let's just face the fact that everyone in the world change.
be it the old, young, fat, thin, ugly and pretty.
everyone change.
but why do i realize that most of the change are negative?
when will there be a positive change in everybody?
WAD'S WRONG WITH THIS WORLD?!

as SIMPLE PLAN sang...
IS EVERYBODY GOING CRAZY?!
i bet. duh.

i woke up in the afternoon.
i watch the news.
i hear all the innocent ppl being killed. murdered. tortured. raped.
wad else can be happening?!
it's sad to know that these hideous stuff are going on in your everyday life.
are we even the least affected by it?
well, it did affect me. indeed.
is sick to think that ppl die everyday for the STUPIDEST reasons ever.
wad is it with drug-trafficers?
wad is it with rapist?
wad is it with murderers?
don't they realize that they are harming their own species.?!!
we are all HUMANS for goodness sake!

neway, this is to you. ex-bf
when will you ever realize that you're not yourself anymore?
the old you have been hidden and cast away.
when will you bring it back?
maybe NEVER. coz the good past does not come back easily.
wad ever happen to the oh-so nice person that i once knew?
WHERE ARE YOU?!
next time i should just say... HI, STRANGER.
you took me for granted.
what an ASS!
you night think that you're all so great.
REALITY CHECK : YOU'RE SO NOT!
you think i'm gonna cry over this?!
SO NOT TRUE.
in this case, i just won my title of being the HEART-BREAKER.
and i'm so glad i did.

i'm missing LOADS of ppl.
i know i've been saying this for the past few entrties.
I CAN'T HELP IT.
COZ THE FACT IS I MISS A HELL LOAD OF PPL.
I MISS YOU!<3

neway, sorry to rub this in when everyone's enjoying themselves.
i can't help it too but i'm already getting worried for my O LEVEL's results.
i'm wondering how i'll do and stuff like that.
the thought juz pops out every now and then.
i can't help it but is like that.
is kinda irritating.
but... I REALLY CAN'T HELP IT!
UGH!

k... out of that subject.
i'm going shopping later.
FINALLY... my first shopping trip ever since i got back.
AHHHH!
my aunt's telling me that there's loads of new stuff and all.
i so can't wait to check out everything i can.
haha =)
got cash from my mom.
whoo-hoo.
the malls better watch out for me.
coz i'm coming.
YEAH!

first entry from jkt.
sighs.
i'm already missing LOADS of ppl.
i didn't have my internet yesterday.
but thanx to cable tv.
i didn't DIE.
LOL.
i wanna go shopping. like real bad.
i haven't visit the mall here for ages.
there's gonna be tons of new stuff waiting for me to discover them.
haha =)
u'll be in my thoughts.
not to worry.
<3

i'm going back to jkt tmr.
sighs.
miss me?! haha =)
i'm gonna miss a hell loads of ppl.
everyone seems to be leaving.
NAT's gone off to camp.
my dearest LIZZ is going to malaysia.
and my sis and i are going back to jkt.
well... we'll be back soon tho.
gonna update from back there.
this is gonna be my last entry from spore.

chinablack.

the time now is 01:18 am.
at this time yesterday, i was in CHINABLACK.
non-smoking and non-alcohol.
cool party neway.
thanx for asking me along guys.
kaizi, cheetong, kahkiat, lester, daniel, junhan.
thanx for a great time.
LOVE YOU GUYS. <3 <3 **muacks.
i had a great time dancing. LOL.

GRADUATION NITE!

yesterday was sooo much FUN!

the PRE-PROM.
the make-up. the hair. the manicure. the pedicure.
the dress. the suits.

the PROM.
photo taking. the FUN and LAUGHTER.
the most unbelievable thing ever : winning the MOST ELEGANT WHITLEYAN contest.
hahahahahaha. =))

the POST PROM.
roaming about in ORCHARD.
meeting the guys. and there were 4 of us.
(me, becca, lampy and chelle)
wasted money on cab fare going to CLARKE QUAY thinking that we could find FOOD there.
still ended up back at ORCHARD. with the guys.
3 MONKEYS CAFE. ORCHARD TOWERS. quite a freaky place i'd say.
luckily there's so many guys around. (BODYGUARDS huh?! ... LOL)
something really funny happened. haha. (BADRI, u were the spotlight ... LOL)
then everyone went their separate ways and it was OVER.
JUZ LIKE THAT.
not for me and the gurls tho.
went to the ESPLANADE. wanted to watch the sunrise but stayed indoor instead.
LOL.
by the time we came out, the sun was already out as well.
took a bus back to my place.
got cleaned up.
and sleep. for like 3 hours?! i think.
then went out again.
watched HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE.
my second time watching.
then everyone went home.
then the day, is FINALLY OVER.

parting is such sweet sorrow.
i really think so.
sad to leave. but the thoughts of the ppl make us happy.
SIGHS.
i can't help but sigh.

the night was such a BLAST!
i wanna thank everyone that kept me company.
the BOYS. and most definitely my GIRLFRIENDS. =)
I LOVE YOU GUYS LOADSSS. <3
i didn't know that watching soccer with the GUYS was SO MUCH FUN!
haha. LOL.

so much to say...
but feelings can't be put down in words this way.
is INDESCRIBABLE.
coz is so INCREDIBLE.

it'll be a night i'll never forget.
i'm gonna freakin miss EVERYONE!
sighs.
still... hugs and kisses from me. XOXO
and loads and loads of LOVE from ME.
much much much love.

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

you're my eye-candy.
i can't stop stealing glances at YOU. =)
<3

PROM.

YEAH!
and the O LEVEL examinations are finally OVER.
is OFFICIALLY OVER for me.
YAY!
the day of the GRADUATION NITE.
pretty excited.
whoohoo. PARTY!
yeah. =))
ooh boy am i glad?!

ONE more paper to go. ONE bloody paper.
ARGH!
counting down to the days of total freedom as i've already considered myself as a free soul. LOL. the exams are ALMOST over.
and ALMOST is still the word.

i already started shopping again on thursday.
and shopped on friday.
gonna shop on saturday and sunday and monday and tuesday.
WEDNESDAY is GRADUATION NITE.
i'm so gonna f**king miss everyone after that.

still in the midst of O LEVEL.

sighs.

i'm taking my combined humanities history paper tmr. usually the night before any humanities paper, i don't get enough sleep. and i don't get to sleep after i finish the paper. coz i basically finish it juz in time before the chief examiner says STOP WRITING. and by the time i finish the paper and even in the midst of doing the paper, among all the stress trying to remember the important points to write down, my fingers get crams. thanx to all the writing. is pretty sad u know.

i should be lucky that i had enough time to finish my social studies paper. actually, i agree to wad my fren said. foreigners should be exempted from taking social studies. haha =) i know.

neway, the exams are almost over. ALMOST is the word. i'll be quite free by this weekend. and the last paper is on the 22nd of november. and the next day is... GRADUATION NITE. i can't wait for the 23rd. haha =))
i'm sure gonna miss everyone!
i mean... EVERYONE!

and with the school demolished, i'm gonna miss the school. REAL BAD.
sighs.
i still remember when i hated the first week of school in sec 1. haha =)
WHAT AN ASS RIGHT?!
LOL.
now is ironic that i'll miss the school so much.
i'll miss my BELOVED friends MOST.
i dunno wad i'll do without them. SERIOUSLY.

ooh... this is a really long entry i guess.
i better get going.
i gotta study.
i've gotta hang on to the pressure for juz a while more.
i'm sure i'll be going CRAZY after the 23rd. hahaha =)
or... i might juz start this weekend and sober down on the 21st to study a lil bit more. haha =)
still... WISH ME LUCK!
<3

O LEVELS

wheeeeeeeeeee.
7 down and 4 to go.
I KNOW I CAN GET THROUGH IT.
all the paper one paper two and blah blah blah.
RESISTANCE and PERSISTANCE.
COME ON ALL.
we'll be FREE in no time.
TIME FLIES.

Josh?

somehow i find you kinda irresistable.
aren't u tired of running through my mind... like... everytime?

STARFIRE is leaving for CHINA.

i'm so gonna FREAKIN miss STARFIRE.
she's going to CHINA!
i know you'll survive my dear.
DON'T WORRY.
HAWK GIRL will fly there and make sure u survive. LOL.

lizards .

this entry is dedicated to natasha, my dear starfire. LOL
since she asked me to blog about LIZARDS, here goes...
i think LIZARDS are gross creatures. i totally don't like them. ppl might think that LIZARDS are cool. but they're so NOT! EWWWWW..... imagine how they drop their FUGLY tails when you catch them. YUCK! they wanna escape from your evil clutch. haha. well... since GECKO and LIZARDS are in the same family, i should juz throw in a couple of lines bout them. GECKOS are pretty gross too. and they do drop their FUGLY tails too. YUCKY YUCK! *pukes*

WEIRD !

you know how weird it is?!
do u have any idea?
neway, it was HALLOWEEN yesterday. and today is DEEPAVALI, also known as the 'festival of light'.
see the big difference.
in case no one noticed the difference.
it was so DARK yesterday. and BRIGHT today.
well well... time for a change ain't it?!

HALLOWEEN!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!
the day when all the ghosts and ghouls unite.
but there's nothing to fear.
TRICK-OR-TREAT.

OMG!
there's like so many things i've not done.
i haven't made dental appointment.
i haven't settle my prom dress and stuff.
i haven't been really studying these days.
UGH! UGH! UGH!
is kinda getting in my nerves.
THESE THINGS!

i'm outta here...

ooh... i didn't realize that i've not blogged at all.
TILL NOW!
ARGH... CRAP.
neway, here goes.
I GOTTA MUG. I REALLY HAVE TO.
"what the hell are u doing ODEL?!"
"START MUGGING, YOU FOOL!"
UGH!
i don't like this voice ringing in my head.
caused by my own pain.
UGH!

i'm outta here...

IS ALL U ISN'T IT?!

i so freaking DISLIKE you right now.
i don't use the word HATE.

there... is in BLACK and WHITE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

it's been a good day.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

i would wanna thank everyone who made my made with YOUR messages and wishes. be it thru phone, messenger or watever. THANK YOU!
I LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS.
thanx for remembering. =)

to JOSH : thank you so much for spending the night away with me. and jess and pong. i really really really really really like the glass rose. I LOVE IT. thanx. much love. <3

to PONGSA : thanx for spending the night away with me bro! much love. <3 haha =P

to JOACHIM : thanx for being the person who wished me the most number of HAPPY BIRTHDAY in a day! much love. <3

to my beloved sister JESSLYN : thank you for spending the night away with me. much love. <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! =)

YAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
LOL.
=D