.
i don't want you to walk out on me.
please don't.
i couldn't bear to let you do that.
and i won't.

i wish i could turn back time.
get to know u better.
but i know i can't.
i'm no superhero.

pardon me for my imperfection.
i know that you're not perfect too.
but it's your imperfection that makes you perfect.
thoughts of you will linger in my mind.

i just wanna let you know that...
if you need a friend and a shoulder to lean on,
i'll be there for you.
i'll be a call away.
<3
i adore you.

pretty rad words for a song, don't you think?!
well... to everyone reading this, these words are originally MINE!
it'll be my song. i guess.

well... this entry is for the 5th of JAN.
LAST DAY OF XMAS!
the last MERRY CHRISTMAS wish to everyone!

i went to school today.
i was suppose to help my fren collect something.
passed a cd to val.
-- i hope u like the cd! enjoy it! HE'S JUST SIMPLY HOT!
-- HE'S MINE BTW. please don't take him away from me.
checked out the new campus.
i have to say that there seems to be more fresh air there.
i miss the school.
missed the atmosphere and stuff.
i did talk to some of the teachers and friends.

orientation camp.
one boy fell from the flying fox.
he kinda fell "plop" from the top.
kinda shocking.
the ambulance came.
paramedics and stuff.

ate at mc.d's
card and jon came along too.
they even popped by the school.
took a cab back home.

juz as i got home, i got a msg.
yeh... asking me where i was.
blah.
cheesecake eh tong?! haha =)
OK! LOL.
so i went out again and had cheesecake and coffee with cheetong.
i'm such a nice friend.
u better love me for it. =D
neway, thanx for the treat.
<3

met up with fardhan and ridzuan (his cousin).
they've juz finished work.
so.. yea.
kinda chill a while and stuff.
then i headed home.

quite a day i had today actually.
pretty interesting.

this is to my jungle boy...
i'll still love u, my friend.
<3
for last night, and for now and for always.

i still haven't think of a new year resolution.
well... blah.
i'll juz go with the flow and see where the flow will take me.
meahwhile, i'll also do watever that's right and not against anyone's will.
that should be alright, shouldn't it?!

neway, i was out with my cousins today.
met my sister, phyllis, nat and peiwen after their school ended.
and jon, card, joel, cone, josh.
hahaha =)
unexpectedly, i saw kaizi.
first day of being in junior college eh?!
then we took the bus.
with all my cousins.
nonensical. blah.

walked around in far east.
hahahaha. i picked out my shirt.
OLD MAN, U BETTER GET MY SHIRT FOR ME!
LOL.
THANX. =)

well, i'm really glad i saw you today.
<3

NEW YEAR WISHES!

i have to think of a new year resolution.
meanwhile, here are my new year wishes.

WISHES...
-get good grades for O LEVELS and IELTS.
-for all my friends to be happy. for with happiness everything falls into place.
-for my own happiness.
-for my beloved family and friends to be healthy always.
-for everything to go well when i leave for australia.
-for me to get accepted into the school in australia.
-to see more eye-candy. (ooh la la)
-to see more hot guys. (LOL)
-for my wishes to come true. =)
-to get more wishes. hahaha.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
well... i'm gonna start thanking ppl again.
and yes... THE GUYS.
u guys juz made my XMAS and NEW YEAR so fun.
is the best ever.!!!
I LOVE U GUYS not juz loads, GAZILLIONS.
<3

cheetong, alfred, bohan, weishen, jianbin, matthew, kaizi, kenneth, fardhan, ridzuan (fardhan's cousin)
we shall hang out together again k?!
LOL.

my beloved sister jesslyn, phyllis dearest, starfire, jon sweetie, josh, douglas sweetie pie.
we shall meet up really soon. haha =)
like we always do.

my XMAS and NEW YEAR would be really different it it weren't for u guys.
it would be a big sad disaster spending XMAS and NEW YEAR without my beloved frens.

THANX FOR ALL THE NEW YEAR HUGS AND KISSES.
muacks. muacks. muacks.
<3

TO MY GURLFRENS...
PLEASE MEET UP SOON ALRIGHT?!!!!
I MISS U GURLS. LOADS.

to everyone out there reading this,
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
have a great year ahead.

this is PHYLLIS.
she told me to blog bout her so this is for her.
she's my DEAREST.
she's a gr8 friend.
she's adorable.
she's cute.
she bitches bout stuff with me.
she goes high together with me.
she spends time with me.
she cheers me up when i'm down.
she tells me about interesting events.
she brings me to watch them.
she loves to hang out with me.
and I <3 HER.
DON'T TRY TO MESS WITH HER, I'LL COME HAUNTING YOU!

a different kind of pizza night ; new year wish.

PIZZA NIGHT!
well, is kinda different from all the pizza night i have.
usually is juz family and stuff.
today my dearest STARFIRE joined my sister and i.
YAY!

sorry phyllis dearest and jon sweetie.
we'll have pizza night next time together k?!
=)
love love. <3

NEW YEAR'S DAY IS COMING!
i hope that 2006 will be a good year for everyone.

I WANT THAT NEW YEAR KISS.
<3
LOL.

WAHHH!!!!
GERARD SCARED THE HELL OUTTA ME.
U OWE ME! BIG TIME!
LOL. hahahaha =D

You come over unannounced
Silence broken by your voice in the dark
I need you here, tonight
Just like the ocean needs the waves

hahaha =)
went out again today.
FUN. haha. YA!
throwing fries, playing with the mayo and chilli sauce.
ewwww...
i think the burger king staff gonna feel disgusted.
DUH!

starfire loves my bag.
yes... my bag that looks like a punching bag.
but is cute and is nice to use.
that's why i bought it wad?!!

chilled.
ate a strawberry lollipop.
ooh lala...
u all got strawberry kisses from me.
SWEET!

sighs.
it seems that i haven't talk to u in ages.
blah.
let's meet up soon. =)
<3

BOXING DAY is over but XMAS is not.
XMAS last for 12 days.
YAY!

why does santa spend only a night sending gifts to children all over the world when he can spread his time for 11 nights?!
his reindeer sleigh is MAGICAL!
hahaha =)

can anyone name me all santa's reindeer?

neway, levin called early this morning. BLAH.
u and ur nonsense ya lev?!
go coffee club and make trouble.
and when i said let's meet up soon, i didn't expect it to be so soon.
LOL.
neway, i had a good time.
eh... i still want a next time k?!!

met up with jess, dearest, starfire, JON and jasmine.
NYDC! OLD CHANG KEE!
ey DEAREST, maybe u're too cute. that's why got called NAUGHTY BABY!
the aunty is WEIRD.
even tho she thought u were 12 or 13, that's not an age for BABY!
BLAH. NONSENSE.

went to bishan, met joel, josh and sling.
cone and doug came later.
love this bunch. PLENTY.
i love all the crap and stuff that u guys share.
my life would be so different if i didn't meet u guys.
all the jokes and crap.
hahaha =)
love. <3

i had a great time last night.
X'MAS with frens is juz GREAT!
thank the guys for that.
you guys know who you are.
to my frens i met.
X'MAS couldn't be funner without u guys.
I LOVE U GUYS TO BITS.
<3

tong, new year eh? LOL

MERRY XMAS!

make my wish come true.
coz all i want for christmas is YOU.

i want you to know that...
i miss you, i miss you so.

I'M BACK!

hey peeps...
YAY! i'm back in spore.
i'm posting from the airport.
MERRY X'MAS!
love love love and gazillion more love!
happy holidays.

xoxo

update. finally.

urgh!!!
i hate it when there's a problem with my damn computer.
BLAH!
and right now i'm somewhere using a super-duper slow connection system which takes ages to load a page.
UGH!
hurry get fixed please, compy...
=(

just a few more days then i'll be back in spore.
YAY!

the WEAVERS didn't win the amazing race.
boo hoo hoo. =(

i'm stressing.
i've got a test this saturday.
i need help with my writing test.
ARGH!
i thought it was gonna be easy but is not as easy as i expected it would be.
BLAH!
WISH ME LUCK!

nightmare or sweet dreams?

oh... before i forgot.
i dreamt about JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE the other night.
JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE?!
of all people.
i dunno why him either.
hahahaha =)
WEIRD.

why not JESSE MCCARTNEY?
ooh... i juz have a weakness for that guy.
*DROOLS.
JESSE MCCARTNEY!
ooh la la.
LOL.
sweetness and hotness.

JON LOVES ME.

i've got sad news and pleasant news to deliver today.
let's start with the sad news.
sad news...
im leaving spore next year.
and i dunno when i'll be back again.
my student pass expires on 30 april 2006.
that means i've to leave spore by then.
=(
and i'll miss everyone!

good news...
"[Jon.] in the dark, they say angels don't kill J.I.M.P. 12 more days says:
i love u oreo"
JON LOVES ME!
LOL.
thanx for making me feel better.
love love love to JON!
<3
hahaha =)

YAY!!!
i went shopping!
yes, i shopped for xmas gifts.
hear that?!!!
I SHOPPED FOR XMAS GIFTS!!!
haha =)
i really can't wait to be back in spore.
BE EXCITED PPL!

JON.

so... this post is bout JON.
well, a few things to know bout JON.
JON is MY SWEET DUDE.
i'm JON's sweetie.
i mean how can i be someone's SWEETIE and the person is totally calling me BAD?
weird right?

neway, JON is really lovable.
so... love love love gazillions to JON.

<3

YAY!
i shopped again today.
this time i was hanging out with my frens.
yesh, wira, yohan, edbert and meilisa.
and also my sister.
i had fun!
lunch then shopping then movies then more shopping then dinner and finally, home.
thanx for the fun guys!
we should do it again.
oh ya... ICE CREAM!
LOL.

I MISS EVERYONE!
I MISS YOU.! yea, YOU!
i miss becca, lampy, michelle, starfire, dearest, jon, kaizi, cheetong, doug, josh, cone, joel... there's just so many ppl.
i can't probably list all.
it'll probably fill up everything.
well, I LOVE YOU GUYS.
I REALLY DO!
<3

MISS ME TOO?
PLEASE SAY YOU DO.
=)

JON.

YAY!
JON IS MY SWEET DUDE.
MINE.
love love JON. <3
xoxo

i dunno why but somehow, i feel neglected by my friends.
why am i feeling this way?!!
maybe coz i miss my frens too much.
=(
i wish i was back in singapore.

well, the only thing i can think of to console myself is...
the fact that i'll be back for xmas.
and i'm gonna have fun with them again.

i'll have fun with u guys again right?!!
please say YES to that.

i miss u guys so much. =(
<3

say goodbye to the perfect guy.
love doesn't come by easily.
and is not a sensible thing to say forget love.
contradicting isn't it?
i don't like it when i have to question myself like this.
but the questions just pop out in my head.
how am i to avoid that?

let's just leave without goodbyes.
so goodbyes wouldn't have hurt that much.
but is so long and goodbye.
we might just meet again.
maybe then i'll be perfect for the perfect guy.

TO JON.
THANX SO MUCH FOR BEING THERE.
LOVE LOVE LOVE A GAZILLION.
AND THANX A GAZILLION.
<3

BRAIN DEAD.

BRAIN
DEAD.

SERIOUSLY.
i juz hope a whole would open up in front of me.
then i can juz jump in and disappear.
and maybe no one will know i existed.

last night i quarelled with my parents. mom mostly.
and the thing i don't get is.
she seems to not trust me.
no one does. CRAP!

MOM.
so wad if other ppl are telling you i'm doing this and that.
so wad if i'm hanging out with guy friends?!
they're juz my frens.
FYI, i also do hang out with my gurlfrens.
DUH!
and my frens are NOT bad people.
so stop thinking that i'm with bad company.
I'M NOT!
i've got enough common sense alright?!
UGH! GET OFF MY BACK FOR ONCE!

DAD.
trying to understand wad u're saying is like trying to understand GREEK.
maybe i can even understand greek better after i've learn it.
you gotta start speaking properly.
or no one in the world will understand.
DUH!
and if u don't get anything that i was saying to mom.
don't say anything.
coz i don't wanna repeat whatever i said to you.

i'm pissed and am still pissed bout stuff.
i dunno how you all are gonna think if everything would be ok after a few days.
the truth is... i don't have such bad memory.
i'll still remember.
so, if u want me to think that everything is gonna be back to normal.
give me a few days or even a week or weeks.

and last night i was really thinking of how things would be like if i disappeared.
wad if i'm DEAD somewhere at the other end of the universe?!
would anyone in the world know?!

as far as i can remember, i've never been this pissed at people for a really really really long time.
how i wish i could be back in spore right now.
sighs.
I FREAKIN MISS MY FRENS!

YAY!
i went shopping today!
FINALLY.
haha =))
i spent like loads of money tho.
so... i might not be shopping for some time maybe.
save money.
and to get more money? maybe?
LOL.

let's just face the fact that everyone in the world change.
be it the old, young, fat, thin, ugly and pretty.
everyone change.
but why do i realize that most of the change are negative?
when will there be a positive change in everybody?
WAD'S WRONG WITH THIS WORLD?!

as SIMPLE PLAN sang...
IS EVERYBODY GOING CRAZY?!
i bet. duh.

i woke up in the afternoon.
i watch the news.
i hear all the innocent ppl being killed. murdered. tortured. raped.
wad else can be happening?!
it's sad to know that these hideous stuff are going on in your everyday life.
are we even the least affected by it?
well, it did affect me. indeed.
is sick to think that ppl die everyday for the STUPIDEST reasons ever.
wad is it with drug-trafficers?
wad is it with rapist?
wad is it with murderers?
don't they realize that they are harming their own species.?!!
we are all HUMANS for goodness sake!

neway, this is to you. ex-bf
when will you ever realize that you're not yourself anymore?
the old you have been hidden and cast away.
when will you bring it back?
maybe NEVER. coz the good past does not come back easily.
wad ever happen to the oh-so nice person that i once knew?
WHERE ARE YOU?!
next time i should just say... HI, STRANGER.
you took me for granted.
what an ASS!
you night think that you're all so great.
REALITY CHECK : YOU'RE SO NOT!
you think i'm gonna cry over this?!
SO NOT TRUE.
in this case, i just won my title of being the HEART-BREAKER.
and i'm so glad i did.

i'm missing LOADS of ppl.
i know i've been saying this for the past few entrties.
I CAN'T HELP IT.
COZ THE FACT IS I MISS A HELL LOAD OF PPL.
I MISS YOU!<3

neway, sorry to rub this in when everyone's enjoying themselves.
i can't help it too but i'm already getting worried for my O LEVEL's results.
i'm wondering how i'll do and stuff like that.
the thought juz pops out every now and then.
i can't help it but is like that.
is kinda irritating.
but... I REALLY CAN'T HELP IT!
UGH!

k... out of that subject.
i'm going shopping later.
FINALLY... my first shopping trip ever since i got back.
AHHHH!
my aunt's telling me that there's loads of new stuff and all.
i so can't wait to check out everything i can.
haha =)
got cash from my mom.
whoo-hoo.
the malls better watch out for me.
coz i'm coming.
YEAH!

first entry from jkt.
sighs.
i'm already missing LOADS of ppl.
i didn't have my internet yesterday.
but thanx to cable tv.
i didn't DIE.
LOL.
i wanna go shopping. like real bad.
i haven't visit the mall here for ages.
there's gonna be tons of new stuff waiting for me to discover them.
haha =)
u'll be in my thoughts.
not to worry.
<3

i'm going back to jkt tmr.
sighs.
miss me?! haha =)
i'm gonna miss a hell loads of ppl.
everyone seems to be leaving.
NAT's gone off to camp.
my dearest LIZZ is going to malaysia.
and my sis and i are going back to jkt.
well... we'll be back soon tho.
gonna update from back there.
this is gonna be my last entry from spore.

chinablack.

the time now is 01:18 am.
at this time yesterday, i was in CHINABLACK.
non-smoking and non-alcohol.
cool party neway.
thanx for asking me along guys.
kaizi, cheetong, kahkiat, lester, daniel, junhan.
thanx for a great time.
LOVE YOU GUYS. <3 <3 **muacks.
i had a great time dancing. LOL.

GRADUATION NITE!

yesterday was sooo much FUN!

the PRE-PROM.
the make-up. the hair. the manicure. the pedicure.
the dress. the suits.

the PROM.
photo taking. the FUN and LAUGHTER.
the most unbelievable thing ever : winning the MOST ELEGANT WHITLEYAN contest.
hahahahahaha. =))

the POST PROM.
roaming about in ORCHARD.
meeting the guys. and there were 4 of us.
(me, becca, lampy and chelle)
wasted money on cab fare going to CLARKE QUAY thinking that we could find FOOD there.
still ended up back at ORCHARD. with the guys.
3 MONKEYS CAFE. ORCHARD TOWERS. quite a freaky place i'd say.
luckily there's so many guys around. (BODYGUARDS huh?! ... LOL)
something really funny happened. haha. (BADRI, u were the spotlight ... LOL)
then everyone went their separate ways and it was OVER.
JUZ LIKE THAT.
not for me and the gurls tho.
went to the ESPLANADE. wanted to watch the sunrise but stayed indoor instead.
LOL.
by the time we came out, the sun was already out as well.
took a bus back to my place.
got cleaned up.
and sleep. for like 3 hours?! i think.
then went out again.
watched HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE.
my second time watching.
then everyone went home.
then the day, is FINALLY OVER.

parting is such sweet sorrow.
i really think so.
sad to leave. but the thoughts of the ppl make us happy.
SIGHS.
i can't help but sigh.

the night was such a BLAST!
i wanna thank everyone that kept me company.
the BOYS. and most definitely my GIRLFRIENDS. =)
I LOVE YOU GUYS LOADSSS. <3
i didn't know that watching soccer with the GUYS was SO MUCH FUN!
haha. LOL.

so much to say...
but feelings can't be put down in words this way.
is INDESCRIBABLE.
coz is so INCREDIBLE.

it'll be a night i'll never forget.
i'm gonna freakin miss EVERYONE!
sighs.
still... hugs and kisses from me. XOXO
and loads and loads of LOVE from ME.
much much much love.

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

you're my eye-candy.
i can't stop stealing glances at YOU. =)
<3

PROM.

YEAH!
and the O LEVEL examinations are finally OVER.
is OFFICIALLY OVER for me.
YAY!
the day of the GRADUATION NITE.
pretty excited.
whoohoo. PARTY!
yeah. =))
ooh boy am i glad?!

ONE more paper to go. ONE bloody paper.
ARGH!
counting down to the days of total freedom as i've already considered myself as a free soul. LOL. the exams are ALMOST over.
and ALMOST is still the word.

i already started shopping again on thursday.
and shopped on friday.
gonna shop on saturday and sunday and monday and tuesday.
WEDNESDAY is GRADUATION NITE.
i'm so gonna f**king miss everyone after that.

still in the midst of O LEVEL.

sighs.

i'm taking my combined humanities history paper tmr. usually the night before any humanities paper, i don't get enough sleep. and i don't get to sleep after i finish the paper. coz i basically finish it juz in time before the chief examiner says STOP WRITING. and by the time i finish the paper and even in the midst of doing the paper, among all the stress trying to remember the important points to write down, my fingers get crams. thanx to all the writing. is pretty sad u know.

i should be lucky that i had enough time to finish my social studies paper. actually, i agree to wad my fren said. foreigners should be exempted from taking social studies. haha =) i know.

neway, the exams are almost over. ALMOST is the word. i'll be quite free by this weekend. and the last paper is on the 22nd of november. and the next day is... GRADUATION NITE. i can't wait for the 23rd. haha =))
i'm sure gonna miss everyone!
i mean... EVERYONE!

and with the school demolished, i'm gonna miss the school. REAL BAD.
sighs.
i still remember when i hated the first week of school in sec 1. haha =)
WHAT AN ASS RIGHT?!
LOL.
now is ironic that i'll miss the school so much.
i'll miss my BELOVED friends MOST.
i dunno wad i'll do without them. SERIOUSLY.

ooh... this is a really long entry i guess.
i better get going.
i gotta study.
i've gotta hang on to the pressure for juz a while more.
i'm sure i'll be going CRAZY after the 23rd. hahaha =)
or... i might juz start this weekend and sober down on the 21st to study a lil bit more. haha =)
still... WISH ME LUCK!
<3

O LEVELS

wheeeeeeeeeee.
7 down and 4 to go.
I KNOW I CAN GET THROUGH IT.
all the paper one paper two and blah blah blah.
RESISTANCE and PERSISTANCE.
COME ON ALL.
we'll be FREE in no time.
TIME FLIES.

Josh?

somehow i find you kinda irresistable.
aren't u tired of running through my mind... like... everytime?

STARFIRE is leaving for CHINA.

i'm so gonna FREAKIN miss STARFIRE.
she's going to CHINA!
i know you'll survive my dear.
DON'T WORRY.
HAWK GIRL will fly there and make sure u survive. LOL.

lizards .

this entry is dedicated to natasha, my dear starfire. LOL
since she asked me to blog about LIZARDS, here goes...
i think LIZARDS are gross creatures. i totally don't like them. ppl might think that LIZARDS are cool. but they're so NOT! EWWWWW..... imagine how they drop their FUGLY tails when you catch them. YUCK! they wanna escape from your evil clutch. haha. well... since GECKO and LIZARDS are in the same family, i should juz throw in a couple of lines bout them. GECKOS are pretty gross too. and they do drop their FUGLY tails too. YUCKY YUCK! *pukes*

WEIRD !

you know how weird it is?!
do u have any idea?
neway, it was HALLOWEEN yesterday. and today is DEEPAVALI, also known as the 'festival of light'.
see the big difference.
in case no one noticed the difference.
it was so DARK yesterday. and BRIGHT today.
well well... time for a change ain't it?!

HALLOWEEN!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!
the day when all the ghosts and ghouls unite.
but there's nothing to fear.
TRICK-OR-TREAT.

OMG!
there's like so many things i've not done.
i haven't made dental appointment.
i haven't settle my prom dress and stuff.
i haven't been really studying these days.
UGH! UGH! UGH!
is kinda getting in my nerves.
THESE THINGS!

i'm outta here...

ooh... i didn't realize that i've not blogged at all.
TILL NOW!
ARGH... CRAP.
neway, here goes.
I GOTTA MUG. I REALLY HAVE TO.
"what the hell are u doing ODEL?!"
"START MUGGING, YOU FOOL!"
UGH!
i don't like this voice ringing in my head.
caused by my own pain.
UGH!

i'm outta here...

IS ALL U ISN'T IT?!

i so freaking DISLIKE you right now.
i don't use the word HATE.

there... is in BLACK and WHITE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

it's been a good day.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

i would wanna thank everyone who made my made with YOUR messages and wishes. be it thru phone, messenger or watever. THANK YOU!
I LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS.
thanx for remembering. =)

to JOSH : thank you so much for spending the night away with me. and jess and pong. i really really really really really like the glass rose. I LOVE IT. thanx. much love. <3

to PONGSA : thanx for spending the night away with me bro! much love. <3 haha =P

to JOACHIM : thanx for being the person who wished me the most number of HAPPY BIRTHDAY in a day! much love. <3

to my beloved sister JESSLYN : thank you for spending the night away with me. much love. <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! =)

YAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
LOL.
=D

i dunno wad to say.
i'm confused.
i'm blurr-ed.
i dunno wad's on my mind.
i'm day-dreaming a lot.
i'm stressed?

I'm writing again
These letters to you
Aren't much I know
But I'm not sleeping and 
You're not here
The thought stops my heart
                                            -FINCH-

i'm feeling a bit emo right now mebe.
i don't know why.

neway, check out the song.
the acoustic version is GREAT.

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
I'm in your heart tonight
                                                  -amber pacific-

meaning-full lyrics. check it out.

You know you did it
I'm gone 
To find someone to live for in this world 
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight 
Just a bridge that I gotta burn 
You are wrong 
If you think you can walk right through my door 
That is just so you 
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone
                                                -kelly clarkson-

this song is a must listen. is good.

emo emo emo.
hyper hyper hyper.
sometimes i feel emo. sometimes i feel high.
CRAPP! LOL.

well... prelim is finally over.
and yea, O LEVEL is coming.
the dates are drawing near.
you know what that means?!!!
WE'VE GOTTA STUDY OUR ASS OFF!
MUG MUG MUG!
UGH! =|

it's been fun hanging out with the SKATERS!
I LOVE YOU ALL!
thanx for being there for me. =)
in times of emo and hyper-ness.

to jungle boy : sorry i called crying to u.
i know it's kinda silly. but THANX!

to jo-beng : we will go emo and hyper together.! you BLOODY KAO!

to douglas : thanx for making laugh.

to the rest : thanx for everything! u guys bring loads of laughter.
I LOVE YOU GUYS!

i'm outta here...

wee!!! i've been having loads of fun.

josh and i.


jun and i.


josh and i.


i and jairus.


josh and i.

@ joachim's place.

i'm blogging from joachim's place.
hahahahaha =P
his place is such a nice chill out place.
great.!

it's really nice hanging out with u all.
i juz simply LOVE u guys.
LALA COVE ROCKS!.

as we say...
IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT, THEN GO LALA!

i'm outta here...

you've dampened my mood.
for a moment.
lucky me... i get over things fast.

auditions went fine today. singing and acting.
another one tmr. dancing. today i mean.
i dunno if i'll get picked.
well.. is a matter of having fun.

i'm outta here...

unproductive week. DAMN!
feel like juz playing the whole week.
THIS IS BAD! EFFING BAD!

studied?! of coz i did.
i can't seem to get any social studies shit into my head.
math... quite alright i guess.
at least i did some papers.

i've got an audition on saturday.
that's today right?
and ya... it was supposed to be on thursday.
but the director couldn't make it.

went for BBQ. for both days at the chalet at downtown east.
costa sands resort.
THANX FOR THE GOOD TIME!
I LOVE U GUYS. <3
*MUACKS.
i made new frens. YAY! hahaha =P
ok... i'm getting hyper.

i'm outta here...

ANIC gathering.

yesterday's party was great.
definitely had a good time.
the place was well-furnished. nice and all. and is got a great view too.
levin, qaiser, elsa and jinwei...i had a good time singing out loud at the corridor.
i must say we deifnitely look crazy. hahahaha =P
and sound crazy too.

the card players... i had a good time playing with u guys.
yea, timothy, levin, jinwei, qaiser, elsa.
i think that was quite a long UNO session. haha =P

the ghost story session.
sent chills down my spine.
i never thot of things this way. but as i hear the ppl tell their story, my mind wanders.
and i was kinda freaked out. *lolz*
but i'm alright.

jinwei... thanx for the ride home. =D

i'm outta here...

I MISS YOU

i can sense ur absence.
it's everywhere.
the best star-gazing companion.

i'm outta here...

post performance blues...
THE RETROS ROCK!
i love you guys.

i'm outta here...

THE RETROS!

THE RETROS ROCK!
thanx u guys so much.
it's been great! <3
michelle . karen . sulinah . hidayah . tziwei . valenisha .
fardhan . levin . luthfi . umar . badri . qaiser . tuckwah .

especially thank rebecca oh, jinling, peixian, shelly, geraldine, meiding.
all those who helped out.
you help was greatly appreciated. =)

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!

i'm outta here...

EXAM STRESS!

exams stress is getting in my way!
CRAPP!

Oi! Sleeping Beauty.
to audition or not to audition?!
that is the question.

i'm outta here...

finally, i've watched CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY!

i'm outta here...

it's been some time since i last blogged.
hahaha =P
first... i still wanna say A NATION IN CONCERT was great.
getting to perform at the esplanade was indeed an experience not to be missed.
enjoyed hanging out with the professionals.
UNCLE TONY, thanx for the lessons. =D

watched dim sum dollies. funny.

had BBQ with the musical cast and crew on saturday. yesterday actually.
things went quite smoothly. besides LEVIN having stress.
i was glad that the sick ELSA could make it. and even GERMAINE too.
can see how devoted u guys are. touching. haha =P
to PATRICIA, AICHIN and ZAREEN, thanx for sponsoring.
gladly appreciate it.

teachers' day auditions.
WE MADE THE CUT!
even tho the player bailed on us and jumped the cd.
CRAP! haha =P
neway, WE MADE IT GUYS!
practice hard aight?!

'O' level english oral exam.
it went quite good i would say.
the examiner commented "very good".
but i dunno wad marks i'll get tho.
let's juz wish for the best.

i'm outta here...

A NATION IN CONCERT.

hey peeps... i'm gonna be performing in a show.
A NATION IN CONCERT.
is gonna be at THE ESPLANADE theaters.
on the 13th of august. saturday.
in the afternoon at 3 pm and in the evening at 7.30 pm.
it's an interesting show indeed.
i'm gonna act along side a few mediacorp artiste as well as some disabled people from the different societies. is a charity show. and let me tell u, these people are really talented. i'm impressed by them. REALLY.
some of the cast from the musical will be performing too. not juz me.
i hope y'all can come and support us.

u can get ur tix at sistic outlets nationwide.
for the seatings, you can go to www.sistic.com.sg to check it out.
to know more bout the show, visit www.anationinconcert.com.

in the mean time... i gotta run.
i'm gonna have rehearsals later on.
since is already past 1 am! ciao.
do come and support us.!

i'm outta here...

sadly atiqah has to leave...

so much for all the fun...
atiqah has to leave us and join the other modern dancers.
well... i hope you had fun with us.
even tho it's only for a while.
and i hope u'll have fun with the other dancers too.
=P ROCK ON GURL!

neway, u guys shud check out the way she moves.
real good. she definitely can dance.

oh... i went to watch fireworks today. actually on the 8th.
at the esplanade. well.. it was a countdown.
good stuff. i've always liked fireworks.
it's juz brilliant. and it gives me goosebumps.
good goosebumps.
thanx to those guys i met up with.
you guys know hu u are. hahaha =P
alfred, cheetong, kaizi, lester, emmeline, tianhee and the list goes on.
TONG, thanx for the flower.
the orchid definitely add a lil something more to my hair. *lolz*

and i went to watch fireworks again today with the gurls.
since is national day.
the gurls came over to me place.
karen, dayah and lampy.
we were suppose to practice our dance then study...
but... we didn't study. hahaha =P
as expected.
well... fireworks was even more brilliant than yesterdays.
it gave me more goosebumps.
and we had these black carbon burnt thingy on ourselves.
not juz us but everyone there...
haha =P
happy national day everyone!
happy 40th birthday singapore!

i'm outta here...

SWAY under the ORANGE COLOURED SKY...

can't expect in a blink.
suddenly i'm doing a dance with these "wacko" people.
sue, chelle lee, karen, lampy, dayah, val, atiqah.
thanx for the fun GURLS!
and of coz the GUYS as well...
the best and most perfect dance partner (according to himself)
FARDHAN SHAH!. hahahaha =P
and the others, levin, luthfi, tuck wah, badri, umar, qaiser.
thanx for the fun too!
I LOVE U ALL LOADS!
i hope we'll have more fun during practices.
i think the dance is looking good so far. seeing everybody doing the moves in the right time. it just looks "magical". and everyone seems to have a lil more chemistry and stuff like that with their partner. NOT BAD! guys, u are doing great too. not just the gurls with the sexy-ness. but the guys are cool as well. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK EVERYONE!

and to FARDHAN SHAH... please don't try to be missing during practice. is kinda hard to dance without a partner coz i look like a dummy dancing alone. OKAY?! hahaha =P and besides, we'll have to teach u the steps u missed out. BLAHX.

to everyone else... i'm looking forward to next practice. =D

i'm outta here...

rehearsals for the musical kept me busy.
really busy.
and now it's time for me to devote my time back to studies.
it's only been hours since the last of the last show we did ended.
i'm already missing everything.
every single e-mail sent to me.
i'll be on the verge of crying as i read.
these teardrops are a mixture of sadness and also hapiness.

i'm really thankful to be given the chance to be part of this musical. it never occured to me that i would get chosen to be one of the main cast. it has definitely been an honour to be picked. it's also a really great experience working with everyone. be it the students whom i'll still see in skool and the alumnis. it was nice meeting you all. and we definitely grew closer in this production. i hope we'll all keep in touch.

i wanna thank all the people that have been thru this together with me. i'll always remember these days. it is indeed a GOLDEN MEMORY!. the musical is something that i'm doing for the first time and i have enjoyed it. i hope it's not gonna be the last time i'm gonna do it. thanx to jonathan and wenfu... loads of thanx!!! u guys helped me find more confidence in myself. be it on stage or not. thanx to kiat and greg for all the encouragement. thanx for all the fun, eating together or watever. we should do it again.

the bottom line is...
THANX EVERYONE FOR THE WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE!
LOVE U LOADS!

i'm outta here...

woah... haven't blog in quite a while.
mebe some ppl are wondering wassup with me and stuff.
MAYBE...

neway, i've been busy staying back in skool for rehearsals and stuff.
we cleaned the backstage toilets.
well... we referring to the cast members. not all but a few.
these hard-working souls who wanna make the backstage as comfortable as possible but is not really achieved yet... coz is shared by so many ppl.
BLAHX!

neway, one thing on my mind. i really can't wait to hear the cd that we've recorded. coz i really wanna hear how i sound like. nice or not nice?! i dunno. i really wanna hear it. hahahaha =P

oh... another thing, rehearsals... a run of the whole show actually is quite tiring. i skipped skool on friday. and even if i didn't, i don't think i'd be able to open my eyes at all. and i also found out that on friday, i didnt even budge at 6 am or anything. i dreamt bout skool tho. is kinda disturbing. kinda dumb coz i'm not in skool but skool stuff appeared in my dream. how contracdicting. DUMB! i woke up at 12:45 pm. that's like the time that skool end on a friday. actually still laze about on my bed till almost 13:00 pm. is juz tiring. but FUN... of coz. loads of comments from the directors and stage managers. but... i'm sure is all worth a listen. not juz listen but heed the advice given. I THINK ALL OF THE CAST SHOULD TAKE THIS THING REALLY SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!! we don't wanna make a fool out of ourselves. we wanna put up a good show. so... juz listen. that's also the reason why GOD gave up 2 ears and only 1 mouth. RIGHT?! so... CAST, START USING THE EARS. learn something new... and keep learning. and we still can learn even after the show is over.

FOR NOW, ADD OIL AND DO A GOOD JOB! I'M SURE WE'LL BE ABLE TO!
JIA YOU!

i'm outta here...

baybeats was great.
i had a good time.
brandtson was good.
so was copeland.
electrico as well.
oh.. guess who i saw...
SAM FROM PJ (pug jelly)
but, i didn't say anything to him.
hahahaha =P
gtg now.

i'm outta here...

to all the musical cast. words from my heart.

is me... and i'm still in skool.
i know... u might be thinking why i'm still in skool at this hour. i'm still doing recording. is the last day today. and we had loads of fun. of coz...

LEVIN... ma husband. hahaha =P
may our loud noises be heard. haha =P
TO ALL THE CAST OF THE MUSICAL...
MAY OUR VOICES BE HEARD!
*lolz*
keep it up guys.
it's gr8 work and hard work too.
keep woking hard for the show.
jia you... add oil. and keep it going!!!
I LOVE U GUYS.
i mean it... each and everyone of u.
*muacks.

i'm outta here...

heya!!!
guess where am i?!
i bet no one can. not unless you know. haha =P
I'M IN SKOOL! can u believe that?
by the way, is a SUNDAY!
and is so unbelievable that i'm in skool on a sunday.
so that means that i'm in skool for 7 days already.
*lolz* CRAPP!
well, not sunday skool. but i'm in WHITLEY SECONDARY SCHOOL.
i've got a recording to do. and so far is doing alright.
it's kinda pressurising actually. but is kinda okay. not bad.
i guess i'll still live through the day.
HAHAHAHAHAHA. =P
i'm taking a break. ciao.

i'm outta here...

5 MORE DAYS TO GOOD CHARLOTTE NOISE TO THE WORLD TOUR.

i'm psyched.

keeping my fingers crossed to get meet and greet passes.
those reading this please pray for me.
THANX.

12 07 2005... here i come.

i'm outta here...

still J.P

suddenly, i miss him.
CRAPP! i hate it when that happens.
the feeling is all over me.
i need something to make me laugh.

mebe SOUTH PARK would.

man... wad the hell is wrong with me?!

i'm outta here...

J.P

a sudden overwhelming feeling.

i think i miss you.

it'll be gone with time.

summer fun. summer fantasy.
summer guy. summer crush.
SUMMER LOVE.

i'm outta here...

hey everyone! i'm back!
haha =P
missed me?!

HEY PEEPS!!!
surprised to hear from me so soon?
hahaha =P
i'm in vancouver right now.
blogging from a cyber cafe across the street near the hotel i'm staying in.
it's only been a while and i'm missing so many ppl already.
well... if u wanna know.
everything is ok so far.
and the fun is yet to come.
so... really looking forward to the FUN.
is cold here in vancouver.
kinda freezing my ass off.
oh... not forgetting.
I'M OF COZ SUFFERING FROM JET LAG!

i'm outta here...

[vancouver time]

i'm leaving on saturday.
VANCOUVER and ALASKA, here i come!

my aim for this trip:-
enjoy myself even tho i still have to study.

biggest accomplishment (i hope):-
to study at least something everyday.
focus and not get distracted while cramming.

thots my my mind right now...
wad kind of ppl will i see there?
how are they like?
will i make any frens?
i hope i will make new fren.

girly flirty thots... haha =P
will there be handsome guys?
blonde? brunette?
any will do. hahaha =P

ey, i still need eye candy u know.
something good for my eye. at least.
*lolz*

i know u guys are gonna miss me.
i'm not gonna be blogging for the next 3 weeks.
i'm even gonna miss 3 days of skool.
i'm gonna miss the musical cast.
i'm gonna miss my frens.
and that includes u. (who is reading this)

the most important question:-
ARE U GUYS GONNA MISS ME?!
hahahaha =P

i'm outta here...

it's over. i'm alright. (refer to last post)

and my beloved mommy and daddy juz arrived.
yay! is gonna be good.
at least i hope.
shopping? haha =P
surely.

i'm outta here...